HTH turns into life!

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2009-06-24T13:47:00.002+01:00

- MEANTIME MANY THINGS HAPPENED - I'LL FREEZE MY BLOG - I'LL RETURN SOMETIME LATER THIS YEAR - THANKS FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING! -

BEST REGARDS

YOUR,
HARRY HOLZER

The crisis goes on!

2009-01-26T13:51:00.002Z

Hi Folks!

It’s once again a long time ago, since I wrote my last post. But as you can see, I had overall right with my forecast. As you can see, many things really set in. But I want to be clear – this doesn’t have something to do with having a crystal ball. The indicators haven’t changed all the years of our free market place. If a crisis comes, it always shows up the similar way. If you want to see them once again listed have a look on my last post.

Regarding my own life, I have been called up from our state to provide them my services. I’d be stupid, if I wouldn’t have taken this chance. Right now it’s a tough time and the most secure job you can have (if this is possible in anyway), is working for the state/your country. By the way, if you should have this opportunity to work for your country also think about, that this crisis will be finished at some time again. So regarding myself, I’ll also start with an education. I’m going to start either by end of 2009 or starting 2010 with the MoM :-D (Master of Management).

It’s our liability to shape our future. Now the time is even more pointing out, that it’s all on you. To give you an idea, in my past years I suffered a lot because of my own failures. Even now, I need to pay my debts and to focus again on my own wealth management. Before, I could fall back on my parents or anyone in my environment – they’d help me. But now, no-one is there to help me out this time…

And to be quite honest, I really enjoy this time, where I need to turn all by myself. It’s all of a sudden so easy to me – it’s always easy, if you haven’t got any other possibilities. ;-)

Now to my saving marks:
(This are just tips for fun or if you’re really fucked, you maybe better use them ;-) )

1) You can hold up longer a lollipop if you don’t rip off the paper.
2) Save toilet paper by dividing the spool into two with a sharp knife.
3) Don’t throw away used q-tips, you can use them to oil squeaking door hinge.
4) If you buy antiquities, don’t forget to take with your own stamp with the label: “made in Taiwan” to bargain a better price…
5) Before eating bread, pump it up with an air pump! (This does just function with white bread)
6) If your toner cartridge is empty, refill it with coffee- or chocolate-powder!
7) Your wristwatch doesn’t function anymore and a repair doesn’t make sense? Prick a hole through the middle where all the needles are hanging up and stock a nail through it – no you can use your watch as a sundial.
8) You haven’t got a coffee filter more? No problem – use old stockings.

So finally to my today’s motto:
Someone who thinks logically provides a nice contrast to the real world. Unknown

World finance crisis, the “worldfinancecrisis”

2008-12-03T09:35:00.002Z

Salutti!

In my last post, I listed some indicators, which also belongs to a finance crisis. And what I expected started to set in. The miss of most economist is, that they can explain you how the crisis or a failure has happened, but they can’t tell you in advance ;-)

Since 1929 the world-market has suffered many crises. They had always similar cycles.

Basically you may list some points:

- economic slowdown
- pessimistic assessment of the economic climate
- downturn of demand
- overfilled stocks
- reduction of overtime, start of reduced working hours
- missing investment
- retirement of production (-facilities)
- falling interests, prices and salaries
- bears (sinking prices)

Do some points already seem familiar to you? Have you already declared some of these points around your environment? Well logically ‘yes’.

What does it mean? Should we panic?

–I always say (mainly around the German speaking Europe):
“You can start to panic, if your croissant in the morning costs you less then 5 cent!”

We’ve got a challenge, and in this challenge there are also hidden opportunities. If you can, you should start to invest now! Invest in shares of companies, which their market value is deeper than the intrinsic value. Last time I offered you some company-names of European houses. But they’re all over the world. For example, you know a company whit plenty of Hi-Tech stocks but right now nobody can afford a large cargo. So they sit on their stocks and their order book is empty – they don’t gain any win, and so their market value at the exchange fall. In fact they’ve got a higher value already because of their stocks! –But the exchange struggle them down, because they just look at their order book… (Very simplified example)

Or if you’ve got really nuts, be self-employed if you lost your job! Remember that the risk to fall is higher then ever, but if you can hold through this crisis, I estimate, that either you’ll find easily a new employer or your own business will set out as soon the crisis is over…

But after all, don’t forget one thing: After a recession comes a depression! From there on, you start again to see light at the end of a tunnel ;-)

So in other words, be always smart in your approach to the market. Handle it in a way like it would be a small child. –It will cry easily but than it will be again happy the moment after. Finally it needs you, but it’s also your responsibility, how you let it grow up.

Right now, I’m self-employed. I’ve got two mandates in the financing sector and try to survive. I’m absolutely certain, if I can go through this phases, an employer who also passed through it will be in need of one’s peers. The question left is: How long will it go? –I expect around end of 2009 start 2010… But I can’t confirm that, it’s just like anything else estimation. No one has got a crystal ball, right?!

Today’s motto: Courage is being scared to death - but saddling up anyway. John Wayne

I like you. People say I’ve got no taste, but I like you.

2008-11-04T15:34:00.002Z

Hi guys!

Actually I’ve got much news for you, but on the other hand, it’s not really news, rather some impressions I’ve gained in the meantime.

Last weekend my mandate invited me to Stuttgart (Salach), Germany for a “balance sheet analysis” – seminar. As you can see on the pix, it’s been quite impressive. I had a suite and our chef was titled as the best cook in 1989 with five stars. The seminar also gave me a good backup to my old knowledge in analysis. Some tools, how you can find out the intrinsic value of a company even showed me an easier way than how I was told in my studies.

Overall I had a very good impression of the whole weekend there, but my honey doesn’t share the same emotional feelings like I do. She’s got the feeling, that I should look further for another job – one that is more substantial as a mandate job – well, probably she’s right. But I’ve to deal with the things I’ve got.

Let’s also talk about the world economic crisis

My own opinion is based on the economical know-how I usurped in my studies. So let’s start with the facts:

- Real estate crisis in the US started already in 2007

- The finance and banking areas started to shake in 2008

- Commodity prices all over the world turned down and had a volatile growth/loss within the last months

- Even if it’s not that strong published through the news, the unemployment data in the last months has raised

- The pledging of securities are no longer that distanced from the real money market as it used to be

- Main pledges of securities are countries and banks (incl. funds, insurances, etc…)

- …and many things more…

So what is my summery of all this?

Economics who say the crisis is more or less over and soon the market will go up again aren’t realistic. It’s logic, that as next the consumer will have to pay for the miss and that means that in 2009 the recession will go on. In our world history we’ve got plenty of examples where such crises have shown their rhythm.

Companies which are used to sell there goods at a set price, can’t afford to sell them lower. (Regarding the costs that wait on the other side like: personnel expenses, purchase, etc…) Companies who provide others with their goods and have to sell them at a much lower price than before will bleed for this and are also going to save – obviously most of companies save with the employees.

Other companies with expensive products can’t sell them anymore, because their debtors can’t afford them. Also they’ll have to accept losses; they can’t hold the same turnover as in the years before.

Does it mean that we’re sliding again into a depression like 1929?

Probably ‘no’! Time has changed and knowledge has improved. Many entrepreneurs know how to handle these challenges and can even use this kind of recession to grow. More than in 1929, at least! So we won’t have the picture of a high suicide rate like then, but we’ve got the same waves coming up like at that time. Waves never come the same way. Each of you who already have surfed knows what I’m talking about. But waves belong to a cycle, a cycle like day and night; all of them are dependent to each other.

Final summery

We have to face the fact that the hard times haven’t passed by yet. On the other side, we’ve got opportunities. Like for example to invest (if you can) in companies, which their market value is deeper than the intrinsic value. They might be at risk for take-overs. But in the meantime we’ve got structured possibilities to be secure against ‘take-overs’. In other words, you can invest into such companies and can get their share much lower than they should be priced. Here some Swiss Companies: Bobst AG, Arbonia Forster AG, Feintool AG, Georg-Fischer, Rieter AG!

Logically you’ve also got other opportunities: Like investing, as a global character. –Invest in real estate, consumer goods, etc…

But don’t forget, in any area you’re involved, always think long term! Short term thinking right now is for no earthly use. –It’s like gambling in Las Vegas with 10 bucks! (Like a drop in the ocean)

So I’m again focused on the market out here to provide them with my services in Corporate Finance. Maybe it’s a good time for this kind of services. It might bring me some customers who are interested to stay in a long term contract to ensure their liquidity.

Finally let me tell you: Keep your chin up!

Today’s motto: The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket. Texas Wisdom

A day without sunshine is like, you know, night!

2008-10-08T15:54:00.002+01:00

Hellomotto

Again some days/weeks have past by and in the meantime I can see again light and the end of the tunnel. A great Swiss Bank is interested in my application and another fund-company as well. The good thing is, my mandate seems to pay me finally and so my income can still hold me over water till a substantial company will accept me as a new staff. Thanks God!

Unfortunately one of my best friends has been taken to the funny house (again). I’ve visited him and yeah, he’s basket case! These shitty – stupid drugs! Actually he’s a genius – no joke! He writes books, poems and is composer for any kind of music between classic to modern and over jazz. But because he didn’t have a compensation at the end of the day, he started to consume drugs – every fuck’ kind of drugs! As he said, to cool down after a hard day (which is an excuse - there are other possibilities)! So finally he said once again, that he’s lucky to have me, because I’m one out of many, who he can talk with.

I gave him a bible and told him: “Markus, as you know, we both have read hundreds of books. With the time, you start to read the first chapter and you already know the end of the story. I read books from physics, like the super-string theory, up to Hamlet of William Shakespeare, but there’s one book – the one in your hand - that still is challenging me every time I read it. If you’re similar mindset like I am take the challenge and try it!” At least he said he would.

Also one of my family is quite intelligent, but kind of stupid with his life. I can’t, nor want to tell you who, but as it looks like, he also spends more time with his drug-addicted friends, than with his social environment like his family or like spending time in searching for a job. He not even wants to search for one, because he says that searching for a job is for poofs… But the guy I’m talking about isn’t that far like Markus, my friend mentioned the chapter before. (He at least accepted, that he’s in need of help)
The guy I’m talking about has got the feeling, that he’s got everything under control. –And he’s that narcistic, that he doesn’t hear on that, what people tell him. I actually still believe that he could have all under control, but he should proof it! Talking is cheep! I want to see facts! But I’m not in the position to tell him anything, because I already know his arguments. –I need to show him a better way, -if I can’t, I’m not any further than him.

I could scream and tear my hair out! With all these things conflicting me, I just can’t do anything else than stay calm. Somehow I’ve got the feeling, if I wouldn’t, no one else would around my environment. But I see again the good sides. I look upon things. I’ve also got problems, but I didn’t, or better never give up myself. If you’re tired to fight, look at the things you’re fighting for!

A phrase at the end of this post I adapted from the movie “Revolver”:

“You can just get smarter, by playing a smarter opponent!”

“You can always find a good opponent on the very last place you’d ever look!” (…Yourself…)

Today’s motto: After the event, even a fool is wise. Homer

Long time no hear!

2008-09-23T12:53:00.004+01:00

Ciao Ragazzi

For good one month, I didn’t write any posts. Some of you already started to write me on my email to hear or see, how live goes on around here…

I didn’t want to break or even drop the blog. –I just had “fucking” much to do! :-D

In the meantime, I faced pretty many discrepancies in my life. Things like: Hidden debts I didn’t want to see. Job-illusions on some applied jobs… and so on!

In this good one month you didn’t hear from me, I suffered many situations, -again. Try to call my creditors for an arrangement and finally had to face, that I can’t even match the agreement with them, because in fact I just have got a lousy mandate-income, that effectively pays my flat and daily expenses and that’s it! No other areas can be balanced! –Neither the insurances, nor the residual bills like phone, health fund, etc…

As I could take out from some of your letters to me, some of you guys are in similar situations and want to know, how I go on right now… -well my dear fellows, I’m going to start a 2^nd job. What else? In this kind of situation, I’m very pragmatic and steady. In other words that means, that I have to move on – so I can reach a monthly income – in any given way (that’s ethic and morally fungible) that holds me over water. –And if honestly some of you guys are in the same situation, what is your suppose? Fact is, that as long I haven’t got a position within a job that’s adequate and pays me the right way, I need to organize a way to reach the standard I’m in! Right?! ;-)

Some of you also asked me, how I can stay ‘All-Time’ that positive… -The answer is: I DON’T!!!

C’mon! You don’t believe that there’s really a person, that’s all day long, 24/7 happy and gay?! The difference is, when you’re down or depressive or just in bad mood, to catch yourself again – or in bad case not…

The difference I’m talking about is: the time span!

In fact all of us know, that after a slide you have again to climb. The natural law of: “Rise and Fall” and I know the following will be even harder, but it’s the truth! “Just the dead fish swim with the current”

If you’re really in the same situation, stop finding excuses why your situation is different! Stop starting sentence with “BUT”! Be straight with yourself. It might be hard (you bet it is!), but in the end it’s your life you’ve to deal with! If there’s something I learned in the meantime, so it’s the one single thing I give you now: No other than you will move your ass – your life! It’s your/my own responsibility! –Neither your mummy, nor daddy, nor sister or brother, nor your friends, nor any other! I don’t say, that to have a good environment doesn’t help (rather the opposite), but in fact, you can’t count on any else than you! That’s one of the hardest fact I had to swallow in the past, but it made me being hip again! Quite honest, you haven’t got an other choice, if you’re really in the same or similar situation like me…

To the end, I want to commit that I’ll hold up the blog as long as …(???) ! :-)

Don’t be afraid, I won’t stop it that soon.

Today’s motto: I was seldom able to see an opportunity until it had ceased to be one. Mark Twain

Can’t keep my ass quiet!

2008-08-22T15:35:00.002+01:00

Saludos

Since my last post many things already have changed again. Somehow I got a voice in me that conduct me to the right course. The day after the last post I went to the social department to fight for my right. I came into her office and brought all my documents with to proof that the adjudication was wrong and I’m allowed to receive the claim. She just opened the first page, read the letter and approved my claim! You may say I’ve been flabbergasted! –All my trembling if I’ll pass through this situation, all my fears about my existence – just blown away in less than five minutes! Unfortunately I won’t receive the amount I first expected, but at least I am in right! Thanks, God!

Starting this week, I’ve been on a one-on-one with a headhunter I already know since years. It has been very deflating! He showed up, that within my last jobs I didn’t give quite a good state for my CV. He said that going away from the bank into a SMB wasn’t a good choice. Right now he’ll look for a bridge solution within a bank till he can find something substantial for me, respectively my education. He said at least it was good to go for the BBA, but my last employer isn’t a good address and it might be challenging to find an adequate job. Finally he came up with addresses like, JP Morgan, Bank Pictet, etc. where he’ll look for this bridge solution-job! Hopefully, he’ll be successful! ;-)

Next week I’ve got again some other interviews with large companies. I expect, that for a bridge-solution I’ll find probably any kind of job within the next weeks.

My financial situation is still very challenging, but I could take up different arrangements with my debtors and actually all where willing to find a way. All beside one! The insurances are still waiting with their answer… -But also with them I’m actually looking forward for a suitable arrangement. I’ve got a kind of stance regarding these debts.

“If you handle arrangement with your debtors and face the debts, you control them. If you don’t handle any arrangement and don’t face the debts, -they control you!”

Right now I listen to the song: nobodies fault but mine

So it’s in my interest to handle them, better now than in future!

Apropos, one of the debtee was that kind, to decreed my debts in the height of CHF 5’000! She said, that because I’m willing to find the arrangement and approached her, she remit all my debts. Imagine (!) if I didn’t have faced my debts and if I wouldn’t have approached her, I’d never received something like this!

And here I am. Face the fact, but stay positive in your approach. I believe that I’m standing right on the brink of making it! Somehow the voice in me leads me through this whole situation and I believe that in the end it will be worthwhile. –Fantastic, now the song: here comes the sun just started!

If you ask me, how I do right now, I’d say I do quite good! I don’t get caught up; I look forward and believe with pure heart it will come again better!

Oh, regarding getting better, my private projects are very near to close! I can’t do any actions, but the parties confirmed almost all of the deals. I guess it works if you cross your fingers for my projects and me. Thank you & keep it up, please! :-D

Today’s motto: It is often easier to ask for forgiveness than to ask for permission. Grace Hopper

Never, never, never give up!

2008-08-13T13:21:00.003+01:00

Ciao Tutti

Days become harder and tougher each day. Beginning last week I called the social department regarding the outstanding incoming funds for the two months I didn’t have a job. In normal case, we’ve got in Switzerland a social department, which gives you an alternative income for the time of max. 400 days. This is a kind of safety net for person who did work for the last two years. You’ll just get something from the department, if you’ve been announced without any own fault. But by now, my old employer Comprendium wrote them, that it has been my own fault – and so I’m no longer allowed to receive funds from this safety net. Finally to cut it down: I’ve to answer back by the law! So again time passes by and I’m left stranded without any cash! I just take each day as it comes and try to survive without to use any money. –But it’s not a living, rather a surviving!

And if this story isn’t enough, my new employer told me, that they’d to postpone (again) the start for Switzerland. Not 4^th, also not the 15^th of August, now it’s getting September 2008! I rate this ever and anon postponing just simply as unprofessional or even shady. –So I had to make a new decision. Decision if I really want to put up this way and the answer is ‘no’!

What stays?

I need again a new strategy and a new plan how to come along. I guess the best focus is to look forward again and search for something conservative but after all substantial. I need to find an alternative job (try hire/temp-jobs/etc…) till end of this month! It’s a challenge I need to take now!

In the meantime there’s also again light at the end of the tunnel with my private projects. It looks like one of those deals seem to set in. Both counter parties have taken up the proceedings. Their negotiation will start within the next days. As soon they’re clear, the first kickback/provision might be expected by end of 2008 (hopefully even ahead of schedule). –So regarding this issue, I want to ask you to keep your fingers crossed for this project and me! Because when this will start, I can focus again on the substantial belongs of life. Factual I know, that I’m not allowed to expect anything from this (even if the project is by 98% the other 2% aren’t any longer under my management), but it’s an option I’ve opened myself by hard working the last months.

Each person on earth, who tries to live and not only to survive, has spread areas where to focus on. So have I, and I realized that actually more than 50% of my goals for life are set in fields where I have to work on my own person. For example I’ve wrote down:

- Be a man who’s word counts on!

- Always stay over things / be master of the situation

- Be a brilliant master for contract negotiation

- Be a loving person

- Handling/Be wise (spiritual and worldly-wise)

- Etc…

The other ~43% are goals in the area like material luxuries…

A sentence I use over and over again is: “I need to get clarity on what to focus on and what things mean to me!”

Right now this sentence is quite a challenge. On the one side I’ve got the acute financial situation to master and on the other side my career doesn’t set in the way I expected. The true challenge for me is to find the positive things in between to turn them into success. I try to look forward. Stay focused on the areas that need to be handled wisely and not to get caught up by the circumstances.

Today’s motto: Rinasce piu gloriosa / He arises new in bigger glory / Phoenix lat.

...and the show has to go on!

2008-07-29T16:43:00.004+01:00

Chepas!

After reading my last post I tried to rate the state/mood I’ve been at this time. –Probably as all would slider out of my hands, just quite before I could re-catch. In the meantime my mood and state has changed again. A bit more of self-confidence. As I started operation “Mindfuck” I had to write anything down on paper. As I saw that the facts might point against me, I started to plan down all areas of life. Finally I realized that I already use my knowledge in practice. I found out that in several areas I use my knowledge already on a high stance.

So I asked questions like; how can I use it in the areas where I’d wish to be more focused? Where exactly can I powerful use the knowledge and in which areas it’s for no use? So breaking down the areas, I saw that I’m quite in a good position. I know now, that I need to show my full talent to succeed. This has blown my mind! Just a little more clarity and things don’t seem the same! So further on operation “Mindfuck” I guess the true point is to have a clear picture of your momentary situation. I realized that it’s asking the right question –focused on a target I need or want to reach, makes me be over things/circumstances. –Being master of the situation!

The shaping of operation “Mindfuck” finally struggled down on a simple project-master-file. A file each of us can make with an excel-sheet. I’m just planning ahead, split into a timetable and a project overview.

New division:

Two weekends ago I went with Fabienne and Co. to Val di Lei or Valle di Lei – actually it’s the same place just different written. I climbed up to a mountain peak early in the morning while the chaperones still chilled after a boozed evening – in cause of Fabienne’s birthday. On the top I left some prayers, yelled down the vale and returned for brunch. Actually I was out my estimation of climbing up in 30 minutes. I used more than the double and almost had to puke my guts out by reaching the peak! But reaching the target was satisfactory! I added some pix of the peak and of the view up there! It seems like heaven and earth are in harmonic state dancing with each other. Like, as freedom would fit the moment!

Today’s motto: My life is my message. Mahatma Ghandi

Pie in the sky!

2008-07-16T11:18:00.002+01:00

Cheers me!

Have you ever been in the situation, where you knew that changes are standing on in your life, but because you move on a thin line between falling and winning you didn’t figure out in which way the changes will come?

Sometimes I get in the position where I think I risk too much. But on the other hand, I can’t face the situation and accept it how it is! It’s like: “Is this all I get?” But before I get into a melancholic state I need also to list up the facts. I’m now 28 years old and from August 08 I may start for a financing company as a sales & marketing manager/director. My earnings are beyond any ‘normal’ other persons in my age (6-digits a year). And still I’ve got the feeling that life doesn’t give me the piece I’m worth. As some of my readers know, I’ve also got debts. Debts aloft 5-digits! Even if I earn 6-digits, it will take too much time away before I can start to build up something substantial.

In the meantime I invested plenty of time to get also another deal set up in the commodity area. Some of the guys I work with are dreamers. Does it make me also an unprofessional dreamer? Probably a bit! Hard fact, but it’s a fact that I can’t move way. In other respects I got quit tough professionals, which want to move on with any possible way. But here I’ve got an axiom: “Don’t swim with the sharks if you’re a small fish!”

Also nothing else than realistic is not to introduce the dreamers with the pro’s. It might end in a way I’d loose both of them, because the dreamers might blow up the relation I’ve build up in the last years with the pro’s. I feel sorry to face also this fact, but it is. So here I am and finally came to the decision not to waste any time more in this direction, aside from what I’ve done already.

From next week on, I’ll focus on my new position as a sales & marketing manager/director. I’ve got already plenty of evaluated projects, which I can use for a fast and substantial start within the new company.

Finally coming still to another picture: Last week I made again something for my soul, spirituality and mental health. I went once again to a Christian’s Children-Camp as a camp leader. Unfortunately I just could stay for the half time, but at least I could take distance from my situation. I had very good conversations with people who care. I had a very nice nature ambience (see pic, the glacier is backing out). And I could just sooth my soul in this whole environment. It’s always very important to me to earth myself from time to time. Knowing from where I come and where I want to go. This camp, even if it has been a short time, helped me to find again the way I want to set in for my future. The time there also showed me another fact: “It’s my life and my responsibility who I’ll be in future.” For me it’s something I never lost. It’s an attribute I’ve always been used to, but maybe lost a little from my view. The attribute I’m taking is FIGHT! –For my future and my life it’s always worth to fight. But in the last weeks I’ve just been searching for excuses and I’ve been hiding from the painful reality that right now I need to stand up once again and to move on! –To fight!

Operation “Mindfuck” is still going on! I didn’t forget about it, but honestly it is way more than I first thought. So I’ll return on it ASAP.

Today’s motto: The winner in life is the one who stands up one more time than he falls! unknown

Water ski & facing the reality

2008-07-07T10:16:00.003+01:00

Dear all,

My last weekend @ Fabienne’s place really helped me to get a little more distance from my momentary situation. I ate twice delicious dinner and learned to water ski. The longer it takes time till I can start with my new job, the longer it takes to get clear with my days. In the beginning of my cancellation period I looked forward on things and all in all I had a positive view on things around me. Right now I’m just living each day as it comes. I guess you may say: I’m living for the moment!

The challenge with this is to know that with 99% I can start a new job opportunity in August, but on the other side I need to survive till I can start. I further think that my silly projects I started along the way with two of my friends in fact aren’t profitable. –Also to face this fact doesn’t really motivate me to take a positive view on my situation. It’s always quite hard to admit the hard fact, that all your strengthen you’ve invested in the last months are of no earthly use!

But before I feel sorry for myself I want to come back on my last weekend. On Friday we went dining at Fabienne’s place. Her mother made a tomato risotto with a spice chicken. On Saturday we went to a (dogs-) farm to look for a pup for Fabienne’s godmother. As you can see on the 2^nd pic we also saw newborn pup. Really very cute! Than we actually started to discuss if we’re going home (to me) or we want to stay there. Than we found by coincidence the best compromise! Her brother called us and asked if we’re still at their home, because he’d like to go out on the lake with their boat and if we want we could go out later for dinner in a restaurant by the lake with him. Of course we approved! Than out on the lake her brother asked me if I want to water ski. And guess what a daredevil like me answered, even if I never went water-skiing … ‘YES’! It has been fun! Already after some tries I could stand on the water (-even if it has been shaky, but at least I could… ;-). But the falling on the water by my first tries took away many energy so after some times we stopped again and prepared ourselves for the dinner at the restaurant… After this eventful afternoon and evening we drove home to my place again, where we chilled all night long. So enclosed of this layer here: “Many thanks to Remo and Fabienne for this weekend. It was a doozie!”

Today I face again my small world. A world full of challenges, suffering and hoping on God’s help! I’m ensured that by August I can start my new job. On the other hand, I just can’t come along with the recovery office. My taxes two years ago smashed right back to my face! Someday I’ll have to accept that it is much more painful not to register his taxes, than to fill out these forms. But I’ve been stack up with so many other things, that I neglected my main-duties. So here I received my receipt! At least I could talk with the department for an agreed payment term. They even told me, that I made the right decision. Because if I wouldn’t have come, they would have came to my place and would have made an attachment on my movables! –I at least belong to the group of people that are answering for their failure! “D’oh!” At least once again I could survive the worst by take the responsibility!
But it’s nothing else than a pain in the ass!

I learned all the stuff for success and managing my money! I even studied economics and passed with a degree of a BBA (Bachelor of Business Administration) in the ranking (3.). But I’m still not getting out of mess. There’s a saying which all of us know: “It’s a difference of knowing something or doing what you know!” Somehow I belong to the group of people, which can’t put their knowledge into practice. –This is probably the one single thing I need to fulfil by the next days! I believe it’s the one and only goal for this week! This week I’ll take advantage of this deficit. I need to learn how to put my knowledge into practice!

How shall I start? Where do I start?
Shall I refresh the old knowledge or shall I start with a complete new strategy?
Which kind of resources shall I need for this operation?

That sounds good!
I’ll name it operation: “Mindfuck”
(Applied knowledge turns into HTH’s life!)

Today’s motto: Not because it’s challenging, we don’t risk, but because we not risk, it’s challenging! Seneca

To be spoilt for choice

2008-06-24T09:41:00.001+01:00

Hey Guys!

Do you know the situation, when you know you have to do something but you just don’t…?!

I’ve found once again the comparative: I know I should do something, I even know what I should do, but I don’t!! Why? Because I lie to myself!

What do I mean?

- As you know I’m jobless right now. But I don’t do any applications, because in the last weeks I received plenty of offers – even if the market-situation isn’t on a high peak. But I drag myself with the decision. On the one side I’ve committed to a job in August as a director for sales & marketing. On the other side I should secure myself by also searching for an alternative. (-Just in case - to have a plan B)

But as usual I’ve got an explanation: I’ve already got something like a plan B! I’m still on a project with commodities. If this project will succeed, I’ve got a monthly income that can provide me for a one-year-distance. And so silly I am I just risk the lean time! And here the lie is hidden! In fact I should focus how I can provide the project into success. At least I should set some milestones. Because the whole matter is also reliant to other peoples, I’m just content with the situation as whole! I guess by writing this post I’m also getting clear that I should set this milestones for me! I shouldn’t make it reliant to other peoples! Because I’ve got a quite pragmatic view I know what it needs to succeed – so it’s just a must have for me. If I make it reliant to others, it probably won’t fulfil the way I want. I’ve learned project management in my studies – it’s time to use it. At my studies, I had the highest mark in this subject of our school. It’s time to use the learned…

Now to build a positive pressure in me, I need again to keep up the following rule: I can… / I will… / I must…!!! (If I can, I’ve an option. If I will, I’m on the way to do so. If I must, I’m already in the thick of it)

And that I can control my improvement I need to set the plan into the contact to box sequence! (The main four steps in this sequence are: Contact, Possible, Probable, Box)

Super heavy will be the July 08! I haven’t got a clue how to come along in this month. I just trust in God! I know he won’t let me fall and there’s a reason for the situation and position I’m involved right now. From my spiritual view, I look at it like a test! A test if I’m worth a chance! And I believe I am!

Today’s motto: „Man muß das Unmögliche Versuchen, um das Mögliche zu erreichen.“ (You have to try the impossible to accomplish the possible!) Herman Hesse

Time of waiting – again!

2008-06-10T17:11:00.002+01:00

Cheereo tutti!

In the last days, it seemed like my life would pass by in slow motion. Are you familiar with such situations? ;-)

You know, that you should make some important decisions, but you always postpone them. Not because you’re to lazy or as such, but you still hope the big deal will set in and for this reason, you postpone all other. Right know it’s exactly like what I find again in my small world.

But at least I made it the S.M.A.R.T. way… (More details some posts before)

I’ve been very specific (S.) and know exactly my deadline on the issue with the ‘big-deal’. –Till end of this month – I know from when on I can start with plan B and which partners will be involved.

I’ve also been very keen in setting goals with milestones! (M. = Measurable + A. = Attainable)

Insofar I’ve set any of these goals in a realistic (R.) way. On the one hand I’ve got this ‘big-deal’ to work as a Head of International Projects for/with a start-up company that just started. But if this won’t work out, I can start (plan B) on the other hand as a Sales Director for a company, which is already very unshaken with their position in the market and already exists since more than twenty years! –I guess this includes also ‘tangible’ (T.) ;-)

So here again, in the moment nothing else is left over than waiting… waiting and hoping – but not naive hoping! =)

Harry, be patient!

Today’s motto: Consuetudo quasi altera natura! (Habits are the humans second nature) Cicero

Decisions! –No piece of cheese!

2008-05-29T17:43:00.004+01:00

Dear all,

After my accident I’d a lot of time to make some reflection. As you know, I’ve always been a man who takes the positive perspective. My life-decision on this manner will always be the same! Thinking positive is much more than just looking forward on things. Positive thinking will also help you more in any situation of life!

The last accident could have been almost my last accident ever. Maybe just loosing a bit more blood and HTH wouldn’t ever have turned back into life! So after this experience, many things again have changed!

- Four reasonable companies offered me jobs in a direct or indirect way.

- I got another project going on, if it will fulfill, which will be a manner of the next two weeks, I’ll have so much ‘wealth’, that I can start helping my family and tribe!

- I swear never again to drink alcohol in a quantity where I’ll provoke a situation, where people around me will be an evidence of such a past accident (<- which didn’t have anything to do with alcohol, it’s just a ‘like’/if)!

- I’ll never again hesitate, that there’s a higher force!

- As I’m a believer (latest now), I can’t ever again get in a situation, where I’ll be afraid of something. (If time comes, there’s a reason – and if not, there’s a reason as well!)

- Being worldly-wise is a must have!

- Being smart (S.M.A.R.T. – look two posts before) is also a must have!

- Knowing your outcome is a must!!

- Thinking positive is the only key – for never let you feel low again!

- There’s a reason for my being!

Just an outline of what I DECIDED in the meantime.

As you know me, I can’t let it, - to give you again another tool for your life cycle belongs, regarding goal-settings! Ready?! ;-)

1) I (believe I) can…

2) I will…

3) I must…

4) I do…

So simple it sounds, so difficult you’ll find out it is, if you really try it this way! Let’s give an example:

You tell yourself: “I always wanted to learn a second language!”

Here you say: “I can learn another language…”

If you already say: “I will learn another language!” it means you’ve already applied at a school!

Now if you say: “I must learn it…!” It means you’re in pressure in doing so…

And finally by “do” –ing it, you already speak the second language!

Got the point? ;-))

Today’s motto: “The difference between delaying an issue, or doing it just right on, is you against the world…” Harry T. Holzer

To cut down

2008-05-14T15:30:00.000+01:00

Hi Folks!

I’m sitting here in my office of my flat. Looking out of the window and enjoy the view. Just some days earlier I took all around me for granted. But something happened, I had an accident. I had again a provoked epileptic attack. Some years ago, where I used to consume drugs like sweeties I never thought, that once the day will come, where my body will resign! And I also didn’t use any party-drugs, I just stayed long time awake. Too long! Later in the hospital the doctors told me that I’m not an epileptic sick person. But regarding my family “gene” I’m also higher affected to get an attack, if it’s provoked. Such situations may be: staying longtime awake and/or drinking lot of alcohol.

So because I’m an incorrigible believer, I complained at God! My inner voice yelled something like: “Since the last experience I never again drunk that much, that I’d be rat-arsed. And now, because I just kept longer awake for a poker night with my friends, this happened to me! –This sucks! You Suck! The whole world sucks!” There’s nothing fair on it! Nothing to see positive! But before you guys think I’m turning to a blasphemous way of life, I have to tell you this; as I was on my knees complaining to God, I had all of a sudden a change of heart! Somehow a voice told me to “cut down”!

I can make anything I used to do. But I’m no more a teenager; I’m not even once beginning the twenties. I’m on the best way to thirty! As it seems, Fabienne & I want to have once a day a family. A family needs a dad. So I shall concentrate more on substantial things. In the moment I haven’t got yet a job. I got different outstanding answers, but nothing is for sure! I hope regarding a further step that Dominic won’t twit me! Since we had our project, plenty of things happened. For example he owns now an own company and offered me a job there. This would be my favorite – unfortunately I’m getting put off till end of May with a definitive answer. Another offer came from a guy in Germany. He worked long time as a director of my old employer and runs now an own company. I’ll meet him this Friday. The job he would offer me would be quite the same, like the one I’ve done at last.

I’m not filled with bitterness. But I think the last story really made me think about my situation and life. And finally, the only thing that stays is to look again forward! Getting my ass up and move!

Today’s motto: Experience is one thing you can't get for nothing.
Oscar Wilde

Am I S.M.A.R.T.?

2008-05-07T10:52:00.001+01:00

Hi guys!

In the time gap I’ve got between applying to prospected entrepreneurs I do some research. Research in gaining more knowledge. Knowledge how to come a little more structured in life cycle belongs. So my recent discovery I want to share with you, is the tool of setting goals the S.M.A.R.T. –way!

And here the explanation:

S = Specific

M = Measurable

A = Attainable

R = Realistic

T = Tangible

Specific

To be specific you need to answer all ‘W’- questions. Like:

Who…

What…

Where…

When…

Which…

Why…

…???

(example of answer: “I will be a member of the gym “Holmes” and I will go at least three times a week for workout to get myself again into good shape!”)

Measurable

So that your goals will be measurable you need to break them down into small goals, or also called ‘Milestones’. Give those ‘Milestones’ a deadline. Now by reaching each milestone at the deadline you gave, insures you that you’re on track with your goals! If it’s measurable it’s also the next step…!

Attainable

Your goals are attainable if you develop the attitude, capability and the financial possibility to reach them. Master a plan with the milestones and get closer by reaching each one of them. The more milestones you fulfilled, the more you feel worthy to approach your final goal.

Realistic

The following seams maybe like a conflict, but it’s not! If you can imagine yourself how you work hard to fulfil it, you probably already set a realistic goal. No one else than you will decide if it’s possible or not. Compare it with your history! Is there any similar situation in the past, where you fulfilled something like that? Or which terms do you need to fulfil that you will reach your target? Those are the right questions and perspectives you need to see if it’s realistic or not.

Tangible

Any goal is tangible if you can take it with one of your senses; gusto, touch, odour, view or sense of hearing!

Finally one fact stays: A goal, which you can’t measure, isn’t a goal!

With my “seven-day-positive-thinking-test” I can congratulate me again for starting over on day one *grmpfhhhh-d’d’d’d’mmmmm*!!!

After two days without any negative thought (maybe I had different ones but I didn’t hold them up and immediate focused again on solutions), I had to realise my language isn’t ‘smart’ at all. I just watched soccer as my favoured team (not my favourite team!) received 30 second before end a goal from their enemy. Wowy… I never thought my mouth would open without thinking before… but in this situation I just had to yell out how st*p*d this team is. 30 second didn’t only decide their get on to the next round, it also decided my self-test.

So finally it’s today again set back on day one…

But I’m insured that won’t happen again within the next seven days – at least not like this! ;-)

Another decision I made is not longer to study how and get through a plan till to the last detail, I just got a direction and just trace it without any condition! Just do it! Just Nike!

Today’s motto: Affection is responsible for nine-tenths of whatever solid and durable happiness there is in our lives. C.S. Lewis

Man in the mirror

2008-04-30T11:01:00.002+01:00

Hellomotto

This week started with a kind of interview during the whole day of Monday! Finally they need more than two weeks to give me an answer. Well as usual, hope the best, but expect the worst! ;)

Yesterday I met an old colleague of my school-times. She studied psychology and yesterday at the exact same time as I she was in the employment center! The serendipity by our past, we always met when we were without job. Four times this happened until now and this time we decided to take a cup of tea together. She is one of the most notable persons I ever met. She had a very hard past (violations, drugz, ructions, jail, etc… - just the whole program), but still is in very good mood and shape! She could allocate a worth on her past that she finally could come to terms with it! Wow! I guess 99,999999999~% of all victims never could process this kind of past in such a good way and finally make an education to help others with similar problems as she used to have… So as it had to come, she also made a profile of me. You may compare it with a bull’s eye in a bull’s eye! She brought me to the point, where I had to think over my own situation, even my life as it is right now! One question I’ve never asked myself she asked me: “I see your capability is very high, you’re very intelligent, eloquent and you can see through things as they really are – with all your attributes you can help others, but can you help yourself? Do you love yourself?” It has been an experience like after all; a person just looked through me and saw the small Harry crying in the corner. So she helped me to find a little more to myself again.

This mornin’ I woke up with a kind of song in the ears. Do you know this? You wake up in the morning and a song is chasing you, but you not even know exactly the lyrics, just a kind of buzzing. And here I had the sequence, which I had in the ears today morning:

“I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his way”

So I googled the text and found the song of Michael Jackson: ‘Man in the mirror’! I went to youtube.com to listen the whole song and all of a sudden I just had tears in my eyes. Somehow I really felt, as this song would shout out my situation. But it also motivated me! It has been like a sign from above, which meant to tell me to start to change with myself. Here the link for the whole video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zpTQCQEFhg

I remember the time where I was feeling unstoppable! And do you know the strange thing on this? I felt myself unconquerable in the time where I made my seven-day test! Seven days without one negative thought! It doesn’t mean you don’t even come up with a bad feeling, but as soon you feel it, you don’t hold this state! You formulate your whole language positive! You don’t grumble! And the challenge on this is to hold it up for seven days! See: http://hthturnsintolife.blogspot.com/2007/06/mental-diet.html

I’ll start today, right now! I’m gonna take me again to the mental diet! It’s again time to come up! Step up! I’m thankful for this insight! Also in my situation right now, I can be thankful on what I’ve got right now! I’ll focus again on solutions, not on problems! I’ll take any give challenge! I won’t stop till I’m again on the top!

DEAR VOLKS! HARRY IS BACK AGAIN!!!

Today’s motto: Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe. Saint Augustine

Turbulent time!

2008-04-24T15:12:00.002+01:00

Dear all!

In the past days many different challenges came over my way. On the one side, I’ve got neglected applications with the reason I’d be over qualified and on the other hand, each prospected company searches already for a younger guy with the same experience like I have! So factual, I’m still without job!

My old employer wanted me to pass on my last two salaries, because there’s still a reputed outstanding which they want to claim me for! I’ve been already to the court regarding this issue and after all, they told me I’m in right! I don’t need to say, that this kind of shit doesn’t help me in good to find something else, nor to focus on the elementary cases of my situation.

My mummy is in kind of tremors, because she wants me to find ASAP something new and asks me questions, which I have to answer, which I already answered several times. I got a sort of family pressure on this case as well!

I started again to treat people harshly out of my environment. Just because I don’t get the compassion I’d like. I realize how even I can’t stand those situation in mastery. I want to stand over it, but somehow, I can’t see the wood for the trees.

My consummation on drugs also increased by the last days. Not any sort of hard drugs like all designer drugs or old silly drugs like cocaine or sugar! But I just realized in my last days, that I grip more on spliffs than before! And I don’t want to fall, so I try again to compensate it more and more with sport.

Sport: anyway this is the best area in my momentary situation. Within one month I lost like three kilo fat but gained around 5 kilo muscles! The more I do sport the better I feel. So you may say I’m almost a sport-junkie!

My financial situation is highly stressed. By the last month I paid all the urgent debtees and finally now haven’t got any savings more. I got around 50 days to find a new job and earn again a substantial income. I already search for a new flat, but this is kind of heavy for me, because no hirer wants to offer his apartments to one, who still has got recovery of claims.

Finally I want to come back on my mood. I try to look forward on things. I try hard to constant and never-ending improve my situations. But somehow I’m always caught up by my distressed situations. I need more energy to control myself, than to move forward. I need to step up! I need to break through. I need to have fait! I need to be smart. I need to be lucky (L:labor / U: under / C: correct / K: knowledge). I need focus. I need to be concentrated. I want to be alive again! I need the feeling of winning! I need to be again over things. I need to burn one’s bridges behind me – I factual already did it! Now I haven’t got any other possibilities than moving forward – toward!

Today’s motto: It is easy to be brave when far away from danger. Äsop

Difficulty on decisions!

2008-03-31T17:34:00.005+01:00

Chepas!

Soon two weeks, where I didn’t write a new post into my blog. Reasons are:

Motivation (-deep)
Distraction on priorities
And all time long the question “what shall I do next?”

I have been already some times in similar positions, but never in this way. Why?

Let me give you a short view over my situation right now:

I got already some job-offers, but none of them really seems to suite me for the next five years. The consulting company already set in a further step. I passed the second interview with the CEO there, but to be honest, I wasn’t on my highest shape to sell my person, nor personality. I couldn’t set in a standard where I would have been poised to him. He was/is a very pragmatic and conservative guy, who really was very keen on searching any gaps in my CV. –Overall I may say, that I can’t evaluate how the interview was. Maybe good, maybe wanky. And finally I have to write a letter, where I shall explain why I’m the right person for this job!

An other offer was a position as a CFO – quite coaxing but I don’t think I’m the write person yet for this kind of responsibility and liability. Not least I haven’t got the experience yet.

An other negative answer I received from a financing company, which gave as reason that I’m over qualified for the position they first approached me!

Debts are outstanding but I could set up agreements with the most debtees. After all, they’ve got an understanding for my situation. J (or the fact better later than never…)

However, right now I don’t feel myself very comfortable. I want to get clear with my life and future.

At the end of each tunnel light shines! My light shone already since last Friday! (By the way: my birthday-bash on the pic)

On my private mandates in the commodity business I’ve got two parties which already committed their agreement to set up a contract to make business! This coming Friday I’ll have to sign up a pre-contract for any margin and earning belongs. As soon this contract will be signed by all parties, we can go further on the main-contract with the seller and buyer! Hopefully this will be the long expected deal!

So after all the story doesn’t end here! Many things still have to be conquered and discovered. And as you say: I won’t give up till the last drop of blood will fall! I got a master plan to fulfill and this concludes to give my share for a better world. Hospitals and welfare institutions still have to be build … -I guess, I’ve got a kind of a vision! Some clarity work to do on this ;-)

I have to start again prioritize things as an issue, than I have to come up with a plan (included sequence of my master plan). Something I have to fulfill. Yes, that’s the right way…

Today’s motto: Daring ideas are like chessmen moved forward. They may be beaten, but they may start a winning game. Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (1749-1832)

Crazy times

2008-03-19T11:37:00.003Z

Dear all,

Near Easter and soon one week no more working I start again to reboot my activities in the market. I’ve got till end of March around three further interviews with banks and financing institutes. Most of my endeavours are concentrated in banking and financing. Exceptional the key account manager within a consulting company. I’m not yet clear with the job-details I would have to do there, but the company size and their philosophy sounds very interesting to me. So maybe, if I’m getting more sure with the details, I’ll take up a completely new challenge in a new branch of business.

Momentary I got two areas where I have to get clear.

1) Finances/Accounting
2) And the question: Where do I want to work in the next 5 years?

On step one I’m probably further. As it seems I got the possibility to take up a credit over the amount 10’ to 15’k. This will help me out of my momentary situation and will allow me to start the new job as soon it takes place immediate and without any bad debts.

On step two I have to reconsider which job will settle in and I can imagine to keep up for the next three to five years. I’ve got job offers, but I still haven’t decided or confirmed which of those would be the one. In this moment, I wouldn’t be averse to come away from the “sharks” branch. But on the other hand, I got the best possibility there to gain huge amounts. Actually I’ve still got just one ultimate target: Gaining a huge amount, somewhere around 80mm, and with this cash hedging my income and with this power helping people all over the world which are in need. For example building a welfare institution in a third-world country. -Or any kind of this direction, where in the end of day you can see what you’ve build.

So my focus right now is mainly with my mandates. If I can move one of these contracts to fulfilment, I don’t think that I’d have any serious problems coming up in future.

But once again; taking is cheep! Time has come where I don’t have to talk just one word, but rather taking action. So let’s talk about the positive thinks I’ve got with this situation.

I’ve got…

1) … time! At least time till May 08!

Time to make sports/athletics/martial arts
Time to read and learn autodidactic
Time to create a master plan for the next months and years
Time to network
Time to get clear

2) … an environment which wants to help me.
3) … a family which supports me in any matter.
4) … a main squeeze who loves me in any kind of challenge or situation.
5) … belief!

Belief in Jesu/God
Belief in my own abilities
Belief in myself
Belief that the momentary situation won’t last forever
Belief that times will come up again where I’m wealthy

6) … covered my daily expenses for

Food
Car
Phone/Cell/Internet/TV

7) … thousands of contacts all over the world, which I already met personally.
8) … motivation to start something new.
9) … health.
10) … a roof over my head.
11) … mandates for commodity belongs.
12) … know-how in different areas like:

Psychology
Economics
Couching
Communication
Sales
Religions
Philosophy
Captaincy
Military (Anti-Terrorist-squad)
Martial arts
Athletics
Parcour
Networking
Kaizen - Management
NLP
A great common knowledge
Meeting own set targets to fulfilment

Maybe just twelve points, but twelve points with sub-categories! All in all, I’m not afraid, because I’m of high capability and quality. The person I’m today is much more than I’ve ever dreamed of. So finally, now is the best time I got to shape my future for wealth and satisfaction. I won’t deny! Then every wrong attempt discarded is an other step forward! Thanks Edison! ;-)

Today’s Motto: If you can dream it, you can do it! Walt Disney

Fired! (please read also former post)

2008-03-13T17:11:00.002Z

Ciao peoples

This morning has been really very, as you say in the UK: “Fuckin’ Funny!”

I went to the office to do my job. I knew that my boss wanted to talk with me. As I entered his office he was very enjoyable. I didn’t think any bad thing as he finally opened the chat.

“Harry, you’re fired!”

I just hard swallowed. Asked for the reason and he looked at me like he first had to study what to say. Than he started, that I didn’t meet the target (well I did, but not the way as he wanted – not for him – for our company), the trust between me and the company is destroyed and not repairable (In fact it’s just between him and me) and finally he concluded I didn’t do my job! (As in my contract stands, there are urgent cases, where I can be used for other duties – and our CEO told me, I shall concentrate on winning deals in the market and shouldn’t quibble with small shit.)

Now in the end, the situation is the following: Two of my supported projects may find now the finishing and very probable, the deals may be closed. The margin I would get, are finally falling into the downline of my boss. So I guess, he won, if he really can change it the way this morning by firing me! This is a completely new situation. I didn’t expect that our CEO would be that credulous and would change his opinion that easy or even that fast. My boss told me, that our CEO gave his blessing over my layoff. In the end, the facts show I’m without job! Crazy!! How come our CEO could write me less than one week ago, that he wants me to focus on winning deals and it shouldn’t be an issue to handle the differences between my boss and me. I can’t get it. Somehow any kind of case someone had to tell him a STORY, which he took for granted. But even then, he should be reliable and approach me to hear my storyline…

So, I just left the office and not even 15 minutes later my (ex-) boss announced my cancellation to our intranet. From then on, my phone kept on running and different emails dropped in. All kind of peoples want to ask me what happened. The only approach I can give is that not once I know what exactly happened. What shall I say? –It has been a surprise par excellence how shit happens. Now I can start to ask myself, if I overestimate myself. Or what did I do wrong? Or what ever question won’t bring me any further, just bringing me more down and depressed. I tell you guys, I won’t deny my reputation. I have plenty of co-workers, agents, brokers, customers who tell me how they appreciate my work and manners.

Just some minutes ago, the guy from a large private bank out here called me regarding our cooperation. –I told him what happened and he immediately cancelled the whole project. He told me, that he can’t accept a partner in their house, who layoffs a man like me with this kind of reasons. Later he offered me his network for my job-seeking! What an offer! Thank you!

What is left to do? I think the best would be, if I go through my network and see if there’s an outcome… and on the other hand, I guess some weeks now the best is just to get some distance to the whole case. ;-)

Today’s motto: For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Positioning?

2008-03-12T11:28:00.002Z

Dear all,

In the last days I’ve got plenty of discussion how my future shall be tracked. On the one site I’ve got new options to pull. Last Monday I could go for an interview to a consultant company. They showed themselves as very interested to my person, where today I shall get the date for my second interview. On the other hand, even “google” opened a new branch in Zurich and have shown different position, which would match to my profile. End of March ‘08 I may have my first internal impression of their house.

This would mean that per today I can approach another strategy with my current employer. My current boss wants to move all projects I’ve supported since last November into his downline. Our CEO told me, not to care about such issue and I shall concentrate on winning deals in the market. Now I’ve got two deals which we can finalize and one boss, who also want to be involved. –Probably by reason of margin belongs.

Now to my strategy: I’ll involve him into my projects. So if in the end, he’ll beg that these projects should be moved into his downline and it would be accepted by the upper management, I’ve got the proof, that the philosophy of our company won’t suite for a further cooperation with me. So in this case my decision will be falling either on the consulting company or to the internet giant. It would be a bummer, because in the moment I’ve got projects stocking my desk with a total volume of around 100 Mio. Euro. But for me it’s too pity to deal with such things, while on the other site I’ve to bounce for my own supported projects. In such a case, no one could bear a grudge to me. On the one site, I’ve been fair enough to show my loyalty to our company, if it’s not mutual, this would be reason enough to leave! If they handle the case with 100% absolute fairness, I still can stay and neglect the others. –Just fucky funny and 101% fair! ;-)

But this whole ballyhoo also had its negative consequences. The job obviously just can be offered to the 1^st of the month and because I expected it this month, somehow it didn’t set in… -So it has to be now on the 1^st of April. This means I have to recalculate my creditors. I put them of from February to March. Now is March and my higher salary will drop in next month – April – not March. Now I’ve to promise them again one month later. Hopefully none of them will neglect my demand! This month I got to pay my flat and my trustee. But on the authority office for the enforcement of payments I also still have got an amount which I’ve to pay now, or they will make an attachment.

I urgently need money! The question is how I will come into the position where I can gain money ASAP!?? I got a friend who makes the brokerage issues for me. –I can’t beg him for more. I got another friend, which offered me to pay my trustee if the amount which I’ve involved into the brokerage will be divided. Now what about my flat? Shall I hope that my bank will pay it and will let me fall into the depts with their account? I will have to ask someone to lend me cash and therefore I just can go to ask my family. But unfortunately my dad I can’t ask for, because he just desperate with my mummy. My mummy? Maybe! My bro’? –No chance. My g’mom – no way! I never asked her for something like this. So in the end only one problem will come up. How shall I pay my flat for March? –My employer plays hide and seek and plays out my new position into April! I got just one force for good! I can still stand over things to handle them. Also if the situation right now is quite shitty, I need to go trough all this. Because in the end, it’s the opposite! I’ll share with my friends and family the assets I’ll take out in future if I pass through this!

I hope you’ll accord me through my momentary situation. It’s time to handle and give action.

Today’s motto: Action and reaction, ebb and flow, trial and error, change - this is the rhythm of living. Out of our over-confidence, fear; out of our fear, clearer vision, fresh hope. And out of hope, progress. Bruce Barton

Goodbye nerves!

2008-03-03T17:03:00.002Z

Chepas!

In the last days the capacity where I’ve been exposed was on the highest since years. My boss gave me the same offer as last week and finally our CEO also confirmed it would be the company-offer to or for me!

What shall I say? I’m happy our CEO gave his rubber-stamp on this issue. And so I finally took their offer as per today. Coming now to something really hardcore stuff what probably makes you stare question marks!

My boss wanted me to swallow following case:

He said that as soon I start in the new position all my projects and all other stuff will be reset! So I may start from zero! Than we even got closer to the projects. Two high potentially prospects, which already committed their agreement to take the financing with our house, -he wanted to take into his pipeline! And to be clear with you guys – this case I found really rude! Nowhere this kind of approach would be legally approved. But he really wanted to check my guts. As it’s still in my memory, I almost stood up and yelled “this is criminal”. I couldn’t get the point!

But finally as our CEO’s word should be reliable he told me not to render me into such kind of sh** and agreed that it’s not our policy. –So to translate this diplomatic answer I guess he told me the case is dealt and I shouldn’t be afraid.

Curiously my boss was very business like to me today and really focused on businesses and didn’t actually step on my nerves. It seems like someone handled the issue the upright way. God bless!

Funny enough these two projects gave me quite a compliment today. Both, independent from each other, told me that they are very happy to work together with me. They said that other companies not even made half of the work, which I did to win them, resp. their commitment to our services. And how come this is possible?

Here to my secret of winning prospects:

Be upright all the time.
Any issue what comes in, answer and handle immediate!
Threat people the way they want be threaded, but never loose the respect to your own person!
Hold up your own standards and ethic codec – never play games where you don’t know the roulez!

Sorry to bother you in the last posts continuously with my business belong. But to be honest, it’s the term which takes the most energy at this time and where I really have to write about. Imagine the last days I had. I risk all to win and now it looks like I won. But to take this kind of stress you have to be clear on what your goals are. You need guts to fulfill the result you want. But it also has been, or still is a challenge for my life. And just because it’s a life-challenge for me, I have to take such risks to be once upon a time free. Free to me means to live your life according your own concept. And finally: Bear the price!

Today’s motto: I am certainly not one of those who need to be prodded. In fact, if anything, I am the prod. Winston Churchill

Where do we stand?

2008-02-25T14:13:00.001Z

Hi guys!

Again some days passed by and I’m just a bit further with my salary negotiation. My boss gave me his okay over my new position as a Key Account Manager. On the other hand, he decreased my salary again down with 10k bucks a year. Further he screwed up the target from 8 MM to 10 MM revenue a year (what not even himself reaches) and pushed up the margin target from 360k up now to 1 MM a year (what he just reached by gouging our customers). Commission 5% instead of 8% what’s usual for our company. So in the end, I finally incorporate our CEO to handle that with my boss. I don’t know, what you guys think about, but for me it shows very clear his character – bottom line: This guy isn’t reliable! I even think, that he’s getting more stressed about a new competitor, than he actually should concentrate on terms like: “How will our team work out the estimated targets including Harry!” But his question is: “How can I thwart Harry in that way, that in latest one year he won’t be an issue!”

As my mentor René told me this morning, I shouldn’t relay too much on this guy or on our company. He says I shall just look now toward the possibilities he offers me and we’ll make ASAP a deal together so I may leave my momentary employer. Even if they’d fire me, René says I’m still better served, because in this case I can focus on the cases which pushes me toward and our social network would even pay me 70% of my last salary for the next 18 months out. So if I can see clearly my own situation, I really can’t loose anything. I also gain more and more offers from other companies which want to pay me an upright salary if I go way from here. But my loyalty is still built on the super product we’ve got and all other clerks around here which really wants me. My friends are top/down from the CFO till down to the back office.

Another issue what also pricks on my nerves is one of my private projects (one of those deals, which when it would work out, would give me a substantial income…). One of the members started to play his dirty little game. In other words, he turned us his bottom and wants now to work on his own – letting the team just standing in the rain. But as I was expecting something like this, so I included an assurance for myself. –Well this guy is still very young. Honestly he remembers me at my own. When I was in his age, I tried hardly to go a successful way even if others where pointing against me. I know his situation and do know that he just tries to survive. But in the end it will be a simple decision over his coming future. The only decision that counts at his position is:

Am I true blue on my rulez and am I willing to bear the price?

If the answer is ‘yes’, do it! But never forget from where you come! If you loose your livelihood, you loose the ground under your feet. And in case you fall, there will be no one there to catch you!

For my own mood I can tell you, that in the meantime I’m very calm! I got offers from other companies if my employer won’t like to pay for my services, I’ll choose the one where I got the most profit – not only cash meant.

Today’s motto: What counts is not necessarily the size of the dog in the fight – it’s the size of the fight in the dog. Dwight D. Eisenhower

Final – Offer

2008-02-20T08:41:00.004Z

Saludos!

As you could take out of my last post, I wasn’t that amused with my one-on-one with my boss. But now as it looks like, we could find a midway which fits both of our expectations. The only thing what had to change is my position.

In the final mail I sent him, I committed to the new position as a Key Account Manager and won’t be more the Research and PR Manager of our house.

I’ve got yearly target revenue of around ten million. On the other hand, I’ve already around twenty million in my pipeline. If I hold up this standard, I’ll snap up this target with a smile.

Finally my boss has still to commit. It’s just a yes or a no.

At the moment I’m sitting in my office and do nothing! I don’t say that I'm starring in space, but I’m just waiting till I get his answer. From then on, I’m fully motivated to get more business for our house.

What shall I do, if it turns into worst-case-scenario? (I’m actually that sure, that I won’t get in the worst-case, but just let’s summarize IF)

I’ll have to bear the price and search for a new job. –That easy… :-D

Now new in my life is I've got a mentor! His name is René! He’s a tough guy and huge shareholder of nearly 500 companies all over the world. He’s got different mandates as member of these governing boards. He’s also a huge investor mainly in the commodity branch. But one thing, which even impresses me more, is that he’s an underdog par excellence. No-one really knows much about him. He isn’t exposed in the public and can carry just a normal life with his family. Just like I’d like to reach once upon a time! He told me, that he’ll lead me to the atmosphere where I want. To be clear, he will also earn substantial money, if he brings me there. He doesn’t work for free, but he makes it depending on my success. –Fair enough! I really looked a long time around here for a guy, which means it uprightly with my person. I’m very anxious to 2008!

Than Fabienne picked me up on the social side, once again! My poor jalopy was completely down. The brakes have been already down scratching metal on metal. My center point steering had urgently to been aligned again and my tires already drove down on the security net between tire and tire-tube!!! So as my boss refused my February provision payment, I was really in a mess now. But Fabienne gave me the ‘order’ :-) to go to the mechanic because it just was too dangerous for her to drive with… ;-) lucky me! And thx honey bunny…

So hopefully the big boss agrees to my new employment contract and than I can move again more forward on my goals and the goals of our company.

Today’s motto: One of the greatest diseases is to be nobody to anybody. Mother Teresa

Harry meets butthead

2008-02-13T16:32:00.003Z

Cheereo tutti

Today my one-on-one with my boss regarding the salary increase occurred. I know I actually wanted to formulate also negative things the positive way. Hmm. Okay, let’s try it:

The outcome at the end of the meeting was neutral. We/he couldn’t make a decision and so we had to postpone the whole story. But where I really had to struck his blow was with my provision for the February payout. He was that kind to take the checking over the last year with all deals and new prospects I’ve done. And than he told me, that he can’t give me a payout of the next provision, because last year, he actually paid too much. So starting this year (after I was in a sortie whole January), he said I’ve to balance out the one I’ve got too much by this time! So to give you a picture, that’s an amount of 11,500 bucks! That’s missing now for the next three months, because I can’t claim on it!

Than I told him, that I actually don’t care any further, because I won’t work longer for him, if my fix sum doesn’t increase the double. You should have seen his face… He almost chokes up! Looked at me like I’d dream in a fairytale! Than I told him, that I’m just asking for the half what he’s earning. He answered: “From where do you know how much I earn!” I told him, that this has just been a feint to see if I’m right and as it seems, I’m bull’s-eye. He tried to neglect that it’s not true, but than I answered him, that if it wouldn’t be true, his reaction would have been different. My ass, he yelled around like a dog and told me, that this isn’t term of this meeting and he and me couldn’t be comparable. What a funny smash-face…! But I want to see anyone out here, who wants to work for a guy who not even wants to payout his pick of the bunch.

So after all, he wants me to wait that he can talk in the meantime with our CEO. But if it’s any possible, I’ll also take a short chat with our CEO. (In the same meantime)

As it seems, I’ve really to prepare plan B! Plan B is to go into a cross examination with him on front of our CEO. I guess now the time is near to take action in a new direction. I’ll have to proof, that for more than 130 prospects I’ve taken into our house, my boss just closed 4 of them. Imagine this for 100 prospects, a bank employee closes around 15-20 prospects out of 100. And those employees aren’t yet in the management; they’re just normal employees within the customer service center. Now, if such a guy would be in the bank – they’d fire him! But here within this small company, he can do like he wants to and no-one realizes anything. A further fact is that none of our brokers want to work with him. He takes too long to deal with their requests and so they come all to me, where their requests will be handled at the same day. (I got around 12 Brokers, which would commit this point by letter)

To be short, I’m really very hard in a huff! I’d like to break some faces and I’d love to smash his pointy-head. I’d wish to give even more cuss for this donkey ass-lover, but I won’t offend any mule!

I won’t accept this guy to struggle down my carrier! Now he really awoke me and now I’ll fight till my last fuck’ drop of blood will fall! That means I’ll close now all my prospects alone and will rise up the volume which he can’t fallow at all! You mo**** fu**** as***** - you haven’t got a clue with whom you deal!

Today’s motto: If you can’t stand the heat, get out of the kitchen. Harry S. Truman

Harry's back of military and turns back into life... ;))

2008-02-05T15:37:00.000Z

Whooha!

Finally back again from my sortie! One full month just being surrounded of green helmets isn’t a bed of roses. Those guys who also serve their countries in a military institution know that most popular topics are:

1) Sex – women – parties - cars

2) Affrays – boot/recruitment camp – past sorties!

Imagine one full month just hearing those topics. I think finally you’re fit for the funny house… ;-)

It has been my last full sortie. Next year I still have got 5 to 10 days. In comparison with the last month it’s just a picnic. My training has been specialist for anti-terrorist squad. With this education you must at least serve 3 times in a sortie. Like for example the World Economic Forum (WEF) in Davos or embassy custodies. In the last eight years, never ever something huge happened. Most of the time you’re just getting drilled in the beginning to refresh your know-how and as soon the sortie starts, your state is alert, but nothing happens. You just stand around and stare into space. At least my last sortie wasn’t that boring. I’ve changed my unit. From the root-company to the battalion commander company. There I could involve my skills in strategic planning and tactical training. I’ve been directly subordinated to the squad leader. As it seams I’ve made a good job.

(As you can see on the pic we could also take the whole sortie with humor) ;-)))

Now to get back to my actual private life:

My financial situation didn’t get any better. But how should it? I’ve been one month away. But at least the outlook shows up some light at the end of the tunnel. :-)

Next week I’ve got my one-on-one with my boss regarding my salary and job position for 2008. My goal is to break away the provision part and get the double per fixed sum. Further I want still to be authorized for the yearly bonus. Probably my boss hasn’t got the authority to fix my wish, but than I got free range to go to the CEO and recommend my will/plans.

On the other side, my private projects are turning into the next level. If they will fulfill end March, than my economic stadium will be anyway no longer the same. Two contracts are in nearer approach to be set down. Finally we’re shaping these two terms since half a year.

Funny thing what I realize with my being is my coolness in the situation I’m in now. I think so many other people would break and quit. Me not, I just came to far now to stop. I just got one way open, going forward. But to tell you, that’s no peace of cake! I’m tapping near to loose everything what I build till to present day and on the other side I’m near to win all I’ve ever wished. My nerves are quite under permanent load and this shows my habits like smoking reefer or the constant wish to drown my sorrows. The only way I can discipline myself is through Jesus. I can’t say that I can keep it up all the time. But the fluctuation isn’t that high anymore as it used to be. Especially my time in the military helped me to get back into a normal rhythm. In the meantime it’s like if I would just pack all my pressures and carry them to the cross. There I dump all these stuff and say, it’s yours! Take it! I got other things I’ve to focus on! And therefore it’s like a partnership between him and me. I focus on the belongings around my environment and he takes away all those packages so I can sleep and work the way I should.

I know it’s kind of complicated to understand. I also can’t explain it in other words. It’s something I feel deep in my soul and just give trust to it. The construction of the Christian religion is like a backup to my knowledge in learning strategies, NLP, education and all other skills I’ve build up to be armed in this world. It’s like if all those skills fail, I can reboot my computer with the construct of Jesus. More details you may find in the new testament of the bible… :-)

Now my state is bumpy. I should start with many things but I just can’t get it on. I’m still like paralyzed. Maybe I should clean up something I still don’t bear in mind. But somehow I’m also not in mood or just not really motivated. Worst thing what could turn in to me right now is getting resigned while I should power up. Similar things happen also to athletics/managers/orator/students/… before an important event starts. I just better get something started, before I shut down at the wrong time! ;-)

Now coming to the end of today’s post I still want to give myself some credos which maybe you want to share with me. Credos for 2008!

I formulate even bad and negative things positively. (In fact the other doesn’t really help you)

I’ll handle my spending the smart way.

I’ll believe, not doubt!

I’ll proof my discipline (of my moral codex)!

I’ll lead, not follow!

I’ve got a healthy attitude.

Life is a play!!!

So, that’s it. Hope you’ll visit my page again more now when I’m writing again regularly ;-)

Today’s motto: "Life is like a Ferrari, it goes too fast. But that's ok, because you can't afford it anyway." Mel Brooks

Military: Sortie @ WEF World Economic Forum

2008-01-21T08:35:00.000Z

Dear all,

It’s been a long time I couldn’t write anything in my blog. Actually I shouldn’t right now, but I just have to. Some of you guys know that here in Switzerland is the WEF (World Economic Forum) in Davos. The reason for my absence is this stupid sortie from 03.01.08 till 01.02.08. In other words, during this time, it’s not possible for me to be online and write into my blog. But as you can see, I don’t really care and so I write you from my UMTS – card adapter. ;-)

Since this non-sense sortie started, many things are on hold. Businesses I should push on, sport belongs, any many others. But as it is, I’ve chosen a military education where they can call me for this kind of field adoption. Also very high sensitive material I can’t show you online, so I decided to take some pix which you also can see here in our region anyway.

At last I want to ensure you that I’ll start to write again assiduously by my return in February 08! Till that day comes, I can’t promise another post, but I’ll look forward again in some weeks.

Best regards,

Harry

New Year, New Year!

2008-01-02T17:03:00.000Z

Ciao!

And, what's come of your good intentions (for New Year)? For my part, I didn’t come up with any. I was quite more in a relaxed mood and let pass by my old year (2007). In review I realized many points I took advantage of. As many of you know, I’ve got my “life-cycle-areas” cataloged.

In:

Job
Health
Joint practice
Economic status
Belief

If you got the leisure to get shortly with me through these points, I’d appreciate many. ;-)

Job: I leveled myself up into an atmosphere beyond the point I thought in the beginning of 2007 I could reach. Three businesses I acquired in the final of 2007 which can push me into a life, where I can’t even imagine, but definitely can smell a little of it now. If one of them fulfills my salary income 2008 increases the double. So let’s expect the worst (none of them) and hope the best (all of them)!

Health: Well I may say that more or less I’m still in same shape as always. That means I’ve an athletic shape and am in good condition. Sadly I can’t go more to gym for the January in ‘cause I’m the whole month in jail. –Bear that joke: I mean military, not jail. :-D

Joint practice: Difficult area to describe. I’ve made plenty of new contacts – alone in business related belongs more than 200. And those with private interests I had carefully to sort and sort out. One contact I’ll keep up further is the relationship to a wonderful woman. A woman who showed me, that love also has got another face. The face of passion accorded with intelligence. Thanks Fabienne, for that soon one year long holding promise! ;)

Economic status: The situation inasmuch has settled better, that I managed it out to an external service. Knowing that in this year, I’ll be out of the red. Further skills in my potential for growth and wealth maybe come true, if one of the three acquired businesses/contracts fulfill. In this case my income will jump up and the cards will be reshuffled.

Belief: Still the same. I know that I found my belief with the Christians. Jesus tells the truth. Imagine: historian declined ‘truth’ with the stories of the Babylon, even if the proof of these stories (in form of clay tablets) came nearly one thousand years later! The stories of Jesus came down just forty years later on similar evidence, but still is the most debatable story of all time. Even if they found one of the most spectacular trove, for example the children’s common grave near Askalon or the excavations in Golgotha, they still would find enough reasons to neglect it. –I can’t!

Am I on the winner’s side? I don’t know. But 2008 will show it to me. What will change? –Nothing! I just turn in into what I always do. Going forward - toward - beyond! ;-) Thanks for accompany me trough my life… Nice to hear once a day your stories.

Today’s motto: To win you have to risk loss… Jean-Claude Killy

Merry X-Mas

2007-12-24T12:24:00.000Z

Dear All

Once again X-mas eve. And soon the New Year stands again on front of the door. I want to use this chance, to thank you all for your support and motivating mails you gave me. I got an average traffic here of maybe 30 peoples a day.

In the last weeks, the fluctuation screw down a little more and more. From now on, I can’t write you on a daily base, but at least twice a week still will be possible.

Further thanks to all of you guys which asked me for devices in some messy situations. You guys are in truth the tough guys. You’ve got nuts, to ask for new options in life even if life works against you. And here I want to tell you, try hard and keep it up! Don’t ever let circumstances be your decider! You maybe fell into shit, but it’s also you, who struggles out of it with a simple decision. Finally, it’s it worth! As soon, that you’re clear with the fact, that you just can win and never loose, you’ll be on the winner-side.

If we won’t here us anymore, I wish you a merry Christmas and a happy new year!

Today’s motto: If you can dream it, you can do it. Walt Disney

Running of no earthly use!

2007-12-20T18:39:00.000Z

Hellomotto

Look at the good things – think positive, that’s my credo especially if it’s depending on my business areas. But once again in the end-year-rally, I’ve learned another important lesson for my life. Let me give you the story and hopefully, you’ll give me your feedback!

Some days ago, I told you about this really stupid prick of customer, which gives out delicate business related information’s and this even while he actually has signed the NDA (Non-disclosure Agreement). Well, he outgunned himself this time.

In the time, where I went to Munich, my boss met this customer for a business lunch. Quite forward while I’m sitting hundreds of kilometers away! No?! At last, I couldn’t interrupt or avoid it, or at least I should have joined them – he’s my customer! Than this foolish a***** spoke about the other deal, which has been very top secret. A commercial partnership of two companies of an amount of more than 500’000’000€ - and now guess what? Exactly! Now my boss wants not only to be involved to the whole case, he even wants to handle it under his own businesses! That’s just fuck’ silly!

But I have to see this case really positive! What is positive on it?

I’ve been sounding things out in a way, where even the upper management start to involve themselves. If the business fulfills, my reputation will be granted for the next year. My position, because I already brought the deal in our house, is actually strong enough, that they can’t get me out of the loop. Time’s running for me. The longer it takes, the more it will show who really takes action and who just sticks in to also profit.

And now to the good news: J

Today I’ve been invited to a private club, where you just get entry, if one of the members’s inviting you. I felt myself almost near to Jesus, when he was in the desert, ensnared by the devil himself. Or for the not so hardly believers; Like John Constantine, right before he started to deal with Satan. “Hellooo Joooo-oohn, …” @ the movie “Constantine” –One of my favorite movies.

But the bottom line is I was impressed. “Though guys”, I thought by myself. They invite their customer or such a small fish, got caught in a trap for sharks, like me. ;-) I’d likely want to show you more pictures, but the one I’ve got, is already speaking for it self. And if we really could make a growing partnership and hopefully this time nothing will be fishy with this one, than I guess we’re ready for big businesses. Really, really big business.

Today’s motto: In order to compose, all you need is to remember a tune that nobody else has thought of. Hubert Schumann

Busy days are peanuts! ;)

2007-12-14T18:38:00.000Z

Hi Folks,

Munich was terrific. Once the new stadium and once the lobby of my hotel, where I have been, you may find on the pix right.

Let me give you a short ‘picture’ of my last two days:

Thursday morning I had the first customer-meeting at 9.00 a.m. After this appointment I visited another customer at 10.45 a.m. And from that one, I had to go home to eat and take with my luggage to the journey to Munich. Meet my coworker at the main station in Zurich at 1.16 p.m. for the train to Munich. (-First Class) J

On the run the train had a defect and we delayed 30 minutes. In the meantime, I wrote back my unanswered mails to make the best use of time. I made different calls to customer and my brokers, while the other employee started to curse me at the same time. (I love special kind of challenges) ;-)

We arrived finally Munich after 5,30h tour. Than we have been brought to the hotel with a “Taxi”, had just 30 Minutes to change our clothes and flied to the business-dinner. On the one side, I enjoyed the party, it was like a grand family and on the other side, I just found it suboptimal. Every second clerk came to me and started a conversation like:

Clerk: “Where are you from?”

Me: “Switzerland”

Clerk: “What are you doing? What is your position?”

Me: “I’m something like the extended arm in the market of our sales team. I’m Research and PR Manager.”

Clerk: “Oh do you know Mr. ***** ******?”

Me: “Yes, I do!”

Clerk: “Such an arrogant asshole! No?!”

Me: “Well, he’s my boss, what do you expect me to tell you?”

Clerk: “Nothing! I know he is an arrogant asshole!”

…End…

And now I just ask another question to you!

If every second person comes to you, asks you, if you know your own boss and what an asshole he is, how would you find this?

Friday morning very early I decided to go back to the hotel. Lucky me, my favorite colleague accompanied the way back at 2.00 a.m. Unfortunately he’ll leave our house end of January 2008!

At 8.30 our CEO wanted to call me actually, but however, he didn’t. And again however, I stood up earlier, because at 9.00 I had a prospect at the hotel waiting for me. You should have seen or pictured the eyes of the coworkers. It was very funny to see them gawking at me. Like if they wanted to tell me: “Freak (out)! On the day after the X-mas dinner you invite the customer to the lobby! You’re fuck’ nutz!”

Well how couldn’t I? –The amount is 5 Mio. Euro! But the storyline is that this guy even drove me home! He anyway had to go to Zurich, so he gave me a lift. We could use the time, to discuss his case. He was very happy, as I still invited him to my flat for a coffee. “That’s the least you could have done.” I thought by myself, because we drove without queuing or other incidences. Finally we arrives Zurich half an hour earlier, than expected and had another time gap. Than his meeting was near and he left, just good enough that I could make me some instant noodles to eat, before my next appointment started.

In the meeting the guy gave me quite a compliment after around one hour. He looked at me and asked me: “What have you learned Mr. Holzer? What is your background? You are very keen on this matter!” I explained him that I just studied economics, but in fact I had in the last few months many similar projects on the table. And this meeting took so much time, that I finally postponed the next meeting to Monday!

Now, back at home I wait for Roger, my bro’! But he’s caught up in a traffic jam. Later Fabienne will still come here and than I got again full house.

I find me in the last days again more pushy and focused. I see things critical and positive. It’s like if I would have got more clearance in life right now, than I had it some days ago.

So guys, I wish you a nice weekend.

Today’s motto: The two things that people want more than sex or money are recognition and praise. Mary Kay Ash

Thank you guys!

2007-12-11T10:57:00.000Z

First of all, I want to thank you, dear readers, for giving me feedback. The last days passed through and I almost didn’t write anything in. But for my apology, you need to know the following story:

Mid last week, I had to go to the doctor. I had to make a checkup at the clinic for epilepsy. But before to be worried sick, I may say, that I’m healthy! They didn’t find anything. The doctor even wondering, how a man, who let’s inspect himself voluntary, could have such calm curves in the EEG. After the one check, where they maroon you to trembling flashlight and hyperventilate. I took between two and three breathing rate after the flashlight started and my brain wave curves returned to the calm state, as I was relaxing. The only thing I had in mind was breathing – no other thoughts! …

What also challenged me more than usual was the area of business, where I tried hard and finally started to shut down, like a computer. I realized that I finally sabotaged no one else than myself. As I saw, that I start to threat even my customer harshly, I distanced myself again more away from working. As if I wanted to find an excuse for all this behaving. As if “I tried to misuse – not working, would be better for my soul, because I don’t want to treat anybody harshly – as if that would be a reason!” ;-)

Well, once again the knowledge of finding the right question helped me out of this view. I looked what is working and what not. I sorted the do’s and the don’ts. And by the time now, I’m again in a state, where I can gain high resources.

You can’t make any changes, if the leverage isn’t strong enough. I tried to turn into a new mood. I took a new perspective and changed the focus on positive stuff. BUT, and this is a big ‘but’, it just held a short term. Why? Because the leverage on this kind of change, has just been will-power! –Not yet a belief or a conviction to turn my life around. And now, finally half a year later, step by step I started to sabotage myself. –I’ve seen small things fazed me immediate. I started to treat people harshly. All in all, in many ways I realized that my aggressive state took overhand. And now, at least, I’ve been smart enough, to realize it! Now I need to restart again with modeling persons, which found a way to succeed. Are you also having such people? Haven’t you got any person around you, where you can say, that you also want to follow? If no, make an imagination of such a person. How could the person be, that inspires you? Start to come up with something you not only know, will turn you into pleasure, but rather awakes the power in you, where the new idea, the new state of being, will turn into a conviction, a belief which no one else could doubt – not even yourself!

You must engage your voice to reach a peak state. Yelling loudly engages your whole body and pushes you into a more intense state. Peak state is useful for decision making, acting in spite of fear and simply feeling fantastic. Scream:

NOW I AM THE VOICE (3x)
I WILL LEAD, NOT FOLLOW
I WILL BELIEVE, NOT DOUBT
I WILL CREATE, NOT DESTROY
I AM A FORCE FOR GOOD.
I AM A LEADER
DEFY THE ODDS!
SET A NEW STANDARD!
STEP UP! STEP UP! STEP UP!

This tool above, I have been learning at the Tony Robbins seminar “Unleash the power within!” in London! Sadly I almost forgot this “dream speak”. But now, I have got a new point of state, where it’s no longer focused on positive manners. (For sure I’m still thinking positive) I, well it sounds harder than it might be, found out that all the things, which will help me in future are already in me! I just have to remember them. And that’s the new challenge for me. Remembering what I already know to do in delicate situations. Really start now to unleash the power within myself! And yes, I won’t accept a deeper lifestyle or any step back. Now, that I came so far, I can’t go back. I go forward because it’s the only direction that left!

So folks, let’s start a new epoch. Let’s belong to the generation, where the following will say: “These guys made a new level of concentrated commitments! They raised their standards and moved into a fulfilling life! –We want to follow them!” And let’s be an inspiring spring for the people around us. Let this be the commitment you want to make. This doesn’t mean that you have to get rich or successful in job. What it means, is that you can live by the standards you create. It means that you are the designer of your own life! –Not the advertisement. Not the social environment. Not the news or politicians. Not the debts you’re in. YOU are responsible! Than it’s always in your opinion, on what you decide to focus on. Use the power! Like for instance my cousin (Ambressa - Amber). She’s in the same age like I’m. She has got a wish, a dream, a passion to be entrepreneur of her own gym! She took the chance! Jumped in the cold water and now step by step learns to swim. (www.ambernimedez.blogspot.com)

And do you know the funny thing about? If you try and try and it doesn’t work out, change your approach! Learn something from the failure and don’t stop till your dream became reality. This is the secret of the human, which I want to belong! Your decision, if you want to join. If you decide ‘yes’ – be aware, that you aren’t alone! Amber, me and many more do share you’re state and your dreams!

Today’s motto: If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is a compromise. Robert Fritz

Why some people are reasonless stupid!

2007-12-03T15:39:00.000Z

Salut

I know the following story will be a little business related. I got to tell you about. I’ve got a customer, which wants to have a project financed through our house. Now this guy has been passed through by a broker. And as he wanted, we had to handle his project with absolute discretion. And here the real blame comes. As this prick wanted, we sent him a NDA (Non-disclosure agreement). He signed it and started to talk to the broker about the deal with us. He discussed high sensitive material after he signed the NDA – which actually would have a legal return on his doing! Than I called him and asked, if he still knew that he signed the NDA. The poor guy told me ‘yes’. And than I asked, if he ever has read it! ‘No’ the answer came back. Than I explained him, that from the date on he signed this paper, his mouth should be sealed. If not, it would have legally consequences with real high fine claims! –Anyhow… I guess he got the point and will put a sock in it!

I think positive as much as I can and as possible. In the last days, I didn’t keep up this belief. I noticed that already simply small cases faze me. I urgently need to come back again on my past habits mid this year. At the summertime, I received much more mails from readers. Many people searched my advices and wanted to adopt my life-philosophy.

And here the match comes right back! I know that all comes down to a single decision. This time I decide to return right back to the shape I had in summer. I need to trigger me again the same way, as I did at this time. Most important question is, on what I want to focus. Do you still know my posts regarding the concept of CANI (Constance and Never-ending improvement)? How many times did I already say to myself: “I’m much more, than I’m demonstrating right now”? But still haven’t got enough leverage. Still haven’t got enough internal pressure to get throughout any mess? What went false or shouldn’t I start to think what solution in life do I look after? I need to find a new successful concept.

One of my friends shortly came to me and asked me: “What’s up chap!? You got everything you wanted! You got a real pimp penthouse, a job where you earn more than 90% of the human (over US$ 100’000 a year), a hot car, friends, family, good health,… -Harry, what to fuck do you want?” I looked at him and yelled that I still got debts. And he answered with: “You jerk at least can afford those debts!” I was shocked to realize, that I’m no longer earthed. I was lost somewhere in space, but I wasn’t standing on earth with both legs.

I got to return back on the Christian rulez. I need to see again the things as they really are. I think positive and will turn right back to stay in shape and mood. Shoot! Sometimes life struggles down even if you’re on the winner’s side. ;-)

Today’s motto: Nothing is particularly hard if you divide it into small jobs. Henry Ford

Wowy week

2007-11-29T13:16:00.000Z

Hello guys,

Sorry I didn't come up for such a long time. I was extremely engaged in the last days. Where shall I start?

My first own closed deal is done! ;-))) So what does it mean? That means, that I acquire the customer, than I had to deal the meeting with him, I shaped the contract with him and at last I made the final box (signature on the contract). The amount has been this time by 100’000 bucks. Now I still have got another 200 Millions in the pipeline and hope that more of them will follow.

Something less positive was a battle royal with a chat-room user in the chat where I’m a member. A young pussy, that since more than half a year tried to abuse my profile to hit Fabienne. Not because of any given reason, just as a valve for her own pleasure. Since more than six months I told her again and again, that she shall, sorry this expression, piss off! But unfortunately, she didn’t. She even hit stronger expression and still went ruder than all times before! Finally I’m fed up with it. I started to make some research and someone told me, that her father died this year. On her chat-room-profile she even had a picture of him there. And now guess what I did? I actually didn’t make it that gruffly. First I told her to let off for the last time. I asked her really very polite, but still no reaction, even more force came back, like I shouldn’t lurk her! And at this point I didn’t swallow any more. I gave action. I copied the pic of her father and uploaded it into my profile, with the comment: “Do you really want to wage a war with me? –Better don’t, you’ll loose!” Oh you should have seen this reaction of other users, all of a sudden, fifty comments came in, like: “You damn bastard, if I’ll see you on the street, I’ll kill you!” And more… My reaction on these comments was just: “Dear me…” And it seemed like this kind of answer has still provoke them more. But, the girly didn’t start to give back. She was quit and didn’t say one word more. As I told, I finally think, she got the point! Did I like to do this? –No way!!! I knew exactly, that many people will find this disgusting. It cloyed me even self. But what should I have done at this point? She forced me to take an exceptional reaction. And I studied a long time at this, if I really shall do it. And so I did it finally, because I didn’t see another possibility. And now the punch line comes. Today is the day after this whole shit and as I opened my mailbox of this chat-room, I had plenty of users congratulating me! People who say, that I made a good job. Or comments like: “Good guy, finally someone had the guts to smack that bitch!” Wow, you can’t imagine, how that felt for me, at the day before, I cloyed myself and on the next day people laud me! Crazy world!!! ;-)))

My days really did become longer. In the last days, my average working time is between 12 to 16 hours a day! Isn’t that foolish? But as it seems, it will give me also a payout at last. On the other side, I don’t believe I tell you this, I find it a kind of amused. Yes, I’m a fuck’ workaholic and I try to get fun on it…

Today’s motto: What counts is not necessarily the size of the dog in the fight – it’s the size of the fight in the dog. Dwight D. Eisenhower

Days become longer ;-)

2007-11-22T16:54:00.000Z

HelloU

Since I started to gain more business where ever I can, my days become longer... But at least with much more style. Like today! I stood up, didn't hustle, just went slowly out of bed, made breakfast and ate, went to the bath and did my mornings. Left home and drove directly to the gym. There I made an “one hour workout” and visited the spa’ area for at least half an hour and finally went to work.

I didn’t close a deal today, but I made many things to gain more business in future. For example I won a new broker for me. Than a customer visited us here – unfortunately we had to neglect his query. Over lunch I went eating with my honey Fabienne. –Well it was not really eating lunch! We where in McDonald’s! A restaurant which you can just visited from time to time… maybe once a month maximal. :-P

In the afternoon I had an other customer with his whole committee (almost all members of the board where here). That has been a party… really very funny these guys. One explained me the whole stuff of how their product works. The other guy told me about their financial situation. Again an other guy has been responsible for the marketing. And the CEO as well owner of the company just narrate how the whole company started, like three generations ago, and so on…

Finally my boss and I asked them different questions regarding their securities within the next two years and as they couldn’t approach us on this, we finally disinvited them again. But honest, it has been very funny and I learned a lot about how you don’t have to do things in a presentation. :-D

Now it’s again half past eight in the evening and I finally worked again over 10 hours and still have to drive home. Regrettably I can’t write you tomorrow. Because from 10 o’clock a.m. I have to visit again a meeting. From then on, my day is full pushed with appointments and is scheduled up to seven in the evening. On days like this one, I really feel myself happy and fatigue. But in a way, where it’s very bearable. Do you get my point?

I want to proof you guys, that with hard and smart working, maybe your days become longer, but finally I’m sure, that it’s it worth! Never ever give up spending time for a profitable future.

Today’s motto: The secret of getting ahead is getting started. The secret of getting started is breaking your complex, overwhelming tasks into small manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one. Mark Twain

Why is success tricky?

2007-11-21T13:01:00.001Z

Ciao tutti!

Yesterday evening I had a meeting with my project-group. As we where on to discuss our duties, we finally have seen, that we already have done more, than first expected. Really good, that I’m the project-leader, so I could organize the whole overview in shortest time! Of more than ten posts, we already are in the closure phase of four of them. In normal term, this kind of fulfillment would set in maybe just in the next two to three months, but two of our team made already much spadework. Thank you guys…

As well my business starts to move in a new hemisphere. During the meeting, one of my customers called me at almost 8 p.m.!!! He commit, that his business partners and himself decided, to give my 0.5% of the closure-amount of the whole deal as a provision. –Just like that! The only “if” is, that we still have to approve it! But I know that we wanted it already for such a long time… Now it looks like we could do it. So this kind of deal is anyway an exceptional one. And the earning with it is a very nice amount in the region of a deeper 6-digit number…

This morning I had a super nice experience as well. One of our customers called up and asked how far we’re with his query. In regard of it, he doesn’t think, that he can afford to take our money as it’s too expensive. So I asked him: “What do you mean with its too expensive?” Than he told me, that through our agent, the agent want’s an other 25% from the finance amount, we would give him. –First I thought he’s making jokes, but than I thought about the legality of it and unfortunately it’s allowed! –Shit, I thought first. But than my brilliance elegant solution came up! (Not that you think I’m getting slaphappy) I’m in need of the customer, but I’m also in need of this agent. How can I turn both content? Well the agent actually already receives a provision from our contract, but he wanted to earn both sides. A kind of unfair!

But the agent didn’t sign yet his agency agreement with us because he wanted still to make some changes, so what I did is the following: I went to our counsel and asked him, if before he sends out the agreement, he still could make a slightly change. I told him to add a new paragraph where it’s written, that our agents aren’t allowed to take (double) commission of our customers. And as our counsel said, it’s legal to insert such a paragraph.

Than I called the customer and told him, still to wait before signing our contract for the financing till the agent countersigned our agreement. In this case, the contract between our customer and our agent is null and void! :-D

I’m a fuck’ genius! *muahahahahaaaaa*

Well… -just kidding, but I’m really proud the way I could handle this strange issue. Now the customer is happy and will sign the contract with us and our agent can’t do anything else then be happy with the provision he already receives from us.

Today’s motto: Imagination is more important than knowledge. Albert Einstein

Running out of leisure :'-(

2007-11-20T11:13:00.000Z

Salut

Unbelievable! I'm just running into the office. Hand-out my project-planning and explain it shortly. Now finished and have to leave again, because in less then 90 minutes I've to be again in Zurich for a meeting.

And do you know what? I'm loving it... :-D

So tomorrow I'll give you again a detailed post about my on-going!

Today's motto: The man who insists upon seeing with perfect clearness before he decides, never decides. Accept life and you must accept regret. Henri Frédéric Amiel

Last man standing

2007-11-19T11:34:00.000Z

Ciao!

My last weekend has been great. On Friday my friends visited me and on Saturday Fabienne and I went to my mummy to eat Raclette (for those, who don’t know what this is, it’s something similar like cheese-fondue – just an other Swiss specialty). And yesterday we stayed at home, just in the afternoon I showed my honey the slums of Switzerland. I made some pix, so you may have a look at them. What I didn’t know for such a long time was that this area is quite near to my accommodation! Just like 100 Meters away from me this area starts!

Yeah, I don’t make good advertisement for my country if you see those pix, but I have to tell you, that we’ve got also other cities, where they’ve got the same problem. How come we, the supreme city of the whole world – as you know best awarded city now for more than four years in a row – has got such a problem? –A slum area!

As my luv and I looked at them, we discussed some possibilities. Like, each person in Switzerland has the chance to become more. Those guys there don’t want! They decided once upon a time, that it would be easier to be on our pocket/mean. I’m just a little addled regarding this issue; I have never expected that Switzerland has got such black spots on their clean slate!

Today I was so down when I went to work. Not because the story I just wrote. Just because I was sooooooo tired. I thought I wouldn’t make one deal today, but than my inner voice started to razz me! “Common Harry boy! Just get up and move! Every day without making a deal is a lost day and you can’t afford any lost days more, as you know your situation, nor?????” Bastard! This stupid bothersome voice in me didn’t stop till I finally closed two deals… :-D

In the meantime I’m again pushed throughout this result and look already forward on the next day. This afternoon I’ve to create and finish a whole project planning! It’s no bed of roses! Probably I’ll stay again in the office like 7-8 p.m.! But never mind, what else would I have to do on a beautiful Monday afternoon???

As you, dear reader, could see in the last days and weeks, many crazy and shitty things happened in my life. But I hope you also see, that it doesn’t depend in which situation I am, I still got the belief, that all will change to the best. And more important than that is, that I not just ‘hope’ – I also move! And this I believe is the key to success! After I strengthen my belief, that things won’t stay the way they are right now – you need to give an action! And you have to stay on track with the right questions. Question that will move you upon your situation into a positive goal! I stopped to ask myself question, where I start to doubt things! It won’t bring you any further! And honestly, when you start? ;-)

Today’s motto: You can only become a winner if you are willing to walk over the edge. Ronald E. McNair

Switzerland is white white white

2007-11-16T12:44:00.000Z

chepas!

And with this title I don't mean it the right wing way... As I drove to work this morning, I just had to make some pix. Look at my outview, that I've got each morning by nice weather on the way to work! Isn't it just marvelous?

Today I've done many things in advance to prepair my weekend and next week. Actually, I wanted to go to training again, but unfortunately I'm running once again out of time.

Today's motto: Goals are dreams with a deadline. Brian Tracy(?)

huaaaaa....

2007-11-15T10:39:00.000Z

Salli

Snowy snowy Switzerland...

I'm sorry to make it once again that short, but I have to:

This morning I made again three deals!
This afternoon, I have got again two appointments.
I'm so thight under positive pressure, that I hope to write you more next time!
To inform my reader, I'm really again on the up and up ;-)
I've been informed, that I have to go as a military-clerk at the WEF in Davos :-(

Wish you guy a very successful day!

Today's motto: To succeed in business it is necessary to make others see things as you see them. John H. Patterson

busy business

2007-11-14T11:25:00.000Z

Tschou!

In the last days, my life seems to get more and more clear with a straight outview into a successful future... WHY???

I'm in the position, where I have my back to the wall. I haven't got an other possibility, than to go forward... forward in almost any area of my life. Business, money, body and probably also in my environment.

With the business, the appointment yesterday didn't set in. The other guy has been at the meeting-point two hours earlier than we where and he missunderstood the right time and left again. Just stupid this guy!!! How dare from him, just to leave, when the business I could approach would be that lucrative...

But this morning I closed once again two new deals! I quite proud again. Than I could handle a request regarding an investor, who wants to invest some money in a company. Now I await a confirm of the company... :-D

Here in Switzerland it starts to snow all over. The streets are very slippery and alone this morning over 200 accidents have been reported through the news!!! Since one month, the state tells us to put on the winter-tires... I guess there where at least 200, who didn't hear it... :-))))

So guys... I'd like to write more, unfortunately I have to go again to a meeting and won't return anymore to office. In other words, till to tomorrow.

Today's motto: The only place where success comes before work is in the dictionary. Vidal Sassoon (Pic: Compredium SA)

Look at the bright side of life!

2007-11-12T11:11:00.000Z

Hellomotto!

How am I today? I think many of my readers wanna know... To tell you, I FEEL GOOD!! As I told last time, I'm just getting tired with the situation. -And I gave the responsibility to my luv! As she showed me this weekend, she seems to handle the responsibility quite good. She knew how to carry on and took advantage. And also not to misunderstand, the verbalism 'fucked up'! My family-members and friends in the US use it to express how we feel, as if just straight away the whole world seems to crack over one's head. I could also have expressed it: "I'm near to collapse!"

Now what for views have changed within the last weekend, where I feeled myself so overfatigue?

As I already wrote, there have been different things comming up at once. I felt like all things come up at once! And before weekend, I thought I couldn't stand it alone. I felt myself like a (very very very) small fart in the universe. But than I remembered again, for what I do stand in life.

I had no other choice, than to ask myself the right questions:

Which areas I've builed up with new affirmations... ?
What are those new standards, where I'm looking at?
What can I do right now, to bring me back into good shape?
What do I believe in?

And with the last question, I answered ...:

...-I believe into the relationship with Fabienne.
...-I believe, that things won't stay always this way!
...-I believe, that there's always a way out of all.
...-I believe in me and my possibilities to change everything into something good again!
...-I believe, that I'm much more, than I'm demonstrating right now in my life!

And not to forget, I had people supporting me! My luv and my dad! Both person, helped me in finding the right questions. They knew, how to get through this, without to make any reproaches! That's quite important! So I could catch myself again and today, I'm again in clear and specific mood to succeed! Such situations have got the power to throw you out off course, but as you see, it's more important to get back again.

Now my business-area looks good. Not directly where I'm hired... ;-) - But what new project has been carried to me in the last days.

Because it's a very delicate branch of business, I can't talk about yet. I got to know someone new. This person is a tycoon. And it wants me to make clear a new deal, where I have to develop a foreign market. Well anyhow... more - later! :-D

Today's motto: The world is full of willing people, some willing to work, the rest willing to let them. Robert Frost

Missing Yesterday's entry!

2007-11-09T11:35:00.000Z

HiU

Yesterday I made a long entry regarding which situation I face in the moment. Somehow, all of it disappeared. Probabely, a higher force didn't make it possible... ;-)

Many things are starting to take influence in my life. Here a short summary:

The prosecution department fined me!
The entry will be finally cleared, after an agreement with the deptee.
My salary almost would have been attached of wages!
I got a € 40 Mio. deal that looks like we would handle this one ;-)
I got a private deal with metalls, which seems also like it would come up to fulfill.
I got worries with Fabienne and her family (where I'll come back later)
My bro' starts to get in same mess like me with the prosecution department :-(

Yesterday evening I still met a guy, which would or better should help me with the metall-deal! Unfortunately he's also just a trader between, but as it seems, he's got a good clientele for whom he's active. -I can't tell you any names, but they used to come out from Glencore.
Than this morning, I called my joker regarding the metall-deal. She will guide me now through my first contract in this class of business. I trust her 100%, she's a professional with those contracts and does this now for more than 30 years. -So I guess, that will become something real interesting. :-D

Something less heady yesterday evening has been the long chat with Fabienne. I'm thankful, that she made tabularasa with open questions or issues. Many things showed me, that her family isn't that open minded as I would have wished from the beginning. After this discussion, I stayed awake all night long. I didn't sleep till current hour and I'm completely fucked up right now. (I try to be awake, but I almost fall down the chair)

Somewhere, where my thoughts circled around is the tag "doobie smoking". I know and accept, that her family probabely doesn't find it good. They also committed it to me directly, -her father via email. I answered back the email and heared later, that he gave her a contrast:

On the one side, I do miss-accept people, who take antidepressants. But on the other side, I smoke a bag! This isn't coherent from me, because if I 'really' believe in the unlimited power of the brain, I shall demonstrate it fully or not even a bit!

Isn't it a very strong evidence?! As I heared it, I didn't know how to react. If you just hear it, it sound logic. But if you think about honestly, than you have to set this picture also in an other perspective! I see it similiar like a glass of wine. Too much alcohol, will also damage your brainfunctions and/or physical impairment. So I got the same diseases, if I smoke too many spliffs. But the way I use it, is the same way like all other pleasing products! And I see, also many other persons, using pleasing products regularly. How shall I compare a medical treatment with a pleasing product? One you have to take (maybe), the other you take voluntary. After all, I find this contrast unfair! It sounds good, but in MY EYES it's a contrast to compare apples and oranges!

Than I heared further, that the last discussion with her parents didn't taste good. I left a bad impression. Suspectly I guess it's similiar to the old view some people had from me: Harry the cadger...! -I was thinking a long time about, when I was last suspected as this... Maybe ten years ago? Funny is, that all persons, which have told me this in the past, came to me in the meantime to ask for pardon! These people come now and tell me, that they never ever have thought, that I would turn around this way I'm now! I'm an human, that really has been pretty burned in the past with this. So if I come into a new environment, I carefully ease my person. And the funny thing with this one here is, that with the last chat I had with them, I thought at that time, how nice it is, that I droped into an environment, where I also just can be as I am! Be and stay naturally and 100% faithfully! And now, as I opened myself after more than a half a year, this is the feedback I received.

This issues, didn't let me sleep. I have been talking with two psychological parents! A friend and a familymember and both guys told me, to be more carefully in future. In case it's already adopting such forms, it might stay same in the future...! After all what happened to me in the last days (the attack, my deptees, businesses, etc...), no-one of them could empathize my situation. -I should have been the person, which has to be clement with others! -But, no-one is or has been it with me!

So where am I now? In the relationship with Fabienne, I'm getting tired. I'm tired always being the 'bad guy' and I'm fucking getting tired that I can't be as I am. In her environment, it showed me once again, naturally and 100% faithfully will be unhonored. Better be skin-deep and not show, who I really am. Worse luck.

Also to you guys which read my blog, I expect, that now, when I write you that unsettled MY point of VIEW, I won't receive any backing. -Just find two layers above what I wrote. -It should be me to clement others... -I'm even now at that point, where I don't give any effort more. Anyway, it's in her hands. She shall decide, if she wants to share the future by my side or if she better search for a good catch. -I don't seam to be one for her... (a sportive, charming, on the up and up being, honest, naturally, faithfully, very good earning, young man - stupid me, I always thought, I would be a good catch)

The last time in my life, where I had a sleepless night regarding a relationship with my girlfriend is ... -I just can't remember. I'm really fucked up now. No power more, no will, no nothing. Just take it as it is...

Well guys... I have to work and verify my bonus of CHF 12'000.- for end of this month... a typical earning of a cadger...

Today's motto: Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty. Mother Teresa

collapse like a house of cards

2007-11-07T14:24:00.000Z

Hello

In the moment I got so many things to do. Many things seem like taking overhand over my particular situation in life.

As I wrote, I had an attack last weekend. Now Fabienne's father brought himself in the loop. He wanted to give me background-informations and wanted to backup my knowhow regarding this attack. As I got myself some persons in my family, which do have epilepsy as a sickness. I had myself in the past two attacks in regard of having them provokated. Those ones meen, that I had two provokative epileptic attacks. Provokated meens from outside on, such comes from drugs, alcohol, flashlights, etc...

I'm always honest, so this time, I had it with a mixture of drugs and alcohol. Would this meen now, that I should stop taking drugs or alcohol? -Maybe, but it's not confirmed, that I should have had an epileptic attack. Well I had one for sure, but I don't know yet, if it's a sickness! In 1997 and 2004 I had also attacks and the hospitals have checked me in the EKG and EEG. With the last one, an epileptic showes clear curves in a raster - I didn't! Also within the second time, there where no curves around.

Now, because of this what happened, her father suggest, I should preventive avoid any situation, where a guy, who has got this as a sickness may fall into an other attack. That would also meen stop to skin up! -And to tell you, I don't want to stop this, unless it isn't confirmed, that I HAVE to... ;-)

I know, the best would be, to completely drop all those stuffs and direction a new healthy way! But I just can't imagine it. I still link too much pleasure with than without. And here I am...

Well yeah, I wrote her father again a letter back. In there I wrote, that I accept his views and that I got my own. Than I called Fabienne to inform her, what I'm gonna write her father. My gosh...! Wipe-out! As she took of the phone, I heared a sniff in my ear. Than I asked, what's up and she yelled inside the hearer. Before I called I wrote her a text, that with a huge possibility, she'll side on her fathers view. But this sentence didn't fall on fertile soil! And just along this small dispute, I had again one hour of my workingtime passing by... I hate it, if there's something private reflecting my business. And so I hang up! She called again and my colleague forwarded Fabienne again to me. -Later the same guy came to me and said: "What was this for a crosspatch!?" -I answered with "my girlfriend"

Before he turned red, I told him it's okay... She just had a long day...! But you should have seen him... some how like jitter...

Nevermind at last. I told her, that I got other, more important things to do... and so I postponed our chat to somewhen later. (And as I learned, don't say a lady, that you got better things to do... -bad idea) ;-)

Well, did I work since our dispute? -No, I just hang around and thought how bad the timing for such shit is. But in fact, tomorrow I have to show again 110% of my mastery. Motivation comes with the challenge!

By the way on the pic, you find da Vinci's first draw about an epileptic. Supported by neuro24.com // which also write at their homepage, that an attack isn't the sickness and that you at least have to have twice an attack without any trigger (lack of sleep, drugs, alc...)

Today's motto: Name the greatest of all inventors. Accident. Mark Twain

I'm a pray

2007-11-05T13:15:00.000Z

Hello

I'll write you more tomorrow, but here a pic of my accident last weekend. Isn't it looking pretty? ;-) I have had a 'grand-mal' epileptic attack after an overacting night with my friends. I can't tell you any details, but to be honest, it was nearly in the gray area of the law...

Today's motto: The man who insists upon seeing with perfect clearness before he decides, never decides. Accept life and you must accept regret. Henri Frédéric Amiel

Never abandon

2007-11-02T13:55:00.001Z

Tschou Zäme!

In the last days, I'm again more focused on my inner compass. I look more and more on how I can optimize my situation. In all those good posts of the last days, how much assets I could push into the sales-pipeline, one thing didn't change! My depts! Well I could come away from 40 to 30 kilo. But the 30 kilo is much more agressive now!

The deptees wants to see cash now. If not, they want to attache my earnings. Imagine how this would come, if they would call my company and tell my employer, that I've to give them my salary... Not good at all!

Well this message has been jammed into my door as I came home yesterday afternoon. Apropos, yesterday was a bank holiday -so I just worked in the morning and had off in the afternoon. I wasn't that happy to find this letter. I focused on what I can do now, to take out the best return of the situation. I decided to take all my documents of accounts and payslip and bring it to the depatment of recovery of claims this morning!

The guy there was like surprized to see me! He told me, that they have sent me plenty of invitations, -without reaction! I countered, that I've got a trustee doing this 'shit' for me. And than the guy said, that my trustee just called up once and just wrote one letter to them and thaught, that this effort would be enough. -Unfortunately it wasn't!

So as you see, the cause of defect has been my fuck' trustee! So what the heck did he think? To be honest, I thaught it would be over! A dream just like melting away. I thaught, that my trustee would be a shark. He had all authorizations for my accounts and just deepened them and piss off!

And after this vision came up, I told myself NO WAY! Think positive, Harry! Call him and let him explain this. So I asked the guy of the department of recovery of claims, if he could print out all of these open receivable bills. Later this morning I faxed them to my trustee and waited, till he would maybe give an action. -With the idea to control, if he really just works sloppy or if he takes our fiduciary relation honestly. Still as the fax faxed, he called up, -finally!

He excused like different times, that he didn't work on this with the right intention and he just simply underrated the whole case, because I seemed quite calm on this. My answer was a kind of hollywood-like:

Trustee: Please excuse me, I can't explain, why I didn't handle your accounts with the right intention. I've just been affected with your calm being. It didn't seem that urgent for you, so I thaught wrongly, that I would still have some time to handle it. Most people in similar situation aren´t that cool.

ME: What did you expect? Shall I cry and talk trashy? Would this help me?

In the end, we decided, to handle the whole case together next Monday! I got to search for solutions. I showed to the depatment of recovery of claims, that I don't hide myself from them. They know now exactly, how much I earn and they decided not to attache my earnings, because with my salary, I just need to find an arrangement with my deptees. At last, they gave me one week to handle it with my deptees.

I guess, some years before I would have reacted different. I would have tried to ask any kind of person, if they would lean me something, that I could pay my accounts. An usual victim on such acts would have been my father. But not this time! I had barely to admit, that this time I would have to handle this challenge by my own. -And to tell you, it hurts! But I know and trust the feeling, that in the end, I can congrats myself! I have to stand straight! And this time I gonna handle it myself!

Today's motto: In skating over thin ice, our safety is in our speed... Ralph Waldo Emerson

Commodities

2007-10-31T13:11:00.000Z

Hi

In the last days, as you also easy cognize, I heavily write long posts. That isn't, because the ideas would fall out! It's because in the last days, business really seems to boom. Per day, I got at least one to two appointments. Further I got my daily duties to fulfill, what also takes way half a day. And in the evening, I work more, that I can gain more business, for myself.

In the moment, I got several guys running for me, regarding commodities. I got some buyers, who want to take iron ore in a quantity, where most sellers have got the feeling, that it would be no longer honest-business. Some already asked me, if I work for the mafia... *lol*

To calm those guys down again, I nicely neglect them. I got buyers for:

iron ore - 62% - 100,000 MT / per month
gold - 999,5 - 5 to 25 Metric tonnes / per month
copper - 97% - 80 to 92 MT / per month

Those buyers don't belong to any illegal organisations! It's a chinese tycoon! -More I won't tell you over internet. But if you got the guts and the possibilities, write me an email on harry.holzer@gmail.com! -Quite lucrative! ;-)

And how did I come on this? I rised up my skills in networketing. I met more and more people from the higher social strata. Those people are mentors in different levels. And those guys really push you into such businesses. -If you let them. Through this, I get to know two new friends. These two guys, are already willing to make their own business. And they would like to take me on board, because my skills in networketing is quite high.

I didn't rise those skills up by attention! I want to come back on a principle, that I anchored into my life. The principle of CANI! The commitment to Constant And Never-ending Improvement!

The principle has been invented from no one else, than Anthony Robbins. On his homepage www.tonyrobbins.com, you may find the audio-file of this tool.

Go for it. I can't write down, that I'm a millionaire now! I can tell you, that my life in plenty of areas changed within the last 12 months. Go through this blog! Start from the very beginning. And you'll see, that the story I realize/cary out, is steady building up! Step by Step I became more and more.

I earn more! I got more responsibility! I got more social contacts. And so on...! Why? Because I committed myself to CANI! Can I hold it up always? No! But as Vilfredo Pareto already wrote down in his 80/20-principle! The goal is, the live 80% in good times and 20% in less positive times. Or 20% effort struggle 80% of gain! -Or opposite! But I prefer the positive! ;-)

What can I say closing? I don't know, where this journey ends! I just can't stop going on and trust, that in the end, I'll be reaping, as I sow! The law of nature! And there are many of them!

Today's motto: Ability is nothing without opportunity. Napoleon Bonaparte

Running out of time

2007-10-30T12:03:00.000Z

HiU

The weekend has been very chilling. But on Monday, I just fall into a rush. I had plenty of things to do simultaneously. I didn't scatter my mind, but I was that focused on the urgent and important things, that I demote the blog. So sorry for that.

I got like a 100 Mio. bucks in the direct sales-pipeline, where I still await their decision. An other 100 Mio. bucks are still open to be included into this pipeline. I estimate a possibility of around 10% for closings. That would be in my case an provision of around 20'k bucks.

But shooot! I got to speed up again! I have a meeting with an other customer in 60 Minutes... I got to leave again.

Today's motto: The reason a lot of people do not recognise opportunity is because it usually goes around wearing overalls looking like hard work.Thomas A. Edison

whuhaaa...

2007-10-29T13:40:00.001Z

Hello!

Sorry I'm in rush today. Tomorrow I've got many things to write down. ;-) Peace!

Lg Harry

gentleman's concert

2007-10-26T12:13:00.001+01:00

Bonjour!

At Wednesday the concert has been a real party! I haven't seen something like this, than for more than ten years now. Something, what was very striking, where all "weeder" (weedheads) in there. My gosh... You probabely would have attract attention, if you would have smoked normal cigarettes in there. :-)

As I am, I never want to annoy anyone... ;-)

Even the rasta-man "surprise" from Amsterdam yelled: "You guys in Switzerland smoke more weed, than all of us in Amsterdam. But with us, it's legally alowed!" And all of the shitheads answered with a laughter. Than he laught back, took his joint and startet to ragga!

Than, with a delay of almost half an hour, gentleman ascend the stage! Through-out his whole gig, he smoked like 3 joints on the stage. He even lampoon the volks with several jokes. Than he made good again his delay from the beginning, by offering the house an encore of ten tracks! Imagine this kind of encore! The peoples in there really started to rock the house and as it has seemt, he enjoyed the Swiss kind of party - as he sad in the end.

Anyhow, during the concert, all of a sudden the girl on my left pass out! So as I am, I made the first aid on her, to see, if there's something really urgent on her. And as I didn't receive any action from her, I wanted to carry her out to the care center. Exactly as I took her on to carry her out, she opened her eyes and looked like stolen - what she does on my arms... Well I asked her, if she's again fully restored. She sad "yes"! And than I but her of again forced her to count fingers and as she passed also through this, I just let her go. But I was like aggrieved! I had the feeling, that this small groupie, just played that way. Neverthless, she and her friend thanked and left away.

Than with the sixth encore, Simon looked like at the floor without any reactions... -Like if he would be petrified! So I decided to better leave slowly, with the objection, than I wanna leave, before the crowd would leave and we would be sticked at the hall there till late.

Lucky me, that on the next day (yesterday) I informed already all staffs, that I'll work from at home... Probabely one of the wisest decisions I made.

This weekend looks like it would be again less wild and more relaxing. This evening, some guests will come up to watch a movie and from tomorrow on, I'll be again calming down alone with Fabienne. I'm looking honestly forward to a real lazy weekend! :-)

Also to you guys, have a nice weekend!

Today's motto: What on earth would a man do with himself if something didn’t stand in his way? H.G. Wells

Perfect day after illness

2007-10-24T10:59:00.000+01:00

There you are!

After my yesterday's dropout in 'cause of illness, I started today in a really easy way... I stood up, without using an alarm to get up. Ate breakfast, did my ablutions, drag on something comfortable and went to work. Now at work, just doing my open duties and will drift it again. The duties are actually updating all lists before I leave again.

This evening, I'll meet once again Naemi. You probabely still remember her from the very beginning of this blog. She's my ex-g'friend. To put it bluntly, my ex-fiancée. We just want to meet again to give a little chat. Since we have separated, we've committed anyway to stay in contact. Because we have stayed more than seven years together. But don't think that we still stick to each other. -We just meet us from time to time.

Regarding the other view, there's a roule, that I just want to give her words (she told this to me, to actually give further to Fabienne): "I'd never accelerate you in an affront situation. I've got seven years with you and if you would cheat Fabienne with me, my dream that you would have been the right man, who never would give himself in such situation, would burgle down."

So if this isn't a commitment, what else?! And it also wouldn't be right the christian way. A way, where I committed myself...!

BUT, and this is a huge and big BUT! Simon just wrote me a message. It seems like he won two ticket to the concert of "gentleman"! He wants me to accompany him... yeeeeehaaaaa!

I'm sorry for Naemi and I'm looking forward to the concert. She'll understand this. I mean, how many times, are you that lucky, to win in a contest?

Now the best on this all is, that I already informed my boss and my deputy. Tomorrow morning, I took off. Honestly, I not even think, that I'd stand up before 10 a.m. if the day before, I've been at a concert.

Today's motto: There are two things to aim at in life: first, to get what you want; and after that, to enjoy it. Only the wisest of mankind achieve the second. Logan Pearsall Smith

Ill

2007-10-23T14:23:00.001+01:00

HiU

I just shortly want to write in here, that in the moment I don't feel good (I'm ill, -emesis) and will come back here to continue my blog latest Thursday, 25.10.2007.

Sorry!

Best,

Harry

Red Pants

2007-10-19T13:56:00.002+01:00

Salli

Yesterday evening I still had a meeting whit a good guy, but with a very strange project. Imagine company X wants a financing of US$ -XX-, but because company X is in a foreign country, company Y will realize the financing. The only connection between these two companies is the CEO and member of the board. As guarantee, company X would give us their patent on their product X-1. But because our contract party, would be company Y and not company X, the patent maybe wont carry on. Now, if any one of you has got a possibility, feel free to contact me. I'm very interested to your solutions! (Please don't write, if your solution has anything to do with any kind of lease-modell.) ;-)

So as I left the meeting, I saw something really awful. A man walking up the hill and next to the street with very nice red pants... Red pant! Look at the pic! What do you think about?

This morning I had a really smooth and easy going time. I stood up late, prepaired myself late, went to office late and now working till leaving again early... :-)

Now what have we got interesting to talk about today? Let's take up once again the subject of motivating yourself. Reasonable, you need an other meaning, to your actual situation. Most of the people aren't motivated, because the reason, where they are in the moment let them be caught up easily. Ask yourself the right questions! Here some proposals:

What has to change right now, that I can change my actual state?
How can I gain fun, by doing, what I have to do?
Am I doing the best possible, to make my time profitable right now?
How can I do the issue/work smart rather than hard?
On what shall I give my focus?

Generally you should ask yourself questions, which are directed to your moment state and/or futur. The best way, how to be motivated, is if you get a kind of leverage. Somewhere, where you can build pressure and convert it into positive directions.

You're influenced by pain or pleasure. Those two components are the driving force in each human life. Either you do something to gain pleasure, or you do something to release pain. So get the point of view, regarding this laverage, by the following example.

So if you're near by a bore-out syndrom at work. You're either not being challenged or you might be overstrained.

If you're not challenged, search for a challenge. The laverage would maybe be to gain more responsibility by becomming more. (Easy possible, by just asking your boss, what you could do more, than sitting there and looking at the monitor.) -So in this case, you hunt after the next compliment of your boss. -Gain pleasure.

Or you build up the image, that you're overstrained. So in this case, it might be the view: If I don't start doing something, my boss will not be happy with me, I might loose the job and can't pay my accounts more at the end of month. Make this image more powerful, by looking at the futured situation without having this job. I guess, that in this case, you will find your second gear to speed up quality and quantity... -You abscond away from this image.

And to optimize the whole story on this example, do both... so here you got the ultimative laverage. Moving toward to the next compliment of your boss and run away from the image, that you could loose all you've got!

In any given situation, you can figure out such new point of view.

I can do it in so many areas, there are things, where I should be possible do it, but I don't. Why? Because I give an other intent on it, than in other areas. My opinion is, that this is human. There are people, they are so good in this, that they can do it in almost any given situation and master it in excellence. So those peoples are my target... -Not those, who are even more weak than I.

For the sharp one under yourself: See NAC of Tony Robbins!

Dear readers, I want to thank you for your support and in this go, I wish you a nice and exciting weekend.

Today's motto: Start by doing what is necessary, then do what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible. Francis of Asisi

Living high ;-)

2007-10-18T11:13:00.002+01:00

Chepas!

I got a distance on my own. Do you know the situations in life, where you exactly know, what you should do, how you should do it and in which timetable the issue has to be done? -But you don't move!? You don't give any action. As I wrote yesterday, I felt myself exactly in this mood. Even this morning. I stood up and actually just wanted to turn right into my bed again. ;-)

I forced me to be motivated and go to work. -Well up to this point, I guess you probabely make the same rhythm day by day. I told myself: "take as long time as you need, but do it." So I came in like half an hour delayed. Started up my PC and pulled out my income-basket.

Our CEO just passt by, as I went through our break-lounge. He just wanted to know, how we come along in our sales. I told him, that I got a filled pipeline for more than 120 Mio CHF. And an other possible contract this afternoon. To make it short, he cheer me and wished me good luck. What he doesn't know, is that I got an actual pipeline of more than 200 Mio CHF. But reasonable are just 120... -So I got a breath-cap of 80.... *hahahahhaaaa* - No-one has to know this... (I don't expect, that he reads my blog...)

I coach different people in the meantime. People, which wants to gain more business, or such who want to prepair themselves to a sport-event (mastership). Now I got one, who wants to become more. To tell you, this is the real challenge. :-) How to become more, if you don't know on what you should give focus? This guy has plenty of good ideas. He's got a high potential, that he should use, but with his mentality, he blocks himself.

As long you don't write down your goals, they're wishes! And he proofs this statement in almost each instant. Wake-up! Realize, that the person you are is much more, than you've been demonstrating right now! Unlesh the power within! (As Tony says) What do you want more, than to live toward your own conceivabilities? Is it of value? Is it so strong of value, that you would die for this value? Or is it just a 'nice to have'? If it's a nice to have, don't wast my time!! I need to know, that this guy is commited. I'll find it out within the next two weeks. And than my typical roule off sets in...

On thing at last: If you really are committed to 'become more', than you show it in each moment. You won't let one chance out, to proof yourself and others, that you're really committed! The only question left is: Are you willing to pay the price?

Today's motto: What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything? Vincent van Gogh

Try to find new questions

2007-10-17T11:13:00.000+01:00

Hellomotto!

I hate to force a deal. This morning, I just did it. Monday has been passing by without any new business. Yesterday I wasn't in good mood. So today, I just had to! Just to proof myself, that I still got it on. And now I stand out in the rain. Guys like me, do have a kind of ethic codec. We want to make business, because the business itself makes fun. But before, I was accelerate! Something in my head, just forced to make the deal.

The other guy seems actually to be a fine guy. He just didn't have the pressure, to turn in with us ASAP. He told me even, that I may call him again in January 2008. But than, I drop out of my average skill, so I pushed him to give me a date today. And so I won and in a way I lost. :-(

Not that you think, that I'm getting depressed. ;-) I'm just a little frustrated, because I couldn't catch one today by the 'normal' way. Since this week started, I'm just 'out of order'.

Let's get me through this:

I'm motivated to work. I go to work in a calm and easy way.
As soon I start with work, I get more and more in a distance.
And as I force it like this morning, I feel myself shitty.
I like my job!
I know from the past, that I had already a few times such phases.

So what am I supposed to do in such phases? How can I use my time best, to make an asset? How long will this phase hold on this time? Which kind of strategy shall I drive up to make this situation a fulfilling success for me, my job, my health...?

I need a new meaning! I'll go home and search for the result... after my next appointment: an exhibition all around finance... whole afternoon long... :-)

An other encouragement was my boss today. He congratulated me, for filling the pipeline with more than € 120 Mio.! The potential are about 10% at least. Possible might be with 20%. Hope at least 50%. :-)

Today's motto: Before you can score, you must first have a goal. unknown

Get caught up!?

2007-10-16T12:00:00.001+01:00

HiGuys!

Yesterday I've been all day long on different, as you say: roadshows! There a company, who needs money, makes a presentation of their products. Yesterday, my day startet already with the first meeting at 0730h a.m.! The last one has been at 0730 p.m.! But it sounds just exaggerating. In the between, I had a free time in the afternoon of around 4 to 5 hours. ;-)

Finally no business came out. All companies and all projects are either too long outstandig or are just on too high risk to be carried on.

Later the day, as I came home again, I just wanted to switch off the day. How did I do it? By gambling... :-D (PS3 - PES6)

This morning, I gain an other business to our pipeline of more € 40 to 60 Mio. I'm really looking forward on this. Maybe it's possible for us, to take an other project up like this one. And in this case, I'll take my next vacation on the Bahamas, if we may fullfil that one! It's regarding a manufactorer in the branch automobiles industry.

Oh, what did I have for an other small amusement this morning. After a whole day on lane, I entered the office and started up all issues. As some of you know, that the pictures, I enclose have on the first view just a slighty sence with the text and on the second view, you might find one unobtrusive. Most of them, are under my copyright. For all others, I make a short request to the copyright holder. -Most of them answer with "Okay! Thx 4 your information!" The one last Friday, didn't come up with this. He wanted to verify, that I include "good readable" next to his pic also his name. I made it in the bottom of my post, but it didn't seem to comfort him, so he went on, till I took it off finally. :-) For all of you guys who at all cost has to know, which one it was, here the link: www.rwagner.de/projects/sofi06/(without direct-link because of legal manner - so please copy-paste by your own) I probabely make advertisment for him, without he has deserved it. :-)))

Guys... there are people around here... ;-)

Today's motto: There is no way to peace, peace is the way! Unknown

fortune favours the bold

2007-10-12T11:20:00.000+01:00

HiU

Yesterday, Fabienne came to me in the evening. Something, I really appreciate with her is, that you also just can have a seat down and just talk with her. We have been talking about her environment and about her different approaches in this environment. Finally, we lost time by just talking together and so we decided to release the evening on front of the TV. :-)

This morning I awoke a little earlier, so I didn't disturb Fabienne by her lie-in. I decided, to hear as usual my audiofiles in the morning, so I can go motivated to work. My goal today, was another deal, which I made immediate after entering the office.

Then later, I loaded an other €42 Mio. project into our sales pipeline. This time, I made the approach to our accountance different. I gave him all documents and now I asked them, which kind of documents, they need, then our customer will get the financing. They told me the documents or agreements they need and than I went back to the customer by just telling him, what we are in need, that he'll get his cash. I'm curious if this approach maight be better. :-))

The weekend will be herald with a small poker-night. Unfortunately, each of us commited already his comming, -except Simon! Some months, or maybe weeks ago, I asked him, if he could create a program/software, which would help me, with my work. As I set the deadline some how mid of this month. As Simon is, he tries to take this challenge. And as he is further, he takes the challenge in the last days near the deadline. -So his priority is: Software - than - social environment. Everyone has to know his priorities! I guess, that it would have been possible, that he could have handled anything without to neglect any area.

As I'm his friend, I wouldn't mind, if he would come one week later up with the software. But also as his friend, I mind, if any other chap already gave me a confirm, that they'll join this evening, just with the only exception of my best friend... -Simon. Do you feel me?! :)))

Well, as it is... -it is...!

I realize as well during the last days, an improvement of any other area in my life. Just sport! In the area of my health, I look at my nutritions. Badly on going this way, because it's the only thing, which I make good in this area. For the last weeks, I've been training 2x! It's like if I would just like to hold my shape... But I actually want to make more on this. So what will I do next? A schedule in my "Planer2007" @ which days I'll have to go to training! I need to get more discipline ín it.

By the way, 'discipline' is in the ears of most people something effort taking and almost negative. But in fact, discipline is something really good! In fact you show with discipline, that you are on top of your life! -Think about! ;-)

Today's motto: If you can dream it, you can do it. Walt Disney

Look into a great future

2007-10-11T12:42:00.001+01:00

Heyyy

I got it! I knew I would. In my mind, something since beginning this year strongly changed into an other focus. Do you still remember my one-week-test? 7 Days after each other without any negative thought? It doesn't meen, that you don't let in any negative thought! But if one comes up, you don't hold it. Your focus changes into something resourceful. You concentrate on solutions and no longer on problems.

Well I guess, there it started to change. There the thought of "what I am, is much more, than I've been demonstrating in my life." -really triggered me, to focus beyond anything, that would hold me back from this commitment.

Now, being in this enforced state of success, I start slowly to recognize, how happy I am. How much pleasure it gives one, if you know, that you start to position your life into something, that has got a fundament for the future. In other words, now I realize, that growth gives me the answers to the question I have had.

Today, as I went to the office, I imagined, how it would be, if I would close two deals. After three phonecalls, the two deals settled in. :-)

Yesterday, I had a meeting, which I told you already about. Well after all, it wasn't that shitty at all. In fact, it has been the first time now, where I got the possibility, to close 40 Mio. Euro!!! And I quite look forward, because it seems very realistic to me, that we inhouse also give the okay to this project. Well, more infos, later in the blog!

Today's motto: The harm of faineance is, that you don't know, when you have to finish!

Genial awareness

2007-10-10T13:55:00.000+01:00

Chepas again.

The meeting yesterday was very very very interesting. As it seems, the guy I told you about, really is a nice man. He's a christ and a businessman. To be honest, in a way, I'm quite impressed of him. He can include the duties of both sides without to have any larger outstandings. I'd like to be similiar shaped in maybe the next ten years...

Than in the evening, I met Sven... Guess what we did...? ;-)

We played on the PS3 'Lord of the rings'. Aswell, we finished yesterday the coorporation missions. It's very addictive. Like yesterday, we played around five hours... -till we finished at last.

This morning once again, I dropped in the office at nearly 10 a.m.! But like it didn't impress, nor care anyone. ;-)

So I went to my office, brought in mind, that I want to make again a deal, before I care about any other issue. And as soon I reached the first person again, I closed him again. Actually, no-one in my office does know, that in my momentary phase, I'm that good in shape. ;-)

Therefor, I have read once a relly good sentence, which you can read in today's motto.

At lunchtime, the company, who has been lodger here, tried once again to poach me to their house. And once again, I really appreciate his effort on this, but had to neglect one more time. And today, he told me, as soon I want, I may work at any given time at his team. In his mind, he already played through the szenario, that I would be a partner of his company...

Also very very flattering. AND (unlike BUT) I have got the focus on my job. I really scrub through tough-times and now finally want to see if my hard work also starts to avail. It's really very calmative, to know, that I would have a chance to work there, in case I'd loose my momentary job. Terrific! :-D

Later on this afternoon, I still have got two appointments. I'm not really looking forward to them, but I know, that it's in need of them and it's my job... Public Relations (and Research).

Today's motto: It doesn't matter, how much effort you gave into something. Always let it look simple! Napoleon Hill

Stressful day

2007-10-09T11:34:00.000+01:00

Hello to the next day!

I tried this morning also to achieve the same mood like yesterday. Unfortunately, it didn't set in right to the current hour. At least, I made already money today. I called a manufactorer for farm maschine :-)

He really has got a pain with his customers and so, we maybe could handle their customers.

Now this afternoon, I've got again an other appointment in Zurich-City with the very interesting person I mentioned some days ago. It actually handles about a quite huge project here in Switzerland. An amount, probabely noone would think to claim. High volume, high risk, delicate project in IT-Business. -Fibre glass!

This evening my dear friend Sven comes over for some discussion and gambling. He'll probabely join me in one of the Tony Robbins - seminars.

Oh shoot, I'm running out of time! I'll return tomorrow and let's hope, that this meeting isn't turning into no earthly use! ;-)

Today's motto: If a shizophrenic threat with suicide, is it possible, that he could be arrested because of hostage-taking? ;-)))

Gold Monday

2007-10-08T10:32:00.000+01:00

GrüessDi!

The debate last Friday with Fabienne again turned into harmony. :-) We had all weekend long the time for us. Well on Saturday, we had to curb for her brother, but initially, it just take the morning. Later we went shopping and do all the common weekend-duties, that all of us got with a own household.

Sunday evening I just let pass the time from Friday to Sunday in a short review. And after all, my summery is, that it doesn't matter, what reason ever we fall in, more important is, that both parties are willing to find a shared goal - 'search for solutions'! If I imagine, how it could have ended, if just one of us, wouldn't like to approach the other... gosh...! ;-)

This morning was already very successful. I started the day in full attention on what I really want to focus. I drilled myself to not get caught up in any flabby mood. I woke up, turned in an audioprogram of Anthony Robbins ('Awaken the giant within'). I took time to eat breakfast. I took time to plan my whole day. I took time to make my ablutions. And I definitely took time to go to work. :-)

At work, I took up exactly two addresses, which I want to make a deal! And on both companies, I made one within two hours! -Not bad, or?! :))

Than the guy from Tony Robbins called up again regarding a seminar, which he wants me to join in. And I could set down each arguement comming up. Actually, the other guy should have known (if he didn't), that I do know each of those refutations. -Because I made different seminars with them and also read tons of books. And so I actually wanted a win-win-situation for both of us. I explained him my financial situation, but the will to join the seminar, and if he could arrange, that I pay with my next provision, I'd apply. First it didn't seem like he got me, but after all, he just wanted to look, if I could also pay or cash in advance in an other purpose.
But neverthless, I had no other choice.

Our CEO is inviting the whole department for businesslunch today. And as I know, he'll probabely ask me, if we are on track with the estimated goals or not. -I'm happy to say in the meantime "yessss, we are...!"

Today's motto: The difference between the right word and the almost right word, is the difference between lightning and lightning bug. Mark Twain

Good phone

2007-10-05T11:42:00.000+01:00

Tschou!

Yesterday I had once again a too long discussion with my honey. She has been fair to me and did ask, if I want to see her in the evening. But because I had the whole week long, a party around me in the evenings, I answered her question with no and an explanation why.

For the next 30 minutes or so she didn't give any reaction to this. I asked what was wrong, and still I received no answer. I took her silence for a sign that she was in no good condition and hurt because of my refuse, but it was definetly non of my purpose to hurt her in any way. So I wrote her again, and she then answered with "I don't want to say anything about that....". You can imagine that from my point of view such words are no good answer at all, because they show no targets in a discussion like this and no focus on something positive. They only make you feel like standing out there in the rain and the door is being shut in front of you, although you had no bad purpose at all.

So I aproached her again in a way that made it obvious to her, that I was neither able nor willing to continue our talk like this, that I felt misunderstood and negatively touched by her attitude. Than I got different reproaches, that I'm the one, who doesn't empathize and such of an arrogance and so on. I tried, not to let me get infected, that in the end, I'd give her back the same way. And it held on up to the later afternoon. Emotionally, it took me away from work. It just deflected me from my job. I couldn't focus.

On one hand, I wanted to make a good job (as I also did in the end), and on the other hand, I didn't like a dispute with her. But my honest reply on her question, did probabely not suite her expectation. And I could have made it worse, by just make her some reproaches.

-As you might guess them, because I won't write them out here! ;-)

But no, I thought by myself, that I better not do any reaction on her approach. She felt herself twit and reacted in this way. I can understand her and I also know, that you don't have to ask anyone, if your questioning is just pro forma! If you anyway want to hear just one answer, you better don't ask! You better surprize the person (by just visiting him) and get him settled back again.

My perspective on such manners are deduced on the holy law. -The bible. So I made some research on this and looked after simply duties of man and woman. Those duties are so simple!

Man:

You have to care for the woman in each way.
You have to give her the feeling of being safe.
You have to give her love

Woman:

You have to care for the man in each way.
You have to give him a place where he can calm down and relax.
You have to give him love

The context you may find in the letter from Paul(us) to Tim(otheus).

Yesterday, probabely both sides, weren't on track with does simple roulez above. Then this morning, I really showed her again, a fair approach. I told her, that I love her and I wish her a nice day. She wrote back, that she stayed at home, didn't feel well enough to go to work. -Like this time is already the second time, after her holiday work at the same company. So I just asked her, how she thinks about that fact. Well it seems, like this again has opened up something. I'm just getting very short written answers back again. Somehow, I'm not in mood, to get me back in yesterday's condition, so I just don't react anymore. I have to focus on my work.

____________

Than today morning, I received a call, from a very interesting guy. He wants to make a relly huge project, where we could offer him the finances. Why? -Because his assets are so good, that we don't need actually to finance them, but they just want - for taxreasons and such.

I really want to get him on board. Because he as person has a very interesting track record. I have to look, that I won't let any infos out. I won't say who, nor what, nor how much. The only thing I can say honestly, is it's quite a piece of cake... ;-)

Today's motto: -Never let yourself pull down by the miserable of others, look that you impact your 'good' mood to them! hth

Finally got back to write

2007-10-04T11:46:00.003+01:00

Hellooooo!

Tuesday I've been in Bern for the umbrella-organization-meeting. I have had a good impression about the realization of their project. And after more than 90 minutes, our understandig really seemed matched. The other guy knows now exactly, what he has to give us. And we know now finally, how they want to go on. And after all, we would have the possibility, to make a deal with them. But, they're very slow, in finding a desicion! End 2007 they're gonna tell me if yes or no! In the meantime, I've to send our concept to their expert at the university of Luzern.

Yesterday, I really had once again a droll experience. One, I maybe not have needed. As I was on the way to work, I just gear up to enter the highway. After half a kilometer, I saw from the front of my car, that byside of the weels, smog appeared! I looked into the driving mirror, and saw behind of me a huuuuuuge cloud of smoke! I saw cars draw aside! And I thought by myself: "Oh shoot! What to fuck is it??? If my car burns, I better not break down. Because I know, that fire always spreads, as soon you stand still. -I have to run down the engine!"

Than, as the car stood still, all over smog came out. So I left my car and took out the most important things.

I saw the trace I left behind. Went to it, took some liquid up and smelled a disgusting bland smell. -It has been water. So now I knew, that my cooling water run out. That the smog hasn't been something else than damp. I opened the hood and saw all over splashed dripping. And here the punchline comes.

As I called the roadhelp, I told them following:
ME:"Hi, my name is Harry Holzer, I'm after the exit 'Brunau' to direction 'Leimbach'. After the exit I'm about 200 meters lag. May you please send me someone ASAP. Smog apears out of the engine."
Roadhelp-Lady: "If you've got smog comm' out, you better alarm the fire department!"
ME: "Well I don't know if it's need, -why, how long does it take your guy to be here?"
Roadhelp-Lady: "May I please have your member-number?"
ME: "Why? Does it take longer, when I'm not a member???"
Roadhelp-Lady: "No, but than we would have already all your coordinates!"
ME: "I don't know, if I'm member. I had already beginning this year a problem. I left my keys in the car, and one of your guys told me, that after using once your services, you're automaticly member for one year."
Roadhelp-Lady: "Ahm, I need the number!"
ME: "Excuse me!? I haven't got a clue, if I'm a member or not! But I see my car seems like burning, would you please send one here!"
Roadhelp-Lady: "Yeah, in a instant. Please wait about 45 minutes..."
ME: "45 minutes??? My car is full of smog comm' out and you tell me, I shall wait 45 minutes???"
Roadhelp-Lady: "Thank you for calling us, have a nice day!"...
... and hang-up!!!!

Well that was the first superbad..., but it still comes better...
... after one hour the other guy came finally. And if you can imagine a guy, say average hight, normal shape, a face, where every empty frigo looks smarter and an on going like a slimy scumbag.

He began like: "Are you the guy, that has called up?"
I would have wanted to yell at him, if he may point me out an other car next to me, having a mishap, but I just answered with 'yesss'.
Than he went to the hood, like for this small shit I've forced him to come. He said, that my cooling water run out. The tube would be defect. -Oh wonder, wonder... !

He changed the tube and in the meantime, he talked and talked and I just tried to be polite, and he just run on and on... therms like: If I have to make this on facture, it will be 20 bucks more expensive. I told him, well it's the only way how I may pay him. Because in the moment, I've just got 100 bucks with me. How much would it cost? And he like astonished 'what???', if I don't know, that a 100 bucks won't be enough for his work... and blablabla... so finally he finished and told me, I should ASAP go to my mechanic, I got a repair of about 500 bucks. He just repaired it temporary! (For more than 169.- CHF)

So I went to the mechanic and he told me, that all is okay, he just has to exchange a cable - that's it!
Lucky me... :-)

Than later on same day, I had a business-meeting with a prospect in one of the top three fancy-hotels round the lake of Zurich. Called 'Baur au lac'. I could win him as a customer! He'll make the deal of more than 14Mio. with us! We just have to accept his accounts. *smile*

So far, that has been all in the past days.

Today's motto: Foolery is infectious, comprehension's growth is hardly turning into an epidemic!Kazimierz Bartoszewicz (1852-1930)

So-no-so

2007-10-01T11:25:00.001+01:00

Ciao!

The weekend wasn't that varied as first excpected. Fabienne was unfortunately ill and I just really had to drive down from my last working-week.

As I entered office today, a foolish feeling came up. I was motivated, but on the same time, I have been in a off-key-stance. Tomorrow I've got the umbrella-organization appointment.

This morning, I didn't reach anyone, to make a small deal and now in the afternoon, I'm on track to prepare myself for tomorrow. A voice in me says: "Go on, make a deal" An other one says: "focus on tomorrow and prepare yourself seriously!" I'm like caught up in a mixed blessing 8-)

What has got priority?
What will give me the best return on my time?
On what shall I focus?
What shall I do, right now?

Okay, to: "What has got priority?"
- Everyday-business or the meeting tomorrow? I guess it's the meeting tomorrow, because my deadline on this is already soon.

"What will give me the best return on my time?"
- That's quit safe, it's the meeting tomorrow.

"On what shall I focus?"
- Hmmm... the meeting??? Yepa!

"What shall I do, right now?"
- I'll do some printouts from their business-area. Make some prognoses and analysis about this business field. Preparation for my guideline.

I'd like just to sink down and away... It's really a pain in the ass, to move on and on and on. As soon I'm home today, I'll work on my NAC-Skills (Neuro-Assotiative-Conditioning). I've got to change this viewpoint away, that it's a pain in the ass, into something resourceful! And I'll meet still Simon... Maybe he can give a lift on that...maybe...

Today's motto: One day a bird shit into my eye, I didn´t cry. I thanked god that cows can´t fly. Unknown

My week(end)

2007-09-28T14:47:00.000+01:00

Hello for the last time this week.

Since I woke up this morning, I'm non-stop on track to growth. This showes itself in the commin' cases.

This Morning at 11.ooh a.m. I had a meeting with one of my brokers (I multiply myself throughout other persons in the market to gain business). And the first thing she has been talking about, was very rarely about the to finance project. In fact, just the key-figures has been told and nothing more. Than already it started...

She wanted to know, how much will she earn, if she will bring us the deal. People who know me, know also, that this provocative question will be returned with a provocative answer. I told her the following scenario:

"Look! It's like hunting a bear. I'm two years in the business and I know, that I'm a rookie. But and this is a big BUT, why do you wan't to talk about the proportioning, if you haven't shoot the bear yet?" "If you just show me, where the bear is, I'm not in mood to give you more than a steak. But if you shoot him and bring him to me, I'll give you the whole side piece! Is this answer fair enough?"

-Well you can imagine, what she told. -Yeah!

Than this afternoon, I sat together with our CFO. Still regarding this umbrella-group-deal and the process, how we should make the approach. Now I got plenty of possibilities, that we can offer. I know now, throughout what it's important. We just have to show them up, that as we get any kind of guarantee or assets, that we are willing to finance them.

You may say, well Harry, that's logic, nor? Yes, it is. But and there's again a big BUT, the kind of guarantee or assets, that we need, is different, than other instituts could take in need. I hope you understand, that I can't write it down here, but I can say, that we probabely are the only one in the market, who can take out assets, that are after validation off balance!

It's very, very creative. And I'm enjoying to show them soon our possibilities. ;-)

Today's motto: The greatest pleasure in life, is doing the things people say we cannot do. unknown

Rocky Part XXVII

2007-09-27T10:35:00.000+01:00

:-)

You won't imagine, what I went through once again! Yesterday, I received my salary, today I'm again balanced! This was quite frustrating! I just got a 100 bucks till in my butt. Well okay, I've been a liddle more smart now. At least, I have already made some dispositions! ;-)

For example, I've prepared myself for a survival-month with victuals! Well I didn't expect, it would already come this month, but in the end, I better take it now, than later.

So with this, you can imagine, that I was really frustrated this morning. But I could motivate myself beyond any objections! I told myself: "Right now, more than ever!"
And I fuck' moved my ass! Made a deal, helped my bro' with a prosecution and rised my skills in the research area of my job, by reading more information for the umbrella-group appointement!

I'm on track with my goals and I'm not discouraged with any given challenge (not problems!) I'm involved right now!

I was nearly breaking down today. I almost let up the feeling:

For what this all?
What shall I fight for? - I will never come out of this!

And than I had a sudden change of heart! Something in me told me: "Harry! Is this situation new? Haven't you already gone through such in past? What's so different this time?"

To be honest, I wanted to tell myself, that I'm getting tired with all this. Just keep fighting and fighting without any results. But that's not fact! Fact is, that I got less and less depts comming up. I got friends, who helps me to get through this. I got a family, which believes and trusts in me! I got a sweety, staying at my side, even when time runs against me. I got an apartment, which I can afford to live in! I got a repaired car, which for the next years may escort me. I got food. I'm healthy. I got a brain, that functions the right way. And a job, where I can finally use my knowledge. -So what to fuck am I sulking???

The only experience I made this morning, that I can share with other is the "today's motto" ;-)

Today's motto: "If all breaks down on you in a moment, get excited! Than it's a wonderful situation to show what is in you!" HTH

Hypnosis

2007-09-26T12:09:00.004+01:00

Ciao!

Today I wanna talk about hypnosis. In the last days, I've been searching for several audio-CD's for auto-suggestion, suggestion and/or hypnosis. I belief, that our brain works 24/7! So I tried a test with myself on the program "speed-reading".

As I went through this in the last days, my skills in reading raised upon to more than 500 words per minute. Just by one of those hypnosis-audio's of Chris Morris! In a way, the whole approach is different when I read! The forcast is to get up to 3000 words a minute! I heared from others out there, reading with a speed of more than 50,000 (!!!) words per minute.

If I'll get up to my goal, I probabely will go through a book in about 3-4 hours (including about 300 - 500 pages). With this technic, I'll handle this huge information flood in an instant. That's what I hope about. Strangely, as I go through this subject, two of my friends, Sven and Simon are in similar phases. Sven started (so I hope ;-) ) to read the first book of Mr. Anthony Robbins, "Unlesh the power within" and Simon goes trough the audio of Chris Morris with speed reading.

The more I take myself on tests, the more my environment goes with. And this hooks me upon any limits I set for myself. Here I could bring a perfect sentence on this, but I want you to read it in the "today's motto" :-)

Today I found again a new way how to gain new business for our company. I got a new program, that helps me find any key-figures of the company in a shorter time. With a overview, that I immediately find the information I need to convince our prospects.

If I may take out the cheek, I want to ask you one question: If it's so easy, to learn new concepts by audio-files, reading-material, videos, etc..., why don't we all take use of it???

What doesn't count are answers like:

I'm happy, as I am right now (there's always an area, where you can be better).
I haven't got time (so you got enough money, right?).
I can't afford it (new news 4u! Many programs you already receive for free!).
I got more important things to do (more important then your own life???).

Don't come up with any sentence, that will but you into self-deception! My idea is, that you're much more of value!

Today's motto: The best way to learn, is to imagine, how you learn others in the given subject! Brian Tracy

fuck' bad mood!

2007-09-25T11:44:00.001+01:00

HiU

Once again I'm trapped in those 'problematic'-situations. My boss wants all of a sudden to join the meeting with the umbrella organization. But I still have got very bad feelings comm' up, if he joins me there. In fact, my boss is a hard-sales-personality.

Rather me! I'm just looking on to have some deals. I don't care, how much profit I'm gonna make throughout this. And so, we'll have an unmatched situation on the meeting with them. And because he's my boss, I'll have to sit down quit and let the big manitu make his job.

If it's on me, I would just start with them talking about their branch-situation. Point out: Privatize vs. subsidy! How we would imagine to figure out with them a financing-model, where they would agree to make with us. Because in fact, but this is my own opinion, I know, that they are searching for a financing-model, where they can present to the bank! And my idea is, as their own experiance, they have been dropped from any bank in Switzerland last year and if they want in future to join with an other partner, for example our company, many other branches, would be looking or knowing us! Right?

But unfortunately, my boss doesn't have any interest regarding such principle... :-(

So, I can think about a new way, where he can join, but I got the fingertip on it! Fantastic!!!

Let's talk about something else... I'm gonna turn mad on this soon! >:-o

On Saturday, Fabienne and I have visited a natural park in Langnau a.A.! One of the real attraction in there is the bear. Because as you know, a bear has got his area, where he can move in. And now look at the pic. He probabely has got an leakage of hunderts of meters... But NO, this pet just wants to expose himself right next to the cave, where anyone can see him... ;-)
Look once, how tall he would be, if he would stand on his stand... 'starkly' nor??? :-)

Today's motto: If you don't know your goal, no way may be the right one! unknown

Manana-syndrom :-)

2007-09-21T11:57:00.000+01:00

Chepas!

Do you know the manana-syndrom? But manana never comes??? :-D

I hear that over and over again...

...I'll do it tomorrow!
...Tomorrow, I got time!
...Tomorrow suits better!
...Tomorrow... what ever....

That's how we twit ourselves! And think about! Aren't you exactly same-minded in certain cases? To be honest, I am! Like for example yesterday evening. My day has been very long and I came home at about 11.15h p.m.! And I should have updated my calender, my planning-sheet and my cell. But than I told myself, com'on, it's already that late. Just relax and watch a little TV. And do you think, that this morning I did update anything??? -No! I slept to long and was in delay. So I haven't got time to do it again.

What did I learn? Manana-syndrom! Tomorrow! -Forget it! With an estimated guarantee of 80% you'll not do it "manana"! So next time I'll get it different.

As soon that next time the question will come up, if I shall update my duties, I will tell myself: "Do it now! Do it now! Do it now!" and than just go on it! I learned, that the manana-syndrom won't do anything... :-)

The commin' weekend will be again very cram! Today evening, my stupid meee, has to make the laundry. Between 7 to 10 p.m.! Lateron, Fab(e)ulous will come. Than I probabely will have to go shopping, after I visited a customer today. Tomorrow we have planned to go to the pubfestival and this now finally won't go, because those who would come with, did already neglect to come. But today, maybe, we would go shortly to visite one of our friends (Franca). She's working at the pubfestival. But I have to look, how I'm in mood, when I make the wash up to this late time. And on Sunday, we're invited to Peda's place for brunch... But... This stupid man :-)) didn't give me his address yet... *muahahahahaaa*

Well, now I'm already in weekend mood. Hope my poor customer won't feel it (so by attentional being moony). :-D

Today's motto: Though this be madness, yet there's method in't. Shakespeare, hamlet

Different beliefs = different actions

2007-09-20T13:52:00.000+01:00

Hey

Today I had once again the object, that my boss and I got different beliefs regarding our sales-strategies.

He wants to go the usual way to gain more business. But today, I tried something really different. I called an umbrella group of an industrial branch. I read in the news, that this branch is in need of cash. Unfortunately, they have been rejected by the state and so aren't further subsidy. In other words, they have been privatize!

Now, what I did, is I called the umbrella group, if they already have got an idea. I heared, that they're in need of about 200 to 300 Mio. Swiss Francs. So the guy there told me about the organisation and that they have excluded this issue by the university (FH) of Luzern (a Kanton in Switzerland). They shall now search for different possibilities, how they could create new tools for to finance this industrial branch. So as I talked with him, he told me, that I'm the only one, who did ask them for financing their projects. I'm in the 'Pole-Position'!

As I asked my boss, what he thinks about, he just told me, in other words, that it's waisted time! He already tried those companies, and they are save enough, that we don't have to finance them. They're liquid enough to buy all things cash. -Well I know, that he just tried the biggest houses in this area! 30%! And so I tried over the umbrella organisation to make a top/down so I got the agreement of them. -That's quite easier to approach them. Nor?! ;-)

Well I'll see, how it works out on the 2nd of October '07!

Parallel to my work, I also search for new learning-tools. I don't care, if it's audio, books, or anything else! I'm just looking how I can move upon my moment capacity. Some things I found again are the areas of:

Autosuggestion
Speed-Reading
Hypnosis (delta&theta)

Well I hope, that I'll find many good help to push me further! ;-)

Today's motto: You don't know, where you will go, but you'll be the first one there! unknown

Phases in your life!

2007-09-19T10:59:00.000+01:00

Grüezi!

As you know, I do plannings all time long. Unless for myself or others or our company. And now I got also more skills in break down those plannings into phases. And in the branch of your own life, I think I found out the five phases, where any change has to go through.

And those are:

Doings! You got to have the deeper insight, that your conditions have to change!
Technics! You got to start not work hard, but smart! Find new possibilities, new ways!
Self-development! Start setting goals, to be like your idols. Continuous growth!
World-outlook! Carry on with new eyeglasses. Give yourself a new reality!
Self-perception! Now you got a new identity. You got finally an other view of yourself!

I remember also an other listing from Anthony Robbins:

Standards
Beliefs
Strategy

He says, in the beginning, you have to build an other standard for yourself. For example by the sentence: Who I am is much more, than I'm demonstrating right now in my life! Than you need a supporting belief that starch you with the idea, that your new standards will compete! And if you got these two steps, the strategy will show-up anyway.

I don't want to place myself as an idol, but as I told me, that wo I am is much more, than im demonstrating right now in my life, I started you harvest a inner belief, that boosted me in a new direction.

The reason, why I write over and over again similar things, is because I need on the one side this blog as a controlling for my own life. And on the other side, I care about you! I want you to know, that your problems are similar to mine. But I ask myself how I can use a problem as an asset on my learning skills! And that makes the difference between success and failure!

I can't fail anymore! Because in all those situation, I may find at least something what I could learn about.

Today's motto: There's a difference between "I already have learned something" and "really using that, what you've learned"! unknown

Get out of my hair!

2007-09-18T11:53:00.001+01:00

Hello

My experience with the system I invented on Sunday seams to advantage me. Just in the two days where I could test it, my productivity rised in minimum up to 25%, rather 40%!

As I already look again forward on things I want to do, I realize, that it's almost crazy. ;-) Yesterday I had to go again to my trustee. There have been different things comming up, that he didn't handle for me. So I asked myself, if I'm in need of him. Well after sitting together with him, I had to decide, -yessss! I'm very in need of this guy. In the moment he's like a buffer for me.

Any accounts in depts, -he roulez them. Terrific, aswell unlucky... Because in fact it's a evidence of incapacity.

But now, that I'm getting clear on my accounts, I already look forward on my next education! I going to make the Master of science in information: Strategy, Systems and Economics! After this last education, you may call me doc! *muahahahahaaaaa*

I found again two very good questions, I wanna share with you:

Can I afford it, not to have this or that? (It's logic where you can use this - shopping)
How can I...? Is always better than: Can I ...?

These are deep setted questions. So first think about them, before you say: yeah, no problem! For example "how can I" is something definitive you wanne go through. In comparison "can I"! Can I always includes also a step-back from a situation. And isn't this a pearl-knowledge you win, if you exactly know, which question do affect in such way?

Today's motto: Go up to your limit, than across it with one single step. Do it over and over again and your fortune will award you, way out of your imagination! HTH

value date

2007-09-17T12:30:00.000+01:00

Hey volks

My weekend has been pretty nice... Had a pokernight at Friday and unfortunately didn't reach the final. And in the end, the other guy won! -You may say, as of the man before termination! Why? I'll tell you later...-soon! ;-)

Saturday was quite calmy, like for example still made my weekly shopping and lateron just watching a movie with my sweety. So here again, just laying around and doing nothing! Well I also worked all afternoon long... :-( I made something like a lifeplaner for 2007! As you may see on the pic, it's a kind of test I'm going on.

Sunday was a strange day. The morning wasn't that bad and at the time Fabienne and I where in the church, no-one could guess, what our day would bring us. After church we went home. At home we have been so lazy, that we almost fell a shame, 'cause of not going out of the house by sunny weather. But than my brother called up and asked me, if I still got the car of dad. He's in need and wanted to have it. So what a good bro' I'm, I drove to Horgen (with Fabienne) to bring Roger the dad's car. His g'friend Constanze also has been there - unfortunately, as you will see soon!

On the way back to Zurich, Roger and I have been talking about money and family. All of a sudden, Constanze bluster around, if we couldn't change therm! As I am, I looked at her and thought by myself, what a nice person she is, interrupting our chat! So I answered: "Oh yeah! Why don't we talk about pink hair?" Constanze did colour her hair pink, so imagine what happened? She went postal! Blabla seesaw! And all of a sudden she boxed me into my face! Honest! She fuck' punched me with her fist! And I really don't accept this, from anyone. And because I don't spank any women, I file charge! Anyone, who does this to me, has to expect this! And the shitty way happened, that it's the g'friend of my own brother! I asked the police, what the best would be. One of my proposal was, that she shall write me a written excuse! I'll give her exactly one week time! This Friday, if I won't find any letter of her, I'll have to go to the police. As also they are informed, that I'll come over on Friday! So how do you find that? Crazy and really shitty, no?!

And this morning, I gave to the other guy a note. In this SMS I wrote him, that I won't longer accept this contact as it is. I told him, that I waited more than 2 weeks. And I don't care about this stupid PS3. What I really care about, is that I won't go through this for anyone! Also not him! Either I got an environment, which I can count on! Or if it's not possible, I have to neglect the contact with me. And so I wrote him this! Also crazy aswell!?

So many strange things are happening in the last days to me. But it's nice, that I got again some strange stories happening.

Today's motto: Much learning does not teach understanding! Heraklit

Let's talk about drugZ

2007-09-14T11:39:00.002+01:00

Chepas!

The strange guy told me yesterday, that he would bring the PS3 today... Well... This time I intervene! I told him: "Stop talking, that you bring me this PS3. Just bring it! Strange on it is, that every time, the manner is the PS3, something comes between. I don't care if you lie, but as soon, I'm involved with my mind, by doing some anticipation or so, -it's over! Do you feel me?!"

And he said, that he does understand me. But I couldn't imagine, how many shit happened exactly the past two weeks in his life... -Well, he's right, -I don't know! But I don't really care about... :-)

So have I been fair? Did I react to harshly? I think, that in two weeks, you should be able to bring over an issue like this one. And no, I don't think, that I treated him harshly! Because the tone I used has been very polite.

As well in the last days, many people around me talk about any kind of drugz. I make a list of all them:

Cocaine, in the office I got some guys talking about and probabely taking it.
Weed, my friends and I do smoke from time to time.
LSD, a guy I met in a store asked me, if I'm interessted to buy, but no THX!
XTC, I have been asked at the last party in the A1 - disco.
Ritalin, students here in Switzerland misuse it as doping for the brain at school.
Anti-depressiva, people I know uses them for what reason ever.
GHB, one of my friends loves it, -I just tried once, but I can't find the WOW-effect.
Nikotin, I stopped smoking! Yesss!
Amphetamin, one of my friends takes it for BB (bodybuilding).
Ephedrine, same friend as Amphetamin.
Magic - Mashrooms, well - two persons of my environment asked me, if I would join a round.

All in all, I hear mostly of those drugz in my environment. Isn't this tough?! So many things I'm confronted in my everydays life. So regarding this subject, I went to the homepage of the european commitee for drugz (www.drogenkult.net / www.emcdda.europa.eu / www.erowid.org). It's very interesting. Most of them just inform how you can use drugs in a secure way! Non of them tells you, that it's no good... :-))) Well, I don't want to animate anyone to take drugs, but what I find funny is, that they all just tell you what is going to happen with you, if you take it. But there's no counter-campaign! And this I find blithe!

So for this weekend, I'm looking forward to my PS3 (hahahahahahaaaa) and just to relax and work a little... but all in all I just love this free time, that I can use for me!

Today's motto: The truth is our precious property, let's be canny with it! Mark Twain

A day without success :-(

2007-09-13T12:09:00.001+01:00

HellooooU!

Today my usual rhytm didn't settle down. Somehow, I'm just wasting one contact after the other. So what am I supposed to do? Change focus! I know that today isn't my acquisition day. I got about 40 contacts left, where alone today I wasted 20 of them! So what shall I do?

Lucky me, that this afternoon I got an other issue on desk! I have to visite a possible new partner of our house. She's a woman with different financing - projects. Today she wants to know, if we are it worth and if we are possible prospects for her customers.

Last Monday I forgot to mention a real strange happend story. So I want to repass on this one:

As you knew, I had to bring my father's car to the garage. And later on, as I went to fetch it up again, a strange indian guy came to me. He came from a square street on the opposite of the garage where I have been. So he saw me, came toward me with a biiiiig smile. :-D

And now the strange guy started like this: "Hello! I want to shake hands with you!" Well as you can imagine, I wasn't that open-minded to him, so my reaction: "Why?" And now it comes(!!!) "Because you're a very lucky and popular person. Many person like you!" And so how could I change different, than shake hands with him ;-)

He took a piece of shrinked paper and put it into my hands. He said, I shall hold it, while talking to him.

Than he started to tell me the following things and please give a special attention on this!
"The streak of your bad luck is over! Last year two people you love separated. And a love that you had, left you alone. And a man you have been taken as an ideal, died. But listen, it's all over now! Already next month, I see a change! From the 13. October 2007, your life will change forever. From this date on, you'll have a run of good luck! You'll get very old... approx. between 82 to 85 years old."

Well to this guy! My parents are in a divorcement. My fiancée left me last year. And my grandpa died some months ago! So as you can imagine, I was like paralized after his small intermezzo!

The guy told me: "Don't worry, you got a woman now, that really loves you very much!"

Than he topped it again! He said: "Think about a flower and tell me the name!" As I know myself, I always have to heavier this kind of tests. So I took an exotic flower! Not somehow a Rose or an Orchide. -Because everyone takes one of these. I took a Lotus! (As of nobody would say this one 8-) ) And than the guy said:"Open the piece of paper I gave to you before our discussion!" And as I opened it, it was written on it: Lotus!

After this, he left! That was the whole story. I thought by myself, it has to be a trick! I liked to hear it. What he told me all and what he knew about me. But after all, I'm not aloud to belief it. The Ten Commandments of my religion want it this way!

But it was strange! Nor?! :-)

Today's motto: Don't say, you want to give! Just give it! J.W.Goethe

past days

2007-09-12T11:41:00.000+01:00

Oh my gosh...

Non-stop on the lane! And yesterday I really had have a successful day. I had an investors occasion. I met different CEO's and CFO's from all over the world. And to tell you, I'm sure that I can use once upon a time their contacts.

Just in the last months I got all in all about 50 new contacts in the C-level. If I go on like that, I know I play in the same level as they do.

Somehow, nothing else happens in the last days. Just got still the other humanoid, who should give me the PS3. But to be honest on this, I don't expect anything more from him. On Monday he and Simon had a talk regarding the social department. As soon you're jobless, you can fill out the form needed and on the following months, they gonna pay you 70% from your last salary. And so he was talking regarding this all and bla bla bla... unfortunately, if you're a family father, you get 80%! -So I asked myself once again: "If this guy would have family, wouldn't he know that by his own???" Simon meant, that he maybe didn't realize it and didn't calculate, if it's 70 or 80%, 'cause he anyway got's enough. -Well I doubt it!

So we got still four days to go maximal. And solong I'm on it, I don't do any prejudices. -What really is quite heavy with a guy that holds one for stupid.

Hmm... I had to pay for my cars repair 1300.-!!! isn't this a pain in the ass??? 8-(

...well at least I can drive again to the office... :-P

Today's motto: Nobody knows the death, further on this, no-one knows, if it's the biggest gift the human receives! Sokrates

review

2007-09-10T11:26:00.000+01:00

Hello

Today I'm in a really strange mood. Somehow I'm just set standby. All what I'm doing is asking myself in each moment, 'what is priority'?
What I wanted to do, isn't the one I do right in the moment. In other words you may say, I'm distracted.

Maybe I'm lack of sleep. Yesterday we went to an occasion called "Knabenschiessen" and as we returned, we looked up to today's mornin' "Kill Bill Vol. 1" 8-)

The 'Knabenschiessen' is an occasion similar like to a country fair. But the reason is different. With our one, we fete the best young-shooter of the Kanton Zurich. But the whole 'trarra' around it's, is similar to a country fair.

Today I couldn't work the way I've been used to, since beginning this year. I'm used to work at my office. But today I had to bring my father's car to the service, aswell my own car, is in the service... So what did I do? I just work at my family's (fathers) home.

I've to do this for dad, because he's gone to the Philippines making holiday! Two weeks from now on he's there couching in the sun and takes each day to the fullest. ;-) Yeah dad! You deserved it, but don't forget us here! ;-)

And as you can imagine, it's quite different here... all is set up so dingy. Not that I would say, that I find myself in a messy place. But to work, it's really the wrong place. :-(
So in other words, I'm just doing some process-optimations... As soon one of the garages call me, I'm out of here... (Estimated at 500 p.m.)

Today's motto: We live to hard in the past, are to anxious to the futur and forget to live in the presence. Jack London