Girls

Chepas!

Yesterday evening I met my ex-fiancée and an other feminine friend. We talked alot about friendship and such. And once again I recognize, you can't deal with girls, nor without them. ;-)

My ex for example said different times, that she doesn't like the situation she's in right now. Because she got a friend, who is more feminine than she, with other words: he's a pussy - a wimp! ;-)

And to be honest, I asked her, why she doesn't brake-up this tie! She told me, that she told him already different times, that as soon she would find a man, she would fall in love, she would fire him out of flat. And she can't really hold on a new relationship with an other man right now at this time. But it doesn't matter whatever she told him till today. He won't go away, -he stayed and will stay! Why? Well this is the question I asked myself on my way home. I think, that it's not possible to him. He can't brake-up this relationship to her, because it's the only thing he's got! Yeah, think about! If anything this guy ever wanted is a relationship for a long term, and this actual situation in his life showes him, that this way is the only way a guy like him can get such a relationship, than he won't ever let this feeling pass through! Because it's all he knows! Can't compair with earlier cases. It's new and it's all what he's got.

So how can you go on this? If they can't find a new way of common on their relationship, it's fucked up. There's no way, how they can handle together in future! So one of them has to reject and find a new way of connection. But how? I haven't got a solution on this, but one thing I know for granted. If it's no worth, than you better determine as long it's sufferable!

Than we spoke about me and mentioned on the brink Fabienne. These two girls told me, that sometimes they got the feeling that I'd be wisenheimer, who has to tell you in each situation, how it could be better! And we (Fabienne and I) boast with our higher education. Well I can understand them. I got sometimes the feeling, that I'm tomuch focused on how I or we could make a case turn into something positive. And with this feedback I know, that I got to practice on my communication with people.

In fact, an other person thinks this way about me, it won't be helpful. No, it's hindering! I know from my own experience, that if I met such a person in past and this guy wanted to show me something useful. I didn't give the same effort on it, like by an other person, who I found nice! Does this make sense? Think so! And at least I know on what I can practice secundary each day. I don't want to be rejected by other, just because they think the wrong way about me! And what have I to change? It's not that huge or amazing, it's very simple. I just have to change my pitch of the voice and a little on my tongue. (Need other words - include some deadpan)

In the end of today's blog, I want to thank Naemi (and Franca) for their input ;-) And aswell I hope, you can handle your relationship better or finish it!

Today's motto: Better an end with terror than terror without an end

Many impressions from last weekend!

Salli Zäme!

So many things to talk about last weekend. I try once to shorten this in one row: We went to the movie, visited the church and saw a Mercedes SLR (Limited edition).

On Friday my friends came again along to watch some movie. And after one of those DVD's didn't work out, we watched TV. Just bored and hang around without any efforts doing ;)

Saturday was quite different. Through out day we made our duties. We went shopping and doing household. Later I cooked dinner. Unfortunately it didn't come out the way I wanted. I tried to make a fish in the oven. It should have been a baked fish in a withe wine sauce with garlic and herbals. Served with rice an vegis. But this stupid fish didn't like to come the way I supposed. :(

After dinner we went to the movie. We watched pirates of the carribean III. Fact is, that Jonny is like born for this cast (in pirates of the carribean). But on the other hand, the storyboard in the 3th part is ending nowhere. But something else than the movie took my whole attention for a short time. In the cinema was also a roulette table. IN THE CINEMA, they also rip you off now! :D


Sunday, we went to church. Also not that usual are the plenty of people in there. But to explain this, the kiddz-express also was in there at the beginning. So it seemt like there would be more than usual. But look yourself! It looked like a rock-concert ;)
It's such a pity, that our pastor does make so many advertisment all the time for his church. I'm soon really fed-up with that and look already for an other church around my quarter.


Well after the disappointment in church, because in fact, we (I) want to hear a homily and no advertisment in the house of god, we went home to prepair ourself to go side seeing at the lake of Zurich. On the other side, how does a church grow? I think the only honorable and fair way you can grow as a church is by demonstrate the roulez of God in any situation. -So that other humans can look at you (as church) as a paradigm.

It was such a nice weather on Sunday and Fabienne and I decided to go a little by the lake. And as we where the only one with this idea, we had to search a long time to find a parking place. On one parking, we saw a very seldom car.






The Mercedes SLR! It's a WOW-Car! On both pictures you can find my car (Mitsubishi Eclipse) behind the SLR or on front of it. But it doesn't matter from which side you look at the SLR. The EUR 435'000.- dearer sled looks always better. :)





In the evening we visited Simon and discussed again some life-cycle-duties! At home, we watched TV and went to bed... to make it short, 'cause my boss just came in the office and it looks like he wants me to work right now... :)))

Today's motto: Your decision makes always a difference!

cumulative power

Hi Volks

Yesterday I had once again a day-off because of a public holiday. (Corpus Cristi)

But anyhow, at last I had to go for a non-sense meeting with a customer... 8-)

Nevermind, but as I drove there, I came along a street in my city (Zurich) where all over millionaires live. Look for example to this house above! Behind you can see two other houses / villas! It's really amazing and amusing!

After the 15 minutes-meeting, I've been sent home again, 'cause I could handle the estimated problem in a short-term! So I really got pissed-off on my day-off! :-(

I think it's time for me, to make a balance over the last three months. I have to check-on, if I reached my goals. Did I really improve, or did I worsen? I got to check on the fallowing points:

- Family
- Friends
- Sport / Health
- Finance
- Belief
- G'friend
- Job
- external environment

Family: Am I a the "hub" in our family? Am I a good son, g'son, cousin, brother? To be honest, I feel myself distracted in this area. I communicate with my mom and dad on a weekly base, -with my g'mummy once each two weeks and with my bro' quite often. And with my cousins in Switzerland once in while. With my cousins all over the world... maybe once a month...! But in the end, it seems like I should make still more. All told, I fulfil! Check done!

Friends: I'm in connection with most of them, all time long. At least once a day I here one of my friends... And I believe, I'm a good friend to them. -As they are to me! Some guys I couldn't hold on the contact up all the time. Friends I know already long time, I hear also more than the others, I met later. I should write at least more to my colleagues. An email... Over-all, I also fulfil here! Check done!

Sport / Health: I fail straight down! I just go once a week! At least I should go 3 times a week. So what can I do, to handle this? I got to use again a better time-management. In less than two weeks I go on a cure. And therefor I have to use a good planing. I guess the dates, where I can go would be Mo, We, Fr, ...-maybe Sa. - With Fabienne! Check done!

Finance: I fuck' screw-up! I had already two bonuses payed out and I'm still back in shit. I have to go on with more seriousness. I have to associate and learn new strategies. If I won't, I'll get in real big mess! I'll do action on this area ASAP! This weekend! (can't belief yet, that I snafu this way as a diplomate bachelor of business administration) -Check done!

Belief: Oh I think I'm still on the same niveau. I got my opinion, my perspective on what most people name God. -My belief as a christian still held and holds on. On every single day I think about Jesu. Even if it's just one thaught. But it's on a daily base. Check done!

G'friend: Am I the boyfriend, Fabienne wants? I think, yes! Every time we see us, she gives me positive feedback. She's the girl on my side, now and I the man on hers. We are going to share the time comming. So I look forward on this relationship with her. On a mental base, she opened new perspectives I haven't been used in past and I enjoy it. (Like her leverage to me stop smoking)

Job: I'm on a highest ever! I go steady on and on. Every day I work in the office is also a day I make a deal. A deal on my job means, that I can open the doors to other companies. Making appointments with them and doings sales abilities. Aswell I do the marketing strategies, public relations and research. And on every single issue, I rised up my skills and am now significant an other capacity in our company! So I fulfil! Check done!

External environment: I'm open minded to any person around me. There are people comming to me, I've never ever seen before and do ask me for help. I help them in the only way I can: Find the right questions to their situation in life. It's one of my passions! It's a branch I'm really good in. So all in all, I think to my external environment, I'm a person open-minded, fair, resprectable and without any prejudice! I fulfil! Check done!

Six out of eight points I fulfil. Two I messed up and have to handle them ASAP. Finance on a first priority and than sport / health.

You know, what's driving me the most? In the past days, weeks or months my skills seem to drive-up in any area of my life. More and more I got the feeling of real growth. And how could I set this in? By asking myself always and always the same questions. -That's how I improve. After my questions I give action! Giving action is necessary to make changes. And while doing the action after the right questions, I control, if the outcome is what I expect. If the answer is 'no', I have to change my action. And the more I do this, the more I accept, that people who had the most frustrations and changed their strategy again to go on (standing up over and over again) are beyond the persons with the most success.

I also belief, the more you fail and the more you have to stand up and you do this over and over again, the more you'll get successful!

Today's motto: Don't ever give up! Because you don't know, how near you already are to your personal success!

The 6th June turns hard

Salli Zäme! ;)

It's Wednesday and today I probabely stick all day long on an internal professional schooling. Ergo my one-call-one-deal-a-day I already have done this early morning. ;-)

In a way I feel myself like a piece of ****. Yesterday I was over-exciting with snacks & supplies. Also in my sexual intention I was over-doing ;-) And today I received the receipt! But I can't help, in a other way, I feel myself happy...

I know I'll have to break down on this, so I do a full-stop till end of June 07! At least with the supplies. In fact I gonna start a cure in around two weeks and so I can't go on like before. I don't want to destroy my body or health.

So, in less than five minutes, I have to join the schooling :-( But I'm happy with this, so I can relax through-out the whole day, now... :-P

Today's motto: Distinction comes from the right questions to yourself. Find them in any situation of life!

start keeping in motivation!

Helloooo! :)

Today is a day, where I feel myself really powerful. My one-call-one-deal-a-day held on again.

An other case that's trying to get more attention is the carry-on last year. She wrote me again... -I read it this morning. She want's to underline her commitment to her request yesterday.

And what am I gonna do? How can you handle a situation like this? First I weigh down my situation.

I got a girlfriend that loves me and showes me this in any given situation.
She's a woman, that could bring me farther in my life-cycle. She's a girl, that I adore by heart and sanity.





On the other hand, I got a carry-on, that changed her mind regarding her actual situation. A carry-on, that gave me at the time I needed it, the feeling of being used. But terminated this relationship by not being clear on what she wants.
And now she says, that she's clear on mind and does know, she wants me on every price given!

Well I got to focus on what I want. I want not only a girl on my side, that gives me the feeling of being used. I want someone, who also is a team-member on our own created team! Someone, who bolster and supports me in any lifebelongs (likewise in opposite). And in fact I already got this right now. So in this area, I haven't got any problems.

I'll go to write to her! I want to be straight forward. Tell her, it won't work out! And on the other side, I'll give her the offer, if she got a problem and this problem is the only reason for her contact, she may tell me this and I gonna look, if I can help her. So I can hold my standarts and commit myself to a person, that maybe needs help. (If it's a piss take, it won't fulfil, because my roulez wouldn't give her the chance to...)

Yeah, I think, that's the right way, how to handle this, nor?
(If there's anyone out there, with a better solution, feel free to write me a message) ;-)

Today's motto: Help other in a way, you won't need help by your own in return!

passing weekend on weekend

HiU

On Friday my chaps came again along and we battled on PS2 our fortune with Fifa Soccer 2005. One of my favorite games at the moment. But this time, it didn't work out. I was like paralyzed and couldn't figure the joypad. Like a stupid nerv... 8-)

Saturday was quit easy, Fabienne and I visited once again my mum for dinner. She and her new friend Franz sang karaokeeeeeeeee. Fabienne aswell... And I... but just one song...!

Sunday passt away, like a smoke in the air. About noon I brought my babe to the rail-station. She had to go back home and practise on her schoolings. I brought her on the station and drove to Simon... We watched a movie and than I had to leave again, 'cause I had to work! Yes... I had to work... make analyzis for the new benchmarket of our strategy at work :-(

Something bory to tell you...

So finally I went to work this morning and as I got into my office, starting up my PC as I do always, I had an email comming in. An email from a person, I didn't expect at all. It was a note from a carry-on last December '06. She wrote, that she would be clear about her feelings now and she knows, that the only man, that she really can adore and be the man of all dreams would be ME! :-D

It's like 'wow'! Forsaken in December and rebound in June... What shall I say or do? I'm happy with Fabienne. But my manners still tells me to give an action on her letter. I'm not lost, because I'm clear with the one I got and wouldn't do anything, that could compromise the relationship with Fabienne. On the other hand, I want to give my carry-on a respond. Something that gives her a clear hint, that it will all come to nothing and on the other side, tells her to go her own way faithfully.

I tell you, it's really a mess with these girls! Every one! After we brake up, they realize, what they passed by on me and want to come back again. I don't comment this any farther! But to tell you, it's crazy! :-o

So, I have to get on my job. :-D cya next!

Today's motto: Focusing on your goals, makes you resourceful!

New targets to fulfil and what is with Xzibit?

Ciao!

First to be mentioned today, is one of my friends. He met yesterday evening Xzibit! As you can see on the pic, both of them are in good order! :o)


He waited 7hours before Xzibit's concert started on front of the stage! After the concert he waited again about 3hours, before he met him finally. Oli went with three other. As the concert finished, they wanted to go home. Oli asked them: "Are you crazy? You can't go home, when Xzibit is still around here! I'll stay and wait for him. I'll take a pic with him..." Well, those guys fell out of a laughter and told him, it won't be possible. I think you Oli showed them an other! ;-)

Isn't this a perfect example on the one I already preaching? If you belief, that something is possible, and if you rise-up the standart you need in this subject, you can reach anything @ anytime! Oli is a good example. If he would have listened to the others, he never ever would have had the possibility to take a pic with Xzibit. Even more! Xzibit stayed some minutes togehter with him talking! Oli asked him about the change of his commercial sound in youngest past and if it wouldn't be nice to make again 'normal' sound? Xzibit told him, that he's thankful for his input and will toy with his idea. Oli had probabely one of his exciting and best nights ever, because he changed his view! He rised his standarts and his belief. ...and finally was worthwhile!

Tanks, Oli! ;-)

Now, to come on my job...

I just had a meeting with my boss. He told me, that regarding to my skills, he can't tell me anything negative. But he told me, I skate on thin ice. He said, as long I'm fulfilling my targets, no-one ever can tell me anything, but if I risk just one mistake, there will be others pointing on me... :-(

Especially he meant my kind of morale at work. He told me, I take tomuch liberties. "You can't work just starting at 9am till 12.30pm and after lunch you visite a customer, where as soon you finished with him just go home. -That's not professional!!"
Boss, you're right... Lucky me, I fulfil the targets... :-)))

What I'm thankful about, is he showed me finally also how he's expecting me to manage my job. Showed me tools and approaches, that will help me to do my job in a better way. Do it more easy... (So I got a better time-management, where I have got more leisure in the end) :-D

I'm in good shape for weekend. Today I'll go to the gym with Fabienne. Every first Friday in month I can go to my gym with one guest. Terrific, no? And today is exactly this Friday. Later on and this weekend, my plans are working for my office. I have to. I need to be update with what is happening in my department. (As it's the department where I'm responsible for) All other things have to be set back in priority. :-(

Today's motto: The force of belief can move mountains. You have to channel it into the right directions!