Man in the mirror

Hellomotto

This week started with a kind of interview during the whole day of Monday! Finally they need more than two weeks to give me an answer. Well as usual, hope the best, but expect the worst! ;)

Yesterday I met an old colleague of my school-times. She studied psychology and yesterday at the exact same time as I she was in the employment center! The serendipity by our past, we always met when we were without job. Four times this happened until now and this time we decided to take a cup of tea together. She is one of the most notable persons I ever met. She had a very hard past (violations, drugz, ructions, jail, etc… - just the whole program), but still is in very good mood and shape! She could allocate a worth on her past that she finally could come to terms with it! Wow! I guess 99,999999999~% of all victims never could process this kind of past in such a good way and finally make an education to help others with similar problems as she used to have… So as it had to come, she also made a profile of me. You may compare it with a bull’s eye in a bull’s eye! She brought me to the point, where I had to think over my own situation, even my life as it is right now! One question I’ve never asked myself she asked me: “I see your capability is very high, you’re very intelligent, eloquent and you can see through things as they really are – with all your attributes you can help others, but can you help yourself? Do you love yourself?” It has been an experience like after all; a person just looked through me and saw the small Harry crying in the corner. So she helped me to find a little more to myself again.

This mornin’ I woke up with a kind of song in the ears. Do you know this? You wake up in the morning and a song is chasing you, but you not even know exactly the lyrics, just a kind of buzzing. And here I had the sequence, which I had in the ears today morning:

“I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his way”

So I googled the text and found the song of Michael Jackson: ‘Man in the mirror’! I went to youtube.com to listen the whole song and all of a sudden I just had tears in my eyes. Somehow I really felt, as this song would shout out my situation. But it also motivated me! It has been like a sign from above, which meant to tell me to start to change with myself. Here the link for the whole video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zpTQCQEFhg

I remember the time where I was feeling unstoppable! And do you know the strange thing on this? I felt myself unconquerable in the time where I made my seven-day test! Seven days without one negative thought! It doesn’t mean you don’t even come up with a bad feeling, but as soon you feel it, you don’t hold this state! You formulate your whole language positive! You don’t grumble! And the challenge on this is to hold it up for seven days! See: http://hthturnsintolife.blogspot.com/2007/06/mental-diet.html

I’ll start today, right now! I’m gonna take me again to the mental diet! It’s again time to come up! Step up! I’m thankful for this insight! Also in my situation right now, I can be thankful on what I’ve got right now! I’ll focus again on solutions, not on problems! I’ll take any give challenge! I won’t stop till I’m again on the top!

DEAR VOLKS! HARRY IS BACK AGAIN!!!

Today’s motto: Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe. Saint Augustine