Finally back again from my sortie! One full month just being surrounded of green helmets isn’t a bed of roses. Those guys who also serve their countries in a military institution know that most popular topics are:
1) Sex – women – parties - cars
2) Affrays – boot/recruitment camp – past sorties!
Imagine one full month just hearing those topics. I think finally you’re fit for the funny house… ;-)
It has been my last full sortie. Next year I still have got 5 to 10 days. In comparison with the last month it’s just a picnic. My training has been specialist for anti-terrorist squad. With this education you must at least serve 3 times in a sortie. Like for example the World Economic Forum (WEF) in Davos or embassy custodies. In the last eight years, never ever something huge happened. Most of the time you’re just getting drilled in the beginning to refresh your know-how and as soon the sortie starts, your state is alert, but nothing happens. You just stand around and stare into space. At least my last sortie wasn’t that boring. I’ve changed my unit. From the root-company to the battalion commander company. There I could involve my skills in strategic planning and tactical training. 
I’ve been directly subordinated to the squad leader. As it seams I’ve made a good job.
(As you can see on the pic we could also take the whole sortie with humor) ;-)))
Now to get back to my actual private life:
My financial situation didn’t get any better. But how should it? I’ve been one month away. But at least the outlook shows up some light at the end of the tunnel. :-)
Next week I’ve got my one-on-one with my boss regarding my salary and job position for 2008. My goal is to break away the provision part and get the double per fixed sum. Further I want still to be authorized for the yearly bonus. Probably my boss hasn’t got the authority to fix my wish, but than I got free range to go to the CEO and recommend my will/plans.
On the other side, my private projects are turning into the next level. If they will fulfill end March, than my economic stadium will be anyway no longer the same. Two contracts are in nearer approach to be set down. Finally we’re shaping these two terms since half a year.
Funny thing what I realize with my being is my coolness in the situation I’m in now. I think so many other people would break and quit. Me not, I just came to far now to stop. I just got one way open, going forward. But to tell you, that’s no peace of cake! I’m tapping near to loose everything what I build till to present day and on the other side I’m near to win all I’ve ever wished. My nerves are quite under permanent load and this shows my habits like smoking reefer or the constant wish to drown my sorrows. The only way I can discipline myself is through Jesus. I can’t say that I can keep it up all the time. But the fluctuation isn’t that high anymore as it used to be. Especially my time in the military helped me to get back into a normal rhythm. In the meantime it’s like if I would just pack all my pressures and carry them to the cross. There I dump all these stuff and say, it’s yours! Take it! I got other things I’ve to focus on! And therefore it’s like a partnership between him and me. I focus on the belongings around my environment and he takes away all those packages so I can sleep and work the way I should.
I know it’s kind of complicated to understand. I also can’t explain it in other words. It’s something I feel deep in my soul and just give trust to it. The construction of the Christian religion is like a backup to my knowledge in learning strategies, NLP, education and all other skills I’ve build up to be armed in this world. It’s like if all those skills fail, I can reboot my computer with the construct of Jesus. More details you may find in the new testament of the bible… :-)
Now my state is bumpy. I should start with many things but I just can’t get it on. I’m still like paralyzed. Maybe I should clean up something I still don’t bear in mind. But somehow I’m also not in mood or just not really motivated. Worst thing what could turn in to me right now is getting resigned while I should power up. Similar things happen also to athletics/managers/orator/students/… before an important event starts. I just better get something started, before I shut down at the wrong time! ;-)
Now coming to the end of today’s post I still want to give myself some credos which maybe you want to share with me. Credos for 2008!
I formulate even bad and negative things positively. (In fact the other doesn’t really help you)
I’ll handle my spending the smart way.
I’ll believe, not doubt!
I’ll proof my discipline (of my moral codex)!
I’ll lead, not follow!
I’ve got a healthy attitude.
Life is a play!!!
So, that’s it. Hope you’ll visit my page again more now when I’m writing again regularly ;-)
Today’s motto: "Life is like a Ferrari, it goes too fast. But that's ok, because you can't afford it anyway." Mel Brooks
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