Pie in the sky!

Cheers me!

Have you ever been in the situation, where you knew that changes are standing on in your life, but because you move on a thin line between falling and winning you didn’t figure out in which way the changes will come?

Sometimes I get in the position where I think I risk too much. But on the other hand, I can’t face the situation and accept it how it is! It’s like: “Is this all I get?” But before I get into a melancholic state I need also to list up the facts. I’m now 28 years old and from August 08 I may start for a financing company as a sales & marketing manager/director. My earnings are beyond any ‘normal’ other persons in my age (6-digits a year). And still I’ve got the feeling that life doesn’t give me the piece I’m worth. As some of my readers know, I’ve also got debts. Debts aloft 5-digits! Even if I earn 6-digits, it will take too much time away before I can start to build up something substantial.

In the meantime I invested plenty of time to get also another deal set up in the commodity area. Some of the guys I work with are dreamers. Does it make me also an unprofessional dreamer? Probably a bit! Hard fact, but it’s a fact that I can’t move way. In other respects I got quit tough professionals, which want to move on with any possible way. But here I’ve got an axiom: “Don’t swim with the sharks if you’re a small fish!”

Also nothing else than realistic is not to introduce the dreamers with the pro’s. It might end in a way I’d loose both of them, because the dreamers might blow up the relation I’ve build up in the last years with the pro’s. I feel sorry to face also this fact, but it is. So here I am and finally came to the decision not to waste any time more in this direction, aside from what I’ve done already.

From next week on, I’ll focus on my new position as a sales & marketing manager/director. I’ve got already plenty of evaluated projects, which I can use for a fast and substantial start within the new company.

Finally coming still to another picture: Last week I made again something for my soul, spirituality and mental health. I went once again to a Christian’s Children-Camp as a camp leader. Unfortunately I just could stay for the half time, but at least I could take distance from my situation. I had very good conversations with people who care. I had a very nice nature ambience (see pic, the glacier is backing out). And I could just sooth my soul in this whole environment. It’s always very important to me to earth myself from time to time. Knowing from where I come and where I want to go. This camp, even if it has been a short time, helped me to find again the way I want to set in for my future. The time there also showed me another fact: “It’s my life and my responsibility who I’ll be in future.” For me it’s something I never lost. It’s an attribute I’ve always been used to, but maybe lost a little from my view. The attribute I’m taking is FIGHT! –For my future and my life it’s always worth to fight. But in the last weeks I’ve just been searching for excuses and I’ve been hiding from the painful reality that right now I need to stand up once again and to move on! –To fight!

Operation “Mindfuck” is still going on! I didn’t forget about it, but honestly it is way more than I first thought. So I’ll return on it ASAP.

Today’s motto: The winner in life is the one who stands up one more time than he falls! unknown

Water ski & facing the reality

Dear all,

My last weekend @ Fabienne’s place really helped me to get a little more distance from my momentary situation. I ate twice delicious dinner and learned to water ski. The longer it takes time till I can start with my new job, the longer it takes to get clear with my days. In the beginning of my cancellation period I looked forward on things and all in all I had a positive view on things around me. Right now I’m just living each day as it comes. I guess you may say: I’m living for the moment!

The challenge with this is to know that with 99% I can start a new job opportunity in August, but on the other side I need to survive till I can start. I further think that my silly projects I started along the way with two of my friends in fact aren’t profitable. –Also to face this fact doesn’t really motivate me to take a positive view on my situation. It’s always quite hard to admit the hard fact, that all your strengthen you’ve invested in the last months are of no earthly use!

But before I feel sorry for myself I want to come back on my last weekend. On Friday we went dining at Fabienne’s place. Her mother made a tomato risotto with a spice chicken. On Saturday we went to a (dogs-) farm to look for a pup for Fabienne’s godmother. As you can see on the 2^nd pic we also saw newborn pup. Really very cute! Than we actually started to discuss if we’re going home (to me) or we want to stay there. Than we found by coincidence the best compromise! Her brother called us and asked if we’re still at their home, because he’d like to go out on the lake with their boat and if we want we could go out later for dinner in a restaurant by the lake with him. Of course we approved! Than out on the lake her brother asked me if I want to water ski. And guess what a daredevil like me answered, even if I never went water-skiing … ‘YES’! It has been fun! Already after some tries I could stand on the water (-even if it has been shaky, but at least I could… ;-). But the falling on the water by my first tries took away many energy so after some times we stopped again and prepared ourselves for the dinner at the restaurant… After this eventful afternoon and evening we drove home to my place again, where we chilled all night long. So enclosed of this layer here: “Many thanks to Remo and Fabienne for this weekend. It was a doozie!”

Today I face again my small world. A world full of challenges, suffering and hoping on God’s help! I’m ensured that by August I can start my new job. On the other hand, I just can’t come along with the recovery office. My taxes two years ago smashed right back to my face! Someday I’ll have to accept that it is much more painful not to register his taxes, than to fill out these forms. But I’ve been stack up with so many other things, that I neglected my main-duties. So here I received my receipt! At least I could talk with the department for an agreed payment term. They even told me, that I made the right decision. Because if I wouldn’t have come, they would have came to my place and would have made an attachment on my movables! –I at least belong to the group of people that are answering for their failure! “D’oh!” At least once again I could survive the worst by take the responsibility!
But it’s nothing else than a pain in the ass!

I learned all the stuff for success and managing my money! I even studied economics and passed with a degree of a BBA (Bachelor of Business Administration) in the ranking (3.). But I’m still not getting out of mess. There’s a saying which all of us know: “It’s a difference of knowing something or doing what you know!” Somehow I belong to the group of people, which can’t put their knowledge into practice. –This is probably the one single thing I need to fulfil by the next days! I believe it’s the one and only goal for this week! This week I’ll take advantage of this deficit. I need to learn how to put my knowledge into practice!

How shall I start? Where do I start?
Shall I refresh the old knowledge or shall I start with a complete new strategy?
Which kind of resources shall I need for this operation?

That sounds good!
I’ll name it operation: “Mindfuck”
(Applied knowledge turns into HTH’s life!)

Today’s motto: Not because it’s challenging, we don’t risk, but because we not risk, it’s challenging! Seneca

To be spoilt for choice

Hey Guys!

Do you know the situation, when you know you have to do something but you just don’t…?!

I’ve found once again the comparative: I know I should do something, I even know what I should do, but I don’t!! Why? Because I lie to myself!

What do I mean?

- As you know I’m jobless right now. But I don’t do any applications, because in the last weeks I received plenty of offers – even if the market-situation isn’t on a high peak. But I drag myself with the decision. On the one side I’ve committed to a job in August as a director for sales & marketing. On the other side I should secure myself by also searching for an alternative. (-Just in case - to have a plan B)

But as usual I’ve got an explanation: I’ve already got something like a plan B! I’m still on a project with commodities. If this project will succeed, I’ve got a monthly income that can provide me for a one-year-distance. And so silly I am I just risk the lean time! And here the lie is hidden! In fact I should focus how I can provide the project into success. At least I should set some milestones. Because the whole matter is also reliant to other peoples, I’m just content with the situation as whole! I guess by writing this post I’m also getting clear that I should set this milestones for me! I shouldn’t make it reliant to other peoples! Because I’ve got a quite pragmatic view I know what it needs to succeed – so it’s just a must have for me. If I make it reliant to others, it probably won’t fulfil the way I want. I’ve learned project management in my studies – it’s time to use it. At my studies, I had the highest mark in this subject of our school. It’s time to use the learned…

Now to build a positive pressure in me, I need again to keep up the following rule: I can… / I will… / I must…!!! (If I can, I’ve an option. If I will, I’m on the way to do so. If I must, I’m already in the thick of it)

And that I can control my improvement I need to set the plan into the contact to box sequence! (The main four steps in this sequence are: Contact, Possible, Probable, Box)

Super heavy will be the July 08! I haven’t got a clue how to come along in this month. I just trust in God! I know he won’t let me fall and there’s a reason for the situation and position I’m involved right now. From my spiritual view, I look at it like a test! A test if I’m worth a chance! And I believe I am!

Today’s motto: „Man muß das Unmögliche Versuchen, um das Mögliche zu erreichen.“ (You have to try the impossible to accomplish the possible!) Herman Hesse

Time of waiting – again!

Cheereo tutti!

In the last days, it seemed like my life would pass by in slow motion. Are you familiar with such situations? ;-)

You know, that you should make some important decisions, but you always postpone them. Not because you’re to lazy or as such, but you still hope the big deal will set in and for this reason, you postpone all other. Right know it’s exactly like what I find again in my small world.

But at least I made it the S.M.A.R.T. way… (More details some posts before)

I’ve been very specific (S.) and know exactly my deadline on the issue with the ‘big-deal’. –Till end of this month – I know from when on I can start with plan B and which partners will be involved.

I’ve also been very keen in setting goals with milestones! (M. = Measurable + A. = Attainable)

Insofar I’ve set any of these goals in a realistic (R.) way. On the one hand I’ve got this ‘big-deal’ to work as a Head of International Projects for/with a start-up company that just started. But if this won’t work out, I can start (plan B) on the other hand as a Sales Director for a company, which is already very unshaken with their position in the market and already exists since more than twenty years! –I guess this includes also ‘tangible’ (T.) ;-)

So here again, in the moment nothing else is left over than waiting… waiting and hoping – but not naive hoping! =)

Harry, be patient!

Today’s motto: Consuetudo quasi altera natura! (Habits are the humans second nature) Cicero

Decisions! –No piece of cheese!

Dear all,

After my accident I’d a lot of time to make some reflection. As you know, I’ve always been a man who takes the positive perspective. My life-decision on this manner will always be the same! Thinking positive is much more than just looking forward on things. Positive thinking will also help you more in any situation of life!

The last accident could have been almost my last accident ever. Maybe just loosing a bit more blood and HTH wouldn’t ever have turned back into life! So after this experience, many things again have changed!

- Four reasonable companies offered me jobs in a direct or indirect way.

- I got another project going on, if it will fulfill, which will be a manner of the next two weeks, I’ll have so much ‘wealth’, that I can start helping my family and tribe!

- I swear never again to drink alcohol in a quantity where I’ll provoke a situation, where people around me will be an evidence of such a past accident (<- which didn’t have anything to do with alcohol, it’s just a ‘like’/if)!

- I’ll never again hesitate, that there’s a higher force!

- As I’m a believer (latest now), I can’t ever again get in a situation, where I’ll be afraid of something. (If time comes, there’s a reason – and if not, there’s a reason as well!)

- Being worldly-wise is a must have!

- Being smart (S.M.A.R.T. – look two posts before) is also a must have!

- Knowing your outcome is a must!!

- Thinking positive is the only key – for never let you feel low again!

- There’s a reason for my being!

Just an outline of what I DECIDED in the meantime.

As you know me, I can’t let it, - to give you again another tool for your life cycle belongs, regarding goal-settings! Ready?! ;-)

1) I (believe I) can…

2) I will…

3) I must…

4) I do…

So simple it sounds, so difficult you’ll find out it is, if you really try it this way! Let’s give an example:

You tell yourself: “I always wanted to learn a second language!”

Here you say: “I can learn another language…”

If you already say: “I will learn another language!” it means you’ve already applied at a school!

Now if you say: “I must learn it…!” It means you’re in pressure in doing so…

And finally by “do” –ing it, you already speak the second language!

Got the point? ;-))

Today’s motto: “The difference between delaying an issue, or doing it just right on, is you against the world…” Harry T. Holzer

To cut down

Hi Folks!

I’m sitting here in my office of my flat. Looking out of the window and enjoy the view. Just some days earlier I took all around me for granted. But something happened, I had an accident. I had again a provoked epileptic attack. Some years ago, where I used to consume drugs like sweeties I never thought, that once the day will come, where my body will resign! And I also didn’t use any party-drugs, I just stayed long time awake. Too long! Later in the hospital the doctors told me that I’m not an epileptic sick person. But regarding my family “gene” I’m also higher affected to get an attack, if it’s provoked. Such situations may be: staying longtime awake and/or drinking lot of alcohol.

So because I’m an incorrigible believer, I complained at God! My inner voice yelled something like: “Since the last experience I never again drunk that much, that I’d be rat-arsed. And now, because I just kept longer awake for a poker night with my friends, this happened to me! –This sucks! You Suck! The whole world sucks!” There’s nothing fair on it! Nothing to see positive! But before you guys think I’m turning to a blasphemous way of life, I have to tell you this; as I was on my knees complaining to God, I had all of a sudden a change of heart! Somehow a voice told me to “cut down”!

I can make anything I used to do. But I’m no more a teenager; I’m not even once beginning the twenties. I’m on the best way to thirty! As it seems, Fabienne & I want to have once a day a family. A family needs a dad. So I shall concentrate more on substantial things. In the moment I haven’t got yet a job. I got different outstanding answers, but nothing is for sure! I hope regarding a further step that Dominic won’t twit me! Since we had our project, plenty of things happened. For example he owns now an own company and offered me a job there. This would be my favorite – unfortunately I’m getting put off till end of May with a definitive answer. Another offer came from a guy in Germany. He worked long time as a director of my old employer and runs now an own company. I’ll meet him this Friday. The job he would offer me would be quite the same, like the one I’ve done at last.

I’m not filled with bitterness. But I think the last story really made me think about my situation and life. And finally, the only thing that stays is to look again forward! Getting my ass up and move!

Today’s motto: Experience is one thing you can't get for nothing.
Oscar Wilde

Am I S.M.A.R.T.?

Hi guys!

In the time gap I’ve got between applying to prospected entrepreneurs I do some research. Research in gaining more knowledge. Knowledge how to come a little more structured in life cycle belongs. So my recent discovery I want to share with you, is the tool of setting goals the S.M.A.R.T. –way!

And here the explanation:

S = Specific

M = Measurable

A = Attainable

R = Realistic

T = Tangible

Specific

To be specific you need to answer all ‘W’- questions. Like:

Who…

What…

Where…

When…

Which…

Why…

…???

(example of answer: “I will be a member of the gym “Holmes” and I will go at least three times a week for workout to get myself again into good shape!”)

Measurable

So that your goals will be measurable you need to break them down into small goals, or also called ‘Milestones’. Give those ‘Milestones’ a deadline. Now by reaching each milestone at the deadline you gave, insures you that you’re on track with your goals! If it’s measurable it’s also the next step…!

Attainable

Your goals are attainable if you develop the attitude, capability and the financial possibility to reach them. Master a plan with the milestones and get closer by reaching each one of them. The more milestones you fulfilled, the more you feel worthy to approach your final goal.

Realistic

The following seams maybe like a conflict, but it’s not! If you can imagine yourself how you work hard to fulfil it, you probably already set a realistic goal. No one else than you will decide if it’s possible or not. Compare it with your history! Is there any similar situation in the past, where you fulfilled something like that? Or which terms do you need to fulfil that you will reach your target? Those are the right questions and perspectives you need to see if it’s realistic or not.

Tangible

Any goal is tangible if you can take it with one of your senses; gusto, touch, odour, view or sense of hearing!

Finally one fact stays: A goal, which you can’t measure, isn’t a goal!

With my “seven-day-positive-thinking-test” I can congratulate me again for starting over on day one *grmpfhhhh-d’d’d’d’mmmmm*!!!

After two days without any negative thought (maybe I had different ones but I didn’t hold them up and immediate focused again on solutions), I had to realise my language isn’t ‘smart’ at all. I just watched soccer as my favoured team (not my favourite team!) received 30 second before end a goal from their enemy. Wowy… I never thought my mouth would open without thinking before… but in this situation I just had to yell out how st*p*d this team is. 30 second didn’t only decide their get on to the next round, it also decided my self-test.

So finally it’s today again set back on day one…

But I’m insured that won’t happen again within the next seven days – at least not like this! ;-)

Another decision I made is not longer to study how and get through a plan till to the last detail, I just got a direction and just trace it without any condition! Just do it! Just Nike!

Today’s motto: Affection is responsible for nine-tenths of whatever solid and durable happiness there is in our lives. C.S. Lewis