Let's talk about drugZ

Chepas!

The strange guy told me yesterday, that he would bring the PS3 today... Well... This time I intervene! I told him: "Stop talking, that you bring me this PS3. Just bring it! Strange on it is, that every time, the manner is the PS3, something comes between. I don't care if you lie, but as soon, I'm involved with my mind, by doing some anticipation or so, -it's over! Do you feel me?!"

And he said, that he does understand me. But I couldn't imagine, how many shit happened exactly the past two weeks in his life... -Well, he's right, -I don't know! But I don't really care about... :-)

So have I been fair? Did I react to harshly? I think, that in two weeks, you should be able to bring over an issue like this one. And no, I don't think, that I treated him harshly! Because the tone I used has been very polite.

As well in the last days, many people around me talk about any kind of drugz. I make a list of all them:

• Cocaine, in the office I got some guys talking about and probabely taking it.
• Weed, my friends and I do smoke from time to time.
• LSD, a guy I met in a store asked me, if I'm interessted to buy, but no THX!
• XTC, I have been asked at the last party in the A1 - disco.
• Ritalin, students here in Switzerland misuse it as doping for the brain at school.
• Anti-depressiva, people I know uses them for what reason ever.
• GHB, one of my friends loves it, -I just tried once, but I can't find the WOW-effect.
• Nikotin, I stopped smoking! Yesss!
  
• Amphetamin, one of my friends takes it for BB (bodybuilding).
• Ephedrine, same friend as Amphetamin.
• Magic - Mashrooms, well - two persons of my environment asked me, if I would join a round.
  

All in all, I hear mostly of those drugz in my environment. Isn't this tough?! So many things I'm confronted in my everydays life. So regarding this subject, I went to the homepage of the european commitee for drugz (www.drogenkult.net / www.emcdda.europa.eu / www.erowid.org). It's very interesting. Most of them just inform how you can use drugs in a secure way! Non of them tells you, that it's no good... :-))) Well, I don't want to animate anyone to take drugs, but what I find funny is, that they all just tell you what is going to happen with you, if you take it. But there's no counter-campaign! And this I find blithe!

So for this weekend, I'm looking forward to my PS3 (hahahahahahaaaa) and just to relax and work a little... but all in all I just love this free time, that I can use for me!

Today's motto: The truth is our precious property, let's be canny with it! Mark Twain

A day without success :-(

HellooooU!

Today my usual rhytm didn't settle down. Somehow, I'm just wasting one contact after the other. So what am I supposed to do? Change focus! I know that today isn't my acquisition day. I got about 40 contacts left, where alone today I wasted 20 of them! So what shall I do?

Lucky me, that this afternoon I got an other issue on desk! I have to visite a possible new partner of our house. She's a woman with different financing - projects. Today she wants to know, if we are it worth and if we are possible prospects for her customers.

Last Monday I forgot to mention a real strange happend story. So I want to repass on this one:

As you knew, I had to bring my father's car to the garage. And later on, as I went to fetch it up again, a strange indian guy came to me. He came from a square street on the opposite of the garage where I have been. So he saw me, came toward me with a biiiiig smile. :-D

And now the strange guy started like this: "Hello! I want to shake hands with you!" Well as you can imagine, I wasn't that open-minded to him, so my reaction: "Why?" And now it comes(!!!) "Because you're a very lucky and popular person. Many person like you!" And so how could I change different, than shake hands with him ;-)

He took a piece of shrinked paper and put it into my hands. He said, I shall hold it, while talking to him.

Than he started to tell me the following things and please give a special attention on this!
"The streak of your bad luck is over! Last year two people you love separated. And a love that you had, left you alone. And a man you have been taken as an ideal, died. But listen, it's all over now! Already next month, I see a change! From the 13. October 2007, your life will change forever. From this date on, you'll have a run of good luck! You'll get very old... approx. between 82 to 85 years old."

Well to this guy! My parents are in a divorcement. My fiancée left me last year. And my grandpa died some months ago! So as you can imagine, I was like paralized after his small intermezzo!

The guy told me: "Don't worry, you got a woman now, that really loves you very much!"

Than he topped it again! He said: "Think about a flower and tell me the name!" As I know myself, I always have to heavier this kind of tests. So I took an exotic flower! Not somehow a Rose or an Orchide. -Because everyone takes one of these. I took a Lotus! (As of nobody would say this one 8-) ) And than the guy said:"Open the piece of paper I gave to you before our discussion!" And as I opened it, it was written on it: Lotus!

After this, he left! That was the whole story. I thought by myself, it has to be a trick! I liked to hear it. What he told me all and what he knew about me. But after all, I'm not aloud to belief it. The Ten Commandments of my religion want it this way!

But it was strange! Nor?! :-)

Today's motto: Don't say, you want to give! Just give it! J.W.Goethe

past days

Oh my gosh...

Non-stop on the lane! And yesterday I really had have a successful day. I had an investors occasion. I met different CEO's and CFO's from all over the world. And to tell you, I'm sure that I can use once upon a time their contacts.

Just in the last months I got all in all about 50 new contacts in the C-level. If I go on like that, I know I play in the same level as they do.

Somehow, nothing else happens in the last days. Just got still the other humanoid, who should give me the PS3. But to be honest on this, I don't expect anything more from him. On Monday he and Simon had a talk regarding the social department. As soon you're jobless, you can fill out the form needed and on the following months, they gonna pay you 70% from your last salary. And so he was talking regarding this all and bla bla bla... unfortunately, if you're a family father, you get 80%! -So I asked myself once again: "If this guy would have family, wouldn't he know that by his own???" Simon meant, that he maybe didn't realize it and didn't calculate, if it's 70 or 80%, 'cause he anyway got's enough. -Well I doubt it!

So we got still four days to go maximal. And solong I'm on it, I don't do any prejudices. -What really is quite heavy with a guy that holds one for stupid.

Hmm... I had to pay for my cars repair 1300.-!!! isn't this a pain in the ass??? 8-(

...well at least I can drive again to the office... :-P

Today's motto: Nobody knows the death, further on this, no-one knows, if it's the biggest gift the human receives! Sokrates

review

Hello

Today I'm in a really strange mood. Somehow I'm just set standby. All what I'm doing is asking myself in each moment, 'what is priority'?
What I wanted to do, isn't the one I do right in the moment. In other words you may say, I'm distracted.

Maybe I'm lack of sleep. Yesterday we went to an occasion called "Knabenschiessen" and as we returned, we looked up to today's mornin' "Kill Bill Vol. 1" 8-)

The 'Knabenschiessen' is an occasion similar like to a country fair. But the reason is different. With our one, we fete the best young-shooter of the Kanton Zurich. But the whole 'trarra' around it's, is similar to a country fair.

Today I couldn't work the way I've been used to, since beginning this year. I'm used to work at my office. But today I had to bring my father's car to the service, aswell my own car, is in the service... So what did I do? I just work at my family's (fathers) home.

I've to do this for dad, because he's gone to the Philippines making holiday! Two weeks from now on he's there couching in the sun and takes each day to the fullest. ;-) Yeah dad! You deserved it, but don't forget us here! ;-)

And as you can imagine, it's quite different here... all is set up so dingy. Not that I would say, that I find myself in a messy place. But to work, it's really the wrong place. :-(
So in other words, I'm just doing some process-optimations... As soon one of the garages call me, I'm out of here... (Estimated at 500 p.m.)

Today's motto: We live to hard in the past, are to anxious to the futur and forget to live in the presence. Jack London

Hanging on old patterns?

Hellomotto!

Yesterday evening Simon came along alone... Well the other guy, of all reason didn't come with the PS3 and Sven had to accompany his g'friend, because she was ill.

I just want to come back to the other guy again and terminatory! As you can see, this guy is starting to reflect my mind with his lies. So after all, he still has got the next week, before I get rid of him. I gave him the chance and I have been unprejudiced regarding his person. But finally a liar like him looses all.

- The contact with me.
- Our environment.
- Any kind of respect.

At last, I'm grateful to have made this experience. So in futur I'll find out easier and faster, if a person comm' into my environment really deserves it or not... :-D

An other term this mornin' that also triggered my emotional, was the success I had with some closures. Deal-closures... four in one row! That's a record! Four on one day is more than usual. It's higher than normal. And it's even more than good! It's simply over the top! So with other words, I'm getting more and more satisfied on my job. If this would be the new average, I'd earn an other CHF 30,000.- a month!!!

I don't expect myself to hold this level upright, but it's worth to try on each day... I can't loose anything by just trying. And the education I made alone because of those deals, will pitchfork me hopefully to a higher level at work.

I'm looking forward on the comm' weekend. I know, it will become terrific! I'm getting excited on any given situation and that hooks me up! Just change frustration into excitement! As simple it sounds, as simple as it is. Just ask again the right questions! ;-)

Today's motto: Demand a lot from yourself and expect less from others. That keeps you away from greater suffering! ;-) chinese saying

It's a successful day

HalliHallo

Terrific... I started earlier than normal and made more issues than usual... I had again an appointment with an other business-partner of our company and had several trials to gain new business. But finally, I went through all with excellence. ;-)

This evening some of my old friends come over. I'm looking forward to this rally. And also on going the fact of my other fellow who should bring me the PS3 today... So what would this tell me? As I wrote on the last post, this guy isn't that reliable..., but if he showes me, that he wants to stand at least clear to me, by finally keeping his own word up, than I'm fine...

I had also a talk with different peoples, asking me, why I don't cheese it! I want to tell you about my object. If there's any one out there, who didn't lie at least once in his life, ...! Probabely I don't have to finish this sentence... each one of us does lie!

An example: You feel shitty! One of your buddies asks you, how you are. What do you usually tell him... automaticly... : I'm fine or I'm good! Did you hurt him with lying to him? -No... Not really... does it mean, you want to bother him deliberately? -No!

So in this case... I also lied many times. Also in other terms, but in the end, I didn't mind to hurt anyone intentionally. Why should I judge someone else, who just lies, but doesn't reflect any further on my mind? If it would start, to reflect my mind, than I'm getting into rage and want to neglect it.

Everyone will be judged in the end! Each single one of us!!! So all what is out-side of this cycle, I don't have to intervene! It will be done anyway!

To come back on this guy, as long as he lies on me, just to feel him self better, I don't care actually. But as soon it would reflect my mind - it's over!

__________________

Yesterday I travelled around the EU to handle some problems in our house... -Well, I didn't know from the beginning, that I would be the one who has to handle it! My boss and the board-members gave me a challenge, that's far beyond any comfort-zone in my idyllic life... They want me, to create a concept, how we can rise our sale! -In one month!!! 8-)

And I also commited yesterday to my boss, that I want to make the Master of sience in project management (PM) in 2008. So let me get a small preview of this all:

1) Till next March I want to have finished all my depts (CHF 30,000.-). Latest Summer 2008!!!

2) I have to create a concept for our company, how we can rise our sale! Than I'll have to proof them, that it works out within one year! If I proof it, they'll give me more responsibility and more staff in my underline!

3) I want to go on with the last etape of my studies in making the master in sience of PM and will finish it in the year 2011! (with 31 years)

These all are major goals... either I'll break on them, or succeed! And to be honest, I take the success! ;-)

Today's motto: In the common world of fact the wicked were not punished, nor the good rewarded. Success was given to the strong, failure thrust upon the weak. That was all. Oscar Wild, The Picture of Dorian Gray - chapter 18!

How dare from you...

Salli

Yesterday I had a very strange and effort-taking day. Monday mornin' and I have been called at about 8.00 a.m. (or even before) to go to Biel (BE - An other canton in Switzerland) to a customer! As you can imagine, that's a pain in the ass! ;-)

As I was there, I just made a presentation of our house. That was all! Finish after! No other work no other customer. So I used the time from about 3-4.00 p.m. for myself!

I got a fellow in my environment, who's really a strange guy! Actually, he's a nice person. But on the other side, he's a liar! As long, as his lies are reflective on a single destiny (his own), I don't care. Because in the end, he has to stand this alone. But last weekend, it started also to reflect on my mind!

I just want to give some examples on this:

He says, he's got a wife and children.
-But actually, he's always out on the lane! Doesn't matter, if it's on weekends or during the week. This guy is always out on the lane! So here the first strange question comes up: If you would be a father! Wouldn't you like to spend as much time as possible with your own kidz? Or would you always hang around with your friends?

He says, he has been working for a company called "Maag Holding AG".
-But, I made my research (as a research manager it's quite easy for me) and this company, doesn't exist any more, since 2003! And the guy, he's working for, doesn't apear in any entry of the commercial register (But he should, because it's the law, that anyone with a company, has to be registered there).

He says, he's working as a real estate broker and is department chief of about 20 persons (in a company that doesn't exist since 2003) :-)
-But, he already has problems to write numbers in letters! Example 'tow' in place of 'two' or 'paars' in place of 'pairs'. (He had to write it down for our pokernight two or three weeks ago).

All these, didn't disturb me. Because I thougt by myself, that he needs to lie in this way, that he can feel himself accepted in our environment (what isn't true!). But the last weekend, he made it really cheap! He told me, he would bring me the PS3, as he's got a fortune contact, who could give me this cheaper, than in the store. Well yeah, I thought, why not. But than - as he came, he told me, that his wife would bring it later to my place... all of a sudden, he had have a dispute with his wife in the mornin', so that she didn't like to bring the PS3... Than he still owe me money... in the meantime about just 50 bucks... isn't that much, but it is starting to get more.

See, I tried to keep it up to him. I thought, nevermind, if he lies. Every person has a reason why... and in the beginning, it always reflected on a single destiny... his own! But on the last example I gave, it infected already my own destiny. Why? I was looking forward to recieve the PS3... Unfortunately, it didn't work out. Nevermind, actually! But why to fuck, did he tell me, that his wife (probabely just imaginary visualized) had a dispute with him in the mornin', but would be that good in mood, to bring this case to my home... and why didn't he say it before? If it's true, why didn't he say something like: Listen, I didn't go home for your PS3, because I had a dispute with my wife and now I'm trying just to get some distance... is it okay, if I bring you the PS3 tomorrow?

I don't care regarding this stupid PS3. If I'm really in need of it, I can go and take it by myself! But what I need, is an environment, that I can trust! I trust them even, if I exactly know, that they lie! Because as long as their lies don't reflect to/on me, they have to carry it by their own. But with such kind of lies, that I am pleased on something, that isn't possible from the beginning... that's kind of too much for me!

So yesterday, I thought about him and the relationship with him. I'll give him a chance... and I will give him only one! If I won't see this PS3 for the next two weeks, I split up with him! But if he can bring me really one (these would be at least a proof, that he wants to stay clear with me), than he's got an other chance, but just with one hash! Never again he will lie to me! I'm like a living polygraph, my friends know that! And if he'll start again to lie, I'm fuck' getting rid of him! >:-O

Today's motto: Them that asks no questions isn’t told a lie!