Long weekend past by :-)

Oh wowyyyy...

Last Friday my grandpa has been brought 6 feet under. At his funeral (ceremony), resp. at his burtal (the action to bring him down to earth), all relatives had their chance to take the last farewell with him.

As I stood on front of his grave, the only thing I really could give in action was: To take the bible and read once again the psalm 23 to him. In chain to the letter I wrote him in his lifetime... This was bitter! And on the funeral I supposed to read the letter I wrote him -as I also did! Many people came to me and where grateful regarding my speach... strange! Seems like the words I used for this letter had force on many person in there.

In the evening I met my friends for a poker. And as this day wasn't that eventful enough I won the final pot at 2.30h a.m.

Saturday was very easy - mooded. We went 4 our weekly shopping (food, drinks, etc. 4 a whole week). After shopping we went on the roof of my house for a sunbath... Just hang & loose! Same evening just watched a movie with fabienne and finito!

Sunday we didn't go to church (estimable that Simon went). ;-)
Later on we played games on my PS2 at home. All afternoon long :-)))

In the meantime Fabienne had a hassle with her parents, regarding my religion - my church. To be clear: I'm at this church in case of my faith. Not in reason of the church's perspective! Her parents think, that ICF (international christian fellowship) would be a sect! But in my eyes there are atypical signs, that ICF can't be a sect. Let us abstract this:

A sect:

1. Got one world view that explains everything.
2. You'll get for all your questions an answer.
3. Critic from outside will be turned into a proof that the archon has got the one and only genuine truth!
4. All members seem to be always in excellent mood.
5. Tight organisation.
6. The apocalypse is coming soon!
7. Give up your old life (Friends, Family, etc...)
8. Make tests, seminars, etc. to get in a higher position.
9. No time for yourself!
10. At anytime an other member around you.

ICF:

1. Got manifold views, where you have to find the individual approach to God.
2. You have to find your own answers, but you may find help finding the right questions.
3. The pastor has got a large know how, but doesn't know all. (The Lord moves in mysterious ways)
4. "well", similar here. ;-) // But it isn't always this way.
5. Hmm... they got a good organisation, but not tight at all.
6. Will come once. Just not in a mega 'bang'.
   
7. No... 8-)
8. The only test you'll have to make is to have guts, give your life to Jesu! (in a personal, agile and realistic way)
9. As much time you want.
10. If you want, you can join a faction up to 4-8x a week! On a voluntary base!

yeah... that are at least 10 points.

Her father will probably call me over lunch time. Seems her parents are really upset, but I hope, I can take them the fear on this case. It isn't dramatic at all... It's just important to human, to have an ideology, a bigger force around them. Something that's higher quoted than their own mind. A place where they can find ethical maxim for their lifes. That's normal! Not crazy! AMEN!

I'm anxious on this call...

PS: I have reached the other guy, his mummy talked with me about his thoughts in suizid. He doesn't want to kill himself. Just needed some constructive words. ;-)

Step Up

UUUUhaaaa!

Today I'm really in high spirits! Got many things to do today. More self convidence, I got from the three deals I made this morning! In other tongue: I reached my suggested target alone this morning! As you my catch, this is the best motivation I can get in the moment! ;-))) (Money)

Further to do's:

- Lunch with Fabienne (Is not a To Do, but it's a nono if I would forget) :-)
- AIDS/HIV - Test
- Cut my hair
- Write those customers a confirm
- Make further deals!

Yesterday evening I had a very good chat with Fabienne. As all stuff broke in at once, she helped me finding the right questions. You don't belive how important it is, to find the right questions!! Any situation you are, can be handled in an other way. -If you know the right questions. This morning I stood up and asked myself: What to FUCK do you really want? Because if you really want this job, this penthouse, this car, anything!, so why don't you move your ass out and get the day started? -I mean, if you really want all these things... :-P

This alone helped me to get in good conditions.

Also yesterday, I heared from a worried mother a S.O.S! She's gonna die and her son can't take it all and wants to make suizid! She asked me, if I could help! -So I tried to reach him, without success, yet. I'll try to call him lateron this day.

I'm so thankfull I can stand up any and any time again ;-)

Today's motto: CANI - Constant And Never-ending Improvement (A.R.)

Motivation-deep @ work!

Since my grandpa died, I'm like in trance. Every morning I stand up and go to work. But as I enter the office, it's like vacuousness. I'm petrified with horror to get my ass up.

Today it's Wednesday and my usual 1-deal-a-day didn't adjust yet. The funeral is on Friday. I still have to prepair my party of the funeral eulogy! You know, the letter I wrote him, as he was alive... - The pastor didn't contact me yet and we have to discuss at which place of term I could intervene.

How come, in this particular bleak mood, I still can help other peoples with their problems, but can't hang on, on my own business? Isn't this weird?! I deflect myself in any other matter than mine! But this doesn't bring me any further.

Stand of my provisions for May are around 5,5 kilo (+ Stock of 4,5). My goal is to come up with at least 6,5. So my gap is over 1000! To produce in less than three days.
(I don't bring up, that it would be possible to earn 18,0 -without stock of another 13,5- in three month - as this is the intervall of my provision-payements.)

So what do you think? How shall I get out of all these? A la Nike? -Just do it?! What for a hopeless sentence if you're hit rock bottom!?? But it's a law of nature to be agressive enough to get anything moved to survive! Just do it! Just do it?

I wanna turn wild and do some real crap! No lies, no excuses! It has to be done! Or the price I got to pay is essentially to high!

Motivation, where are you? Disorder, get the f**** away! >:-o

Bad Weekend :-(

Hi guys!

My last weekend wasn't that swell at all. Actually it didn't start that bad. On Friday our clan played Poker 'hold 'em'. I came into the final and we have played good hands. But I'm sorry to say, Sven had effectively the better cards, -prick! ;-)

And here we go now. The Saturday has been absolutely the worst day this weekend. I bought a new closet 4 my bedroom, resp. I'll but it into the my office (so I got more space in the bedroom). The dosh I got from my grandparents to buy any furniture 4 my new flat.

In a way a inner voice told me to buy this closet ASAP. The reason showed up later this day. After shopping we were invited to a BBQ at some friend's. And we have had really a good time. Future we left early because we still wanted to join a party, -but!

Prior going, my dad called. We just stood on front of their door, as my father told me: "Son, your grand father died today at 6.50 p.m. It was time for him to go!" I was just like shoked! What? The only man in my family I really could look up, died? We actually all knew, that time came nearer to him, but I didn't expect it would come out of the blue! So at this moment I wasn't in mood to go to any party.

We drove home and I didn't babble that much. At home neither! Just looking at the seeling and studying.

I diceded to go to church on Sunday and after homily go directly to Bern (Captial of Switzerland) where my grandma' lives. I just had to know, in which shape she is. -She was bargain to the situation happened. We had a very long talk, about what was and if God took him... Sure he did! In fact I don't know any other respectable person than him. Upstanding, faithfully, honorably, hard worker all live long and elementary in any situation. He made, what he has been told to. All life long! Now, his gone!
She gave me his watch as heirloom. And told me, that I have been to only one writting him a farewell letter, before he left us.

And here already some bigger shit fallows. My father is in divorcemenet with mummy and doesn't want, that she comes to the funeral! Officially he told me, that this would be the best, in fact my mum and my oncle can't bear each other. -What in my eyes is absolutelly bollocks. My grandparents sons don't want to make an obituary, because they don't want any high expences!
And I have bad feelings because I got his watch as heirloom, because my father and my oncle have bought him this watch, almost 50 years ago.

And today... I'm at work again. Maybe just got one day of, for the funeral. Still have to show success on every day. Quite a pain in the ass! >:-o

One of my first mottos in this blog was never give up! Stand up one more time, than you fall! Well I'll look that specially today I take this for granted!

PS: In Love and deep honor to my grandpa

The LORD Is My Shepherd

Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

Soon weekend... My plans

Do you know such days, where you had much to less sleep and exactly on these days so many dicks are around you??? Today is one of those, for me. 8-(

Anyhow! I don't want to be infected with this mood. Let us think positiv and look forward on the weekend. ;-)

Here some vertices for Friday to Sunday:

Today:
- @ 5 p.m. I have to join a meeting to network some new and good addresses 4 our company.
- Around 7 p.m. go home and take the letter for my EX - fiancée (Naemi).
- 8 p.m. meeting her - the public department thinks she lives @ my home and I wanna handle that shit before it will get more.
- @ around 10 p.m. I'll go home and probably Fabienne will be allready there. :-))
(-) today would be a perfect day to draw a spliff! getting calm and nothing what could take me out of this.

Saturday:
- Shopping furnitures & food 4 weekend!
- hopefully do any sport
- and in the evening clubbing. We'll start with the bolero club in Winterthur (thats a city in Switzerland - where the hudge insurance came from)

Sunday:
- Church
- Brunch
- Hang and Loose!!! Please, please, please...

All week-long I didn't get more sleep a night than 5 hours! Other than Wednesday - where I have been drunk... ;-)

Starting this day I thought I would be in good shape all day long. But somehow since noon I feel so tired, tiiireeeed, knocked down! So abjected, that I could fall in sleep right now! But I still got a fucking long sustained day prior me!

I wish you guys a nice weekend! Weekend's motto: Do what you want to do. But do it the right way ;-)

Good morning weekend!

Hi Volks

Somehow I feel ready for weekend! ;-) How about you? -Yes!? :-)))

Yesterday, oddly things happened to me. First, just before I wanted to drop out of office, a colleague from neighbors company came into my bureau 4 a little 'smalltalk'. We discussed about the Toastmasters(.com), as he's a member there. It's a kind of club, that's ambition is to rise your skills in rhetoric and speech. He asked in a indirect way, if it wouldn't be something for me. -Well, yeah! :o) But before I gonna visite this club, I need to concentrate on my job, my environment and my life...

Before I reached home, I picked up Simon. We are in a sort of self-help group. That means he and I are talking about things we undergo through our day and what we are going to change. Let me give an example:

- Someone run across my way and asked me, if I would be interessted to accompany a club for eloquent people. Well I may be interessted once upon a day, but not in the moment. So I ask Simon, what's his opinion on this matter. Maybe his opinion changes my own point of view and could probel me to get focused on this quickly. Our conversations are comparably like a coaching... (I recommend you to try this once by yourself)

As we finished, he was quite knocked down. So he left puzzled my flat on his way home. 8-) On front of his door he tried probably to rarefy his key -he forgot by my home. :-))))))))
(Distance in minutes with public transport: 15 Min. - But not around midnight!)

Well, lucky guy at last he could call me to ask if he could overnight by me. (His cell didn't have any power more, but an other guy lend him) Simon, Simon, ... ;-)


Sometimes you (He) remember me like this one: (Mission impossible 4)


I'll come later on this day to tell you about my plans this weekend!


Today's motto: Be cool, stay hot ;-)

Feel like shit 8-)

Yesterday my mum came for dinner with her new friend. So I wanted to pitch something really good to them. I decided to do:

- Wellcome drink (Rum-Cocktail) as appetizer
- Salade 4 the starter
- Fish on a withe wine sauce as main course
- Lemon-Cake with vanille-cream as dessert
- Throughout the whole meal I decided to serve White Wine from Fetzer's House
(2 Bottles, 4 Persons) ;-)

As you can see, all the time we enjoyed a lot of alcohol. We drunk all the wine (me alone, nearly one bottle). As they left I felt soooooooooo tired and wanted to sleep. BUT: As Fabienne told me this morning I didn't sleep immediately. NO! I had a total blackout and told her stories of my old relations with EX- girlfriends. You may derive, she wasn't that happy at all. Biggest crap on this: She had to tell me that, this morning!

It's 10h a.m. and I still feel like shit! A little 'blotto' @ work and I don't feel like I would be in good shape to be prolific at last...

...My goal for today? -I haven't got a f**** idea! One 4 sure. Comming down and do my work!

My today's motto: Never use a second chance to make a good first impression

Weekend as predicted ;)))

Chepas!
I just found time before lunch to recount my weekend to you. All I predicted did happen. Exceptional Sunday. We didn't go to church. We stayed at home, had a nice brunch. In the noon I drove Fabienne to the rail station and left again for a small workout.

Something else to mention, was a 'light' dispute with my girlfriend Fabienne on Saturday. We were quarelling about the dresscode. Can you imagine the fallowing, when you usually look for a more discreet and fancy style: leggings, over leggins hot-pants, boots and corset? I don't mind if we would have gone to an extraordinary techno-party. but a multiple event and the mainfloor is hiphop? Anyhow, I didn't mind to hurt her in any matter. So she slip on her corset and fancy black trousers. And I have been happy again. ;-)

Yesterday (Monday, 04/16/07), we had a public holyday in Zurich. So I decided to take my afternoon of, because I had to make my laundry. Later I had some friends commin' in. As usual we were discussing about making our lifes bether and more comfortable.

Latterly we always talk, but in fact we never reach something beyond this. This kind of talking isn't effective, nor would help us. In such moments I like to break through my person into someone else.

Do you know this? Do you also hear from your environment: You're a dreamer! Do you also ask yourself, -what if they are right? -Well to be honest, I do! In fact I don't have anything to hold against! No fact, that I'm not just something else than a dreamer. No evidence, to proof to them, that they would be wrong.

And this sucks! I would like to show them/myself, that it isn't just talking. It's all about doing! Just do it! As Nike said...

Getting up my ass on every single day, costs a lot of effort. But today I could handle it again. Once again I won the fight over my inner temptation. And it was really simple. JUST DO IT! Has turned into my today's credo!

Imagine, if it's that easy, why shouldn't anyone: just do it?! (Guess it's all about the inner stance to your own case/situation)

Weekend pixxx! Party w. 6000 visitors!!! ;)

I'll tell you more about my weekend later this day. But to have a small impression, please find enclosed pixxx! ;-)

Friday, 13. - perfect 4 Weekend!!!

Hi Volks,

What shall I do this weekend? I guess the following things are going to approach me in anyway:

Friday the 13th:
- Take-off this afternoon probabely around 3p.m. (Hope it will work out)
- Drive to my best friend's (Simon) place and 'hang & loose' ;))
- Go home and tidy up my flat
- My babe (G'friend), Fabienne, comes to me
- An other friend, Florian, comes to visit me and watch a/some movie/s 8-))
- Kick the prick out... :-D (In truth I really like him)
- Later @ night just relax and have a good time with my babe

Saturday the 14th:
- Brunch
- Shopping
- Fitness with Fabienne
- Dinner
- Starting to get ready...
- ...Partyyyyy! @the biggest student's-party in Europe! (Polyparty.com)
- More than 5000 visitors, 8 floors, 2 cinema, bars + rests, ...
- coming home after being shitfaced and alco-crashed :-D

Sunday the 15th:
- Hope to get up to go to church
- Brunch with Simon, Fabienne, Sven, Reni, Florian, and their pumpkins...
- Sidewalking by the lake of Zurich (De Zürisee)
- Going with my girl to visit the parents (either hers or mine)
- Bring Fabienne to the train-station.
- Simon likely comes for 'next-week-preparations'

Looks like a common weekend for me... But as experience shows, there's always caps coming an other way... -Think, those caps will be discussed again on Monday. Here in my blog.

I wish you as well a nice, successfull, interesting, versatile weekend!

And don't forget: If shit happens, looks like, smells like, -it is!! But it never means you self have to be in shitty mood! ;)

Friday, 13. April 2007 // Intro of HTH

Hi dear guest!

My name is Harry T. Holzer. I live in the economic best awarded city of the world (since 2005) - Zurich! Got a penthouse at the businessarea of Zurich - Oerlikon. I finished my studies in 2005 as a bachelor of economics in the branch of study: communication (-politics).

In the moment I work for a finance company in the division 'Research and Public Relations'. Got a stock-salary coupled with provisions and share of turnover. -But unfortunately beginning this year I didn't get my ass up to come into the second and third category of earning. Why? -Let's find out on every day of my blog! ;)


Further to my person: Last year I broke up with a 7 years holding partnership to my fiancée. Less than six months later I got a new girlfriend. Anyhow, it's not yet that far to talk about...

My goals in futue are;
...to break through the status of financial freedom @ the economic part.
...in social life to build a family.
...help my near social field also getting up their asses! ;)
...stay good in shape with body and mind.
...to enforce my beliefs in god.
...show my guests, that dreams really can turn into reality!

I decided to make a blog, because so many persons told me: "Harry, you got such an exciting life. You're a fighter, who inspires us. Why don't you share this also to a selected public group online?" -So here guys! :D I let it flow...

Concluding, let my tell you this: It's not, that I'm always motivated with my situation. But an elementary case in my life is: Stand up one more time, than you fall!