You won't imagine, what I went through once again! Yesterday, I received my salary, today I'm again balanced! This was quite frustrating! I just got a 100 bucks till in my butt. Well okay, I've been a liddle more smart now. At least, I have already made some dispositions! ;-)
For example, I've prepared myself for a survival-month with victuals! Well I didn't expect, it would already come this month, but in the end, I better take it now, than later.
So with this, you can imagine, that I was really frustrated this morning. But I could motivate myself beyond any objections! I told myself: "Right now, more than ever!"
And I fuck' moved my ass! Made a deal, helped my bro' with a prosecution and rised my skills in the research area of my job, by reading more information for the umbrella-group appointement!
I'm on track with my goals and I'm not discouraged with any given challenge (not problems!) I'm involved right now!
I was nearly breaking down today. I almost let up the feeling:
- For what this all?
- What shall I fight for? - I will never come out of this!
And than I had a sudden change of heart! Something in me told me: "Harry! Is this situation new? Haven't you already gone through such in past? What's so different this time?"
To be honest, I wanted to tell myself, that I'm getting tired with all this. Just keep fighting and fighting without any results. But that's not fact! Fact is, that I got less and less depts comming up. I got friends, who helps me to get through this. I got a family, which believes and trusts in me! I got a sweety, staying at my side, even when time runs against me. I got an apartment, which I can afford to live in! I got a repaired car, which for the next years may escort me. I got food. I'm healthy. I got a brain, that functions the right way. And a job, where I can finally use my knowledge. -So what to fuck am I sulking???
The only experience I made this morning, that I can share with other is the "today's motto" ;-)
Today's motto: "If all breaks down on you in a moment, get excited! Than it's a wonderful situation to show what is in you!" HTH
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